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yoonjin time travel au
On his 55th birthday, Kim Seokjin, also known in his neighborhood as “insufferable old Kim”, makes a wish to feel genuine happiness. The next day he wakes up 22 years old again and on the day he first meets his ex-boyfriend, Min Yoongi.
#YJweek18 #day1
On his 55th birthday, Kim Seokjin, also known in his neighborhood as “insufferable old Kim”, makes a wish to feel genuine happiness. The next day he wakes up 22 years old again and on the day he first meets his ex-boyfriend, Min Yoongi.
#YJweek18 #day1
to anyone who might read, qt only & don't reply so thread doesn't break cuz this is a looong au and my first uwu
there is some swearing just a heads up and this is angst w a happy ending so im sorry in advance
there is some swearing just a heads up and this is angst w a happy ending so im sorry in advance
also this is lowkey inspired by Miss Granny (ph ver). haven’t watched the film but there’s a song on the OST that just FITS and i cry
here's the song:
here's the song:
Profiles of Kim Seokjin (55) and Min Yoongi (54)
Profiles of Kim Namjoon (53) and Kim Taehyung (52)
Profiles of Jung Hoseok (53), Park Jimin (52), and Jeon Jungkook (50)
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Seokjin knows he’s not everyone’s favorite old person. He’s grumpy, he starts fights, he complains a lot; Basically, he’s not a fun person to be around. But his dishes are inarguably the best in the block, so he can do whatever he wants no matter what anyone thinks.
Seokjin knows he’s not everyone’s favorite old person. He’s grumpy, he starts fights, he complains a lot; Basically, he’s not a fun person to be around. But his dishes are inarguably the best in the block, so he can do whatever he wants no matter what anyone thinks.
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His younger brother, Namjoon, disagrees.
“It’s my birthday, Joon-ah. Can’t you just drop it? For my special day?”
“Hyung, you twisted Mr. Kang’s arm behind his back and screamed that you won’t let go until he, and I quote,
His younger brother, Namjoon, disagrees.
“It’s my birthday, Joon-ah. Can’t you just drop it? For my special day?”
“Hyung, you twisted Mr. Kang’s arm behind his back and screamed that you won’t let go until he, and I quote,
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‘take back the shit you said about my restaurant’s décor, you little bitch’."
"In my defense, he’s always been a little-"
"Don’t finish that statement."
Namjoon rubs at his temples and releases a deep sigh.
"Hyung, you're 55. Aren't you tired of being like this?"
‘take back the shit you said about my restaurant’s décor, you little bitch’."
"In my defense, he’s always been a little-"
"Don’t finish that statement."
Namjoon rubs at his temples and releases a deep sigh.
"Hyung, you're 55. Aren't you tired of being like this?"
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"And what exactly is THIS Namjoon? An embarrassment to the family, a burden?"
"Sad," his youngest brother, Taehyung interjects. "You're sad, hyung. And angry."
"You too, Tae?"
"Hyung, you know we love you," Jimin pouts at him.
"We just want you to be happy," Hoseok adds.
"And what exactly is THIS Namjoon? An embarrassment to the family, a burden?"
"Sad," his youngest brother, Taehyung interjects. "You're sad, hyung. And angry."
"You too, Tae?"
"Hyung, you know we love you," Jimin pouts at him.
"We just want you to be happy," Hoseok adds.
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"It's my birthday and everyone's ganging up on me. Of fucking course."
"Hyung," Namjoon starts again. "This isn't you. Despite the reputation you've built for yourself, we know that you're still the same selfless and loving hyung. Why don't you just move on?"
"It's my birthday and everyone's ganging up on me. Of fucking course."
"Hyung," Namjoon starts again. "This isn't you. Despite the reputation you've built for yourself, we know that you're still the same selfless and loving hyung. Why don't you just move on?"
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"Move on? You don't think I've tried to move on? You're not the one who had your heart ripped out of your chest and stepped on. I gave him everything I had but he threw it all away for his stupid career. He even had the gall to use the song. The song he said was only for me--
"Move on? You don't think I've tried to move on? You're not the one who had your heart ripped out of your chest and stepped on. I gave him everything I had but he threw it all away for his stupid career. He even had the gall to use the song. The song he said was only for me--
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"for us. He used me, Namjoon. Don't I have the right to be angry? Don't I have the right to feel pain?"
"It's been 33 years! Time itself has moved on without you. You're getting angry at a world that had nothing to do with your pain!"
"Well, maybe I want it to feel my pain!
"for us. He used me, Namjoon. Don't I have the right to be angry? Don't I have the right to feel pain?"
"It's been 33 years! Time itself has moved on without you. You're getting angry at a world that had nothing to do with your pain!"
"Well, maybe I want it to feel my pain!
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"Maybe I want it to suffer like I did. He got everything he wanted. He's a hotshot CEO now and I'm still just me. Why does he get to be happy when he hurt others to get there?"
Silence falls over the room. Seokjin looks at the face of his family, feeling tears prick his eyes.
"Maybe I want it to suffer like I did. He got everything he wanted. He's a hotshot CEO now and I'm still just me. Why does he get to be happy when he hurt others to get there?"
Silence falls over the room. Seokjin looks at the face of his family, feeling tears prick his eyes.
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He rubs them away before standing up and saying he's going to the bathroom. Closing the door behind him, he falls to the floor and cries like he's never done since Min Yoongi broke up with him. The scars on his heart open up again as he remembers what he wants to forget.
He rubs them away before standing up and saying he's going to the bathroom. Closing the door behind him, he falls to the floor and cries like he's never done since Min Yoongi broke up with him. The scars on his heart open up again as he remembers what he wants to forget.
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Seokjin and Yoongi met in college through Namjoon. It was during one of Namjoon's underground rap shows and Yoongi was the one who asked to be introduced to Seokjin when he found out they were brothers bec Yoongi had been a fan of Seokjin from videos of him online busking.
Seokjin and Yoongi met in college through Namjoon. It was during one of Namjoon's underground rap shows and Yoongi was the one who asked to be introduced to Seokjin when he found out they were brothers bec Yoongi had been a fan of Seokjin from videos of him online busking.
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They see each other and it was like love at first sight. They start to talk and hit it off like wildfire, finding common interests like music, aversion to cold, and coffee. Their personalities fit each other like puzzle pieces. By the end of the night, they were inseperable.
They see each other and it was like love at first sight. They start to talk and hit it off like wildfire, finding common interests like music, aversion to cold, and coffee. Their personalities fit each other like puzzle pieces. By the end of the night, they were inseperable.
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They start dating and it's every bit a whirlwind romance. Every time they look into each other's eyes, they see galaxies. Every time they kiss, fireworks. Every time spent with each other was like finding forever with a one in a million chance every single time.
They start dating and it's every bit a whirlwind romance. Every time they look into each other's eyes, they see galaxies. Every time they kiss, fireworks. Every time spent with each other was like finding forever with a one in a million chance every single time.
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With Yoongi, Seokjin learned to let go of his inhibitions. He started taking risks he used to be afraid of. He felt so happy bec with Yoongi he is his happiest and he is sure of that. He could see a future with him. He wanted a future with him and he was sure Yoongi did too.
With Yoongi, Seokjin learned to let go of his inhibitions. He started taking risks he used to be afraid of. He felt so happy bec with Yoongi he is his happiest and he is sure of that. He could see a future with him. He wanted a future with him and he was sure Yoongi did too.
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Or he thought he did.
On the day of his 23rd birthday, he gets a call from Yoongi.
"We need to break up."
"What?"
"I'm leaving."
"Wait--I don't--you're leaving?"
"I got an offer to go to Hong Kong. I took it. My flight is today."
"What? You never told me this. Yoongi-"
Or he thought he did.
On the day of his 23rd birthday, he gets a call from Yoongi.
"We need to break up."
"What?"
"I'm leaving."
"Wait--I don't--you're leaving?"
"I got an offer to go to Hong Kong. I took it. My flight is today."
"What? You never told me this. Yoongi-"
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"I'm sorry."
"No. We can still make it work! We can call and text and videochat and-"
"I'm sorry, hyung. I don't think I can."
"Yoongi, no. You can't do this! Please, Yoongi. I love you."
"Goodbye, hyung. I'm sorry."
Yoongi hangs up and Seokjin's world crashes into pieces.
"I'm sorry."
"No. We can still make it work! We can call and text and videochat and-"
"I'm sorry, hyung. I don't think I can."
"Yoongi, no. You can't do this! Please, Yoongi. I love you."
"Goodbye, hyung. I'm sorry."
Yoongi hangs up and Seokjin's world crashes into pieces.
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He didn't celebrate his birthday that day. Instead, he gave the keys back to his almost-landlady saying that something came up and he couldn't move in after all. He doesn't know why but before he leaves, she gives him a tight hug and wishes for him to have a good life.
He didn't celebrate his birthday that day. Instead, he gave the keys back to his almost-landlady saying that something came up and he couldn't move in after all. He doesn't know why but before he leaves, she gives him a tight hug and wishes for him to have a good life.
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Seokjin tries to move on from Yoongi. He graduates uni, gets an entry-level job at a small firm, he hangs out w his friends, his co-workers, gets a dog, just trying to live his best life and forgetting him. And all is well until 8 months later and he's out with Taehyung
Seokjin tries to move on from Yoongi. He graduates uni, gets an entry-level job at a small firm, he hangs out w his friends, his co-workers, gets a dog, just trying to live his best life and forgetting him. And all is well until 8 months later and he's out with Taehyung
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grocery shopping when the music playing in the mart sings lyrics that he's all too familiar with.
/And you're the reason I'm happier now. My one last hope, my paradise./
He stops in his tracks. Taehyung asks him what's wrong but all he can hear is the song and the unfamiliar
grocery shopping when the music playing in the mart sings lyrics that he's all too familiar with.
/And you're the reason I'm happier now. My one last hope, my paradise./
He stops in his tracks. Taehyung asks him what's wrong but all he can hear is the song and the unfamiliar
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voice singing it.
"Do you know this song, Tae?"
"Hmm? Yeah! It's from a new artist named JK. All-kill on the charts right now. It's popular too cause it's this famous indie pd's first mainstream release; name's Suga I think. You like it?"
"No. I hate it. I hate it so much."
voice singing it.
"Do you know this song, Tae?"
"Hmm? Yeah! It's from a new artist named JK. All-kill on the charts right now. It's popular too cause it's this famous indie pd's first mainstream release; name's Suga I think. You like it?"
"No. I hate it. I hate it so much."
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When they get home, the first thing Jin does is search the song. Everything Taehyung said was right and his heart clenches when he sees Yoongi's face on the screen. He looks up the song lyrics and as he reads them, a melody from so long ago plays in his mind and tears fall.
When they get home, the first thing Jin does is search the song. Everything Taehyung said was right and his heart clenches when he sees Yoongi's face on the screen. He looks up the song lyrics and as he reads them, a melody from so long ago plays in his mind and tears fall.
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He sees the piano, the bed sheets, and the notes scattered on the desk. He smells the pine of Yoongi's perfume, the citrus of his, and the coffee on the night stand. He hears the early morning traffic and the soft deep voice next to his ear, singing the lyrics in his hand.
He sees the piano, the bed sheets, and the notes scattered on the desk. He smells the pine of Yoongi's perfume, the citrus of his, and the coffee on the night stand. He hears the early morning traffic and the soft deep voice next to his ear, singing the lyrics in his hand.
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"It was the first time he told me he loved me," he breaks down in front of Jimin. "But he never did."
Jimin strokes his hair, "Oh, I'm sure he loves you, hyung."
"How? You don't just tell someone you love them then leave them."
"He loves you, hyung. He loves you."
"It was the first time he told me he loved me," he breaks down in front of Jimin. "But he never did."
Jimin strokes his hair, "Oh, I'm sure he loves you, hyung."
"How? You don't just tell someone you love them then leave them."
"He loves you, hyung. He loves you."
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Seokjin didn't believe it then and he doesn't believe it now. Having cried as much as he silently could, he stands up from the bathroom floor and looks at himself in the mirror. There are crow's feet and bags around his eyes, age spots on his cheeks, and wrinkles everywhere.
Seokjin didn't believe it then and he doesn't believe it now. Having cried as much as he silently could, he stands up from the bathroom floor and looks at himself in the mirror. There are crow's feet and bags around his eyes, age spots on his cheeks, and wrinkles everywhere.
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Wipng at the tears, he notes that he's not as youthful as he used to be and he's nearing retirement age. Oh how time passed him so quickly but he never realized. He knows he's done a lot over the past 33 years, he opened up his own restaurant, he bought a house,
Wipng at the tears, he notes that he's not as youthful as he used to be and he's nearing retirement age. Oh how time passed him so quickly but he never realized. He knows he's done a lot over the past 33 years, he opened up his own restaurant, he bought a house,
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he's raised a handful of pets, watched both his brothers get married, helped them raise children of their own, witnessed the neighborhood grow into what is it today, and yet it still feels like nothing much has changed. He's still angry and sad. His heart is still hurting.
he's raised a handful of pets, watched both his brothers get married, helped them raise children of their own, witnessed the neighborhood grow into what is it today, and yet it still feels like nothing much has changed. He's still angry and sad. His heart is still hurting.
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No matter what Namjoon thinks, he really does want to get on with his life. He does want to be happy. But he can't. Seeing Min Yoongi happy at his expense, it just makes him--just makes him--
"Miserable."
The word leaves his lips and he almost starts crying again.
No matter what Namjoon thinks, he really does want to get on with his life. He does want to be happy. But he can't. Seeing Min Yoongi happy at his expense, it just makes him--just makes him--
"Miserable."
The word leaves his lips and he almost starts crying again.
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He's stuck in a cycle. He knows he is. He knows he wants to be happy. Just genuinely happy.
A knock on the door pulls him from his thoughts.
"Hyung?" It's Jimin. "Are you okay?"
He turns on the faucet and splashes water on his face.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
He's stuck in a cycle. He knows he is. He knows he wants to be happy. Just genuinely happy.
A knock on the door pulls him from his thoughts.
"Hyung?" It's Jimin. "Are you okay?"
He turns on the faucet and splashes water on his face.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
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"Are you sure? 'Cause if you're not we could just g-"
He opens the door and gasps.
"Did you seriously just insinuate leaving me alone ON MY BIRTHDAY?"
"B-b-but we thought you-"
"We haven't even had cake yet! Jimin, you're supposed to be the closest to me out of everyone."
"Are you sure? 'Cause if you're not we could just g-"
He opens the door and gasps.
"Did you seriously just insinuate leaving me alone ON MY BIRTHDAY?"
"B-b-but we thought you-"
"We haven't even had cake yet! Jimin, you're supposed to be the closest to me out of everyone."
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"I--"
Seokjin leaves him for the kitchen where he gets his cake from the fridge and saunters in the dining room where the others are. Namjoon stands up upon seeing him.
"Hyung, I'm sor--"
"Don't apologize, Joonie. It's not a good look for you. And you're right.
"I--"
Seokjin leaves him for the kitchen where he gets his cake from the fridge and saunters in the dining room where the others are. Namjoon stands up upon seeing him.
"Hyung, I'm sor--"
"Don't apologize, Joonie. It's not a good look for you. And you're right.
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From now on, I'm going to try to be a better citizen."
"You--you are?"
"Yep! It's going to be hard changing my ways but I'll try to bully Kang a little less. Isn't that great?"
"Um, well yeah but that's not--"
"Look, Joon, I know I'm closer to death than you all are
From now on, I'm going to try to be a better citizen."
"You--you are?"
"Yep! It's going to be hard changing my ways but I'll try to bully Kang a little less. Isn't that great?"
"Um, well yeah but that's not--"
"Look, Joon, I know I'm closer to death than you all are
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and I'm not getting any farther away from it. So I promise you now that I'll be on my best behavior, okay? Wouldn't want to go to hell and all that jazz."
"Hyung," Taehyung cautioned him.
"I'm fine, everyone really. You don't have to worry about me, okay? I'll try. I'll try."
and I'm not getting any farther away from it. So I promise you now that I'll be on my best behavior, okay? Wouldn't want to go to hell and all that jazz."
"Hyung," Taehyung cautioned him.
"I'm fine, everyone really. You don't have to worry about me, okay? I'll try. I'll try."
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Something in his tone makes everyone visibly relax a little though Seokjin can tell Taehyung is only partly convinced but he'll take it. He inserts the birthday candles into the cake and lights them up with the match that came with it. They were very pretty candles,
Something in his tone makes everyone visibly relax a little though Seokjin can tell Taehyung is only partly convinced but he'll take it. He inserts the birthday candles into the cake and lights them up with the match that came with it. They were very pretty candles,
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red and very sparkly.
"I'm going to make a wish now. Everyone better sing, especially you, Junseo."
And everyone does. Seokjin watches the flames dance in front of his eyes before closing them and making his wish: 'I wish to feel genuinely happy again.'
red and very sparkly.
"I'm going to make a wish now. Everyone better sing, especially you, Junseo."
And everyone does. Seokjin watches the flames dance in front of his eyes before closing them and making his wish: 'I wish to feel genuinely happy again.'
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He blows at the candles and opens his eyes to everyone cheering for him. The rest of his small birthday party goes well or as well as it could with a bunch of old men in their 50s and their children in their 20s. The night wraps up and Seokjin is hugging his nieces goodbye.
He blows at the candles and opens his eyes to everyone cheering for him. The rest of his small birthday party goes well or as well as it could with a bunch of old men in their 50s and their children in their 20s. The night wraps up and Seokjin is hugging his nieces goodbye.
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"What did you wish for, Uncle Jinnie?" Naeun asks him.
"Hmm?"
"Your wish," Daeun clarifies. "On the birthday candles?"
"Oh, well wouldn't both of you want to know?"
"We're curious, Uncle!" they reply in unison.
Jin shakes his head, fond, "Oh, girls, don't you know that saying
"What did you wish for, Uncle Jinnie?" Naeun asks him.
"Hmm?"
"Your wish," Daeun clarifies. "On the birthday candles?"
"Oh, well wouldn't both of you want to know?"
"We're curious, Uncle!" they reply in unison.
Jin shakes his head, fond, "Oh, girls, don't you know that saying
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your wish won't make it come true? And I very much want this to come true you know?"
The twins pout at him but laugh with him soon after.
"Whatever you say, Uncle. Take care okay?"
"Yes, yes I will. Oh and tell your papa to loosen up a little. His hair's turning gray."
your wish won't make it come true? And I very much want this to come true you know?"
The twins pout at him but laugh with him soon after.
"Whatever you say, Uncle. Take care okay?"
"Yes, yes I will. Oh and tell your papa to loosen up a little. His hair's turning gray."
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"Yes, Uncle!"
The girls leave and its just Seokjin alone in his home. He releases a deep sigh before getting ready to go to his bed. He goes along with the motions and before he knows it he's under the covers and falling asleep. The last thought that runs through his head
"Yes, Uncle!"
The girls leave and its just Seokjin alone in his home. He releases a deep sigh before getting ready to go to his bed. He goes along with the motions and before he knows it he's under the covers and falling asleep. The last thought that runs through his head
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is his wish. Though he was just humoring his nieces, somewhere deep inside him terribly wants his wish to come true. He wants to forget about Min Yoongi and just cook in his restaurant and live his best life. Maybe meet someone new despite his age. Oh, to be young again.
is his wish. Though he was just humoring his nieces, somewhere deep inside him terribly wants his wish to come true. He wants to forget about Min Yoongi and just cook in his restaurant and live his best life. Maybe meet someone new despite his age. Oh, to be young again.
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The morning sun greets him rather harshly and he tries to cover himself with his blanket before his alarm clock suddenly goes off and wait--he doesn't have an alarm clock. He bolts upright into a sitting position and cringes at the pain that he knows will shoot up his back
The morning sun greets him rather harshly and he tries to cover himself with his blanket before his alarm clock suddenly goes off and wait--he doesn't have an alarm clock. He bolts upright into a sitting position and cringes at the pain that he knows will shoot up his back
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Except it doesn't come and he's more confused than ever as he takes in his surroundings.
"What the actual-"
He catches sight of his reflection before screaming his head off into oblivion.
He scrambles out of bed to get closer to the mirror when the door slams open,
Except it doesn't come and he's more confused than ever as he takes in his surroundings.
"What the actual-"
He catches sight of his reflection before screaming his head off into oblivion.
He scrambles out of bed to get closer to the mirror when the door slams open,
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Namjoon--A VERY YOUNG NAMJOON--entering in a panic with a vacuum in his hand and swishing it at the room in general.
"WHAT IS IT, HYUNG? WHO DO I HAVE TO MAKE UNCONSCIOUS?"
Seokjin just gapes at him until he stops swinging his "weapon", spotting Seokjin on
Namjoon--A VERY YOUNG NAMJOON--entering in a panic with a vacuum in his hand and swishing it at the room in general.
"WHAT IS IT, HYUNG? WHO DO I HAVE TO MAKE UNCONSCIOUS?"
Seokjin just gapes at him until he stops swinging his "weapon", spotting Seokjin on
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the floor and seeing the otherwise empty room.
"What are you doing on the floor?"
Seokjin screams his head off again before fainting.
He comes to in his bed, a damp cloth on his forehead, and a pack of oranges on the sidetable with a note: "hope you're ok hyung! i notified
the floor and seeing the otherwise empty room.
"What are you doing on the floor?"
Seokjin screams his head off again before fainting.
He comes to in his bed, a damp cloth on his forehead, and a pack of oranges on the sidetable with a note: "hope you're ok hyung! i notified
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your professors that you're taking the day off. also got you oranges and there's soup in the kitchen. don't worry, it's takeout. text me if you're feeling better & if you still want to go to the show today. love you! -joonie"
Seokjin drops the note and takes a deep breath.
your professors that you're taking the day off. also got you oranges and there's soup in the kitchen. don't worry, it's takeout. text me if you're feeling better & if you still want to go to the show today. love you! -joonie"
Seokjin drops the note and takes a deep breath.
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He turns his head slowly to the mirror and clamps his hands over his mouth to keep himself from screaming again. The reflection he is seeing now is nothing like the reflection he saw last night. It's younger, has completely black hair, still handsome as always though.
He turns his head slowly to the mirror and clamps his hands over his mouth to keep himself from screaming again. The reflection he is seeing now is nothing like the reflection he saw last night. It's younger, has completely black hair, still handsome as always though.
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He rubs at his eyes, pinches himself a couple of times, and even does a couple of burpees to prove that he isn't imagining things and he's actually young again. He laughs at the surreality of it all. But Namjoon is young too, isn't he? He turns to the bedside table where his
He rubs at his eyes, pinches himself a couple of times, and even does a couple of burpees to prove that he isn't imagining things and he's actually young again. He laughs at the surreality of it all. But Namjoon is young too, isn't he? He turns to the bedside table where his
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phone is and turns the screen on to show the date. He almost drops it when he sees that it's June 4 but June 4, 32* years ago. He tries to steady his breathing bec June 4 is THE day but he's actually in the year it happened and shit he's supposed to meet Yoongi later.
phone is and turns the screen on to show the date. He almost drops it when he sees that it's June 4 but June 4, 32* years ago. He tries to steady his breathing bec June 4 is THE day but he's actually in the year it happened and shit he's supposed to meet Yoongi later.
*um hi just interrupting the flow cuz earlier Joon screamed 33 years ago but its actually 32. i miscalculated. i am bad at math orz sorry about that. okay carry on.
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He rushes to pick the note Namjoon wrote for him and rereads the second-to-the last sentence. He takes deep breaths and tries to keep his hands from shaking. If he really went back in time, then there has to be a reason right? And all the more that he went back on the day he
He rushes to pick the note Namjoon wrote for him and rereads the second-to-the last sentence. He takes deep breaths and tries to keep his hands from shaking. If he really went back in time, then there has to be a reason right? And all the more that he went back on the day he
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first meets Yoongi. And he made a wish to be happy again. Call him crazy, but maybe this is a sign that he can start anew. Maybe this is the chance for him to finally have that happiness.
He rushes to unlock his phone, entering the passcode he's used since forever (honestly
first meets Yoongi. And he made a wish to be happy again. Call him crazy, but maybe this is a sign that he can start anew. Maybe this is the chance for him to finally have that happiness.
He rushes to unlock his phone, entering the passcode he's used since forever (honestly
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how did he not have any security issues in the last 3 decades) and texts Namjoon that he's fine, thanks for the food and that no, he's not going to the show anymore. He hits send and it's not even a minute when his phone rings showing "Kim no. 2" calling him.
how did he not have any security issues in the last 3 decades) and texts Namjoon that he's fine, thanks for the food and that no, he's not going to the show anymore. He hits send and it's not even a minute when his phone rings showing "Kim no. 2" calling him.
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"Hello?"
"Hey, hyung, glad you're doing fine!"
"Uh yeah... me too."
"What happened earlier anyway? Why'd you scream?"
"Oh. Um, had a bad dream. I, uh, thought I didn't graduate?"
"Ooh. That's harsh."
"Yeah."
"Well, if it helps, just know that I think you got this in the bag!"
"Hello?"
"Hey, hyung, glad you're doing fine!"
"Uh yeah... me too."
"What happened earlier anyway? Why'd you scream?"
"Oh. Um, had a bad dream. I, uh, thought I didn't graduate?"
"Ooh. That's harsh."
"Yeah."
"Well, if it helps, just know that I think you got this in the bag!"
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Seokjin smiles fondly at the phone, seeing his brother in his mind, young again and carefree, grinning at him.
"Thanks, Joonie. Really."
"No worries, hyung! What are brothers for? Anyway, you sure you can't come to the show today? Yoongi-hyung's really looking forward to
Seokjin smiles fondly at the phone, seeing his brother in his mind, young again and carefree, grinning at him.
"Thanks, Joonie. Really."
"No worries, hyung! What are brothers for? Anyway, you sure you can't come to the show today? Yoongi-hyung's really looking forward to
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finally meeting you."
"NO!" (Oh shit.) "I mean, no I can't come to your show. The nightmare really affected me and I think I should take it slow, tonight."
"Okay? Yeah I think you need to rest too. Sucks though. He really wanted to meet you and I think you'd really like him."
finally meeting you."
"NO!" (Oh shit.) "I mean, no I can't come to your show. The nightmare really affected me and I think I should take it slow, tonight."
"Okay? Yeah I think you need to rest too. Sucks though. He really wanted to meet you and I think you'd really like him."
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(I'm pretty sure I won't.)
"Yeah, sucks. But health and safety first, ya know? Hahaha speaking of, don't stay out too long. Jimin's gonna be pouty all night if you do."
"Jimin? Why would he be...pouty?"
Oh wait. They aren't together at this time yet.
"Jimin? Did I say Jimin?
(I'm pretty sure I won't.)
"Yeah, sucks. But health and safety first, ya know? Hahaha speaking of, don't stay out too long. Jimin's gonna be pouty all night if you do."
"Jimin? Why would he be...pouty?"
Oh wait. They aren't together at this time yet.
"Jimin? Did I say Jimin?
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I meant me! Jin not Jimin. Jinjin. Jinnie-hyung. I'll be pouty."
"Right. Just get some rest. I'll be back before you know it."
"Okay, bye."
That was too many close calls than his heart could handle but good thing he's young again or he might've actually had a heart attack.
I meant me! Jin not Jimin. Jinjin. Jinnie-hyung. I'll be pouty."
"Right. Just get some rest. I'll be back before you know it."
"Okay, bye."
That was too many close calls than his heart could handle but good thing he's young again or he might've actually had a heart attack.
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Seeing as this is his second chance at life, Seokjin comes up with a game plan that guarantees he will NOT have a relationhsip with Min Yoongi.
One, he will refuse any and all invitations from Namjoon and/or Hoseok to meet with Yoongi.
Two, he will stay away from all the
Seeing as this is his second chance at life, Seokjin comes up with a game plan that guarantees he will NOT have a relationhsip with Min Yoongi.
One, he will refuse any and all invitations from Namjoon and/or Hoseok to meet with Yoongi.
Two, he will stay away from all the
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places he knows Yoongi hung out in to lessen the chances of meeting him.
And three, on the off-chance that they do meet, he will cut conversations as short as he can and act as cold as possible to make Yoongi not even bother to LOOK at him ever again.
And he only has to do
places he knows Yoongi hung out in to lessen the chances of meeting him.
And three, on the off-chance that they do meet, he will cut conversations as short as he can and act as cold as possible to make Yoongi not even bother to LOOK at him ever again.
And he only has to do
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this for six months, then he will be free. He will finally be free from Min Yoongi and fuck if he doesn't have his best life then. The source of all his pain and anguish will never have the chance to enter his life and he's going to make sure of that. Just watch him.
this for six months, then he will be free. He will finally be free from Min Yoongi and fuck if he doesn't have his best life then. The source of all his pain and anguish will never have the chance to enter his life and he's going to make sure of that. Just watch him.
Profiles of Kim Seokjin (22 again) and Min Yoongi (22)
Profiles of Kim Namjoon (20) and Kim Taehyung (19)
Profiles of Jung Hoseok (21), Park Jimin (19), and Jeon Jungkook (17)
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It's been two weeks since Seokjin went back in time and he's honestly having the time of his life. He's young again and can do the things his older body stopped being able to do a long time ago. He's also around his brothers and Jimin and Hoseok a lot more, something he
It's been two weeks since Seokjin went back in time and he's honestly having the time of his life. He's young again and can do the things his older body stopped being able to do a long time ago. He's also around his brothers and Jimin and Hoseok a lot more, something he
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didn't realize he missed until they all went out for karaoke last week and just let loose. He wonders why they all stopped spending time like this, like the world was free for them to conquer. Was it their age? The responsibilities? He can't believe he's thinking this but
didn't realize he missed until they all went out for karaoke last week and just let loose. He wonders why they all stopped spending time like this, like the world was free for them to conquer. Was it their age? The responsibilities? He can't believe he's thinking this but
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he misses them already, Joonie, Tae, Jimin, and Hoseok in the future. He doesn't even know how that makes sense 'cause technically they don't exist yet. Maybe it's just old man wistfulness what does he know? But he'll get there when he'll get there and he'll make sure that
he misses them already, Joonie, Tae, Jimin, and Hoseok in the future. He doesn't even know how that makes sense 'cause technically they don't exist yet. Maybe it's just old man wistfulness what does he know? But he'll get there when he'll get there and he'll make sure that
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they all don't stop. That they'll come together once in a while to just talk and hang out, just like the good old times, or the good now times? Eh, tomato, tomahto. But that isn't even the best part. The best part about being young again is knowing the good decisions from
they all don't stop. That they'll come together once in a while to just talk and hang out, just like the good old times, or the good now times? Eh, tomato, tomahto. But that isn't even the best part. The best part about being young again is knowing the good decisions from
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the bad and he's more than willing to let go of the bad. So far, he's been successful in his goal of avoiding Min Yoongi. There had been a close call when he was going to pick Jimin up from dance class bec they were supposed to go busking after. But Jimin, sweet, sweet
the bad and he's more than willing to let go of the bad. So far, he's been successful in his goal of avoiding Min Yoongi. There had been a close call when he was going to pick Jimin up from dance class bec they were supposed to go busking after. But Jimin, sweet, sweet
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Jimin (bless his heart) gave him a heads up that Hoseok was thinking about coming too and is planning to invite a certain blonde. Well, unfortunately, flight KSJ bound to genuine happiness has already taken off and all passengers who missed their flight can suck it.
Jimin (bless his heart) gave him a heads up that Hoseok was thinking about coming too and is planning to invite a certain blonde. Well, unfortunately, flight KSJ bound to genuine happiness has already taken off and all passengers who missed their flight can suck it.
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He tells Jimin that he'll take a rain check 'cause something came up and spends the rest of the night locked in his room, pretending he isn't playing video games so Namjoon doesn't go suspicious. Though he does feel a little bad about leaving Jimin which is why now, on a
He tells Jimin that he'll take a rain check 'cause something came up and spends the rest of the night locked in his room, pretending he isn't playing video games so Namjoon doesn't go suspicious. Though he does feel a little bad about leaving Jimin which is why now, on a
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Sunday night, he's setting up the mics and the speakers, tuning his guitar while Jimin is next to him doing vocal warm ups. Taehyung fiddles with his camera a little off to the side, setting it up at the perfect angle. Jimin turns to him.
"Thanks for not backing out on me
Sunday night, he's setting up the mics and the speakers, tuning his guitar while Jimin is next to him doing vocal warm ups. Taehyung fiddles with his camera a little off to the side, setting it up at the perfect angle. Jimin turns to him.
"Thanks for not backing out on me
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this time, hyung."
"You know I'd never back out on you, Jimin-ah. Something really did come up last week!"
"Mmm-hmm and if that something hadn't been invited, you'd come running faster than the speed of light."
"I regret telling you things sometimes."
"Aww, hyung, I'm just
this time, hyung."
"You know I'd never back out on you, Jimin-ah. Something really did come up last week!"
"Mmm-hmm and if that something hadn't been invited, you'd come running faster than the speed of light."
"I regret telling you things sometimes."
"Aww, hyung, I'm just
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teasing! But seriously, Yoon--"
"Stop trying to change my mind."
"Well, if you'd just tell me WHY you don't want to meet him--"
"It's--"
"Complicated. You told me a thousand times already. But seriously he's not half bad. Joonie-hyung's right and I think you'll like him too."
teasing! But seriously, Yoon--"
"Stop trying to change my mind."
"Well, if you'd just tell me WHY you don't want to meet him--"
"It's--"
"Complicated. You told me a thousand times already. But seriously he's not half bad. Joonie-hyung's right and I think you'll like him too."
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"I know what's good for me, Jimin-ah, and he's not it."
"Not even just one chance?"
"Nope."
"Not even a short introduction?"
"Never."
"Yo!" Taehyung calls their attention. "Camera's locked and loaded, am ready whenever you guys are."
Jimin and Seokjin turn to each other and
"I know what's good for me, Jimin-ah, and he's not it."
"Not even just one chance?"
"Nope."
"Not even a short introduction?"
"Never."
"Yo!" Taehyung calls their attention. "Camera's locked and loaded, am ready whenever you guys are."
Jimin and Seokjin turn to each other and
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stand in front of their mics.
"Do you want to stick with the setlist or...?"
"Whatever you want to do, hyung. I'll follow your guitar."
The night ends soon enough and Seokjin can hear his heartbeat in his ears. He hasn't busked in years and it's a lot more fun than he
stand in front of their mics.
"Do you want to stick with the setlist or...?"
"Whatever you want to do, hyung. I'll follow your guitar."
The night ends soon enough and Seokjin can hear his heartbeat in his ears. He hasn't busked in years and it's a lot more fun than he
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remembers it to be. The applause of the crowd, requests from some less timid souls in the audience. Hearing Jimin sing again, hearing HIMSELF sing again, seeing Taehyung smile from behind the camera, and just letting the music take over his soul, it's almost healing in a way.
remembers it to be. The applause of the crowd, requests from some less timid souls in the audience. Hearing Jimin sing again, hearing HIMSELF sing again, seeing Taehyung smile from behind the camera, and just letting the music take over his soul, it's almost healing in a way.
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He hated music when he got older, he WANTED to hate music because music was what made Yoongi leave him. But now, he realizes maybe he shouldn't have equated music to pain. Music is a sweet release, a comforting hug, an old friend he's pushed away all those years ago, it was--
He hated music when he got older, he WANTED to hate music because music was what made Yoongi leave him. But now, he realizes maybe he shouldn't have equated music to pain. Music is a sweet release, a comforting hug, an old friend he's pushed away all those years ago, it was--
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"Yoongi-hyung! Hi!"
Oh no.
Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no.
Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no!!!! And he was doing so well too, fuuuuu--
"Jin-hyung!"
"Yeah, Jimin?"
"There's someone here who wants to meet you! Hyung, this is--"
A deep voice talks to him, "Hi, I'm Yoongi."
"Yoongi-hyung! Hi!"
Oh no.
Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no.
Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no!!!! And he was doing so well too, fuuuuu--
"Jin-hyung!"
"Yeah, Jimin?"
"There's someone here who wants to meet you! Hyung, this is--"
A deep voice talks to him, "Hi, I'm Yoongi."
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Seokjin doesn't want to turn around. He really, REALLY doesn't want to turn around. He looks out in front of him trying to see if there's a path he can escape through in the crowd but it's too dense 'cause there's so many people. (CURSE YOU, NIGHT LIFE IN HONGDAE!)
Seokjin doesn't want to turn around. He really, REALLY doesn't want to turn around. He looks out in front of him trying to see if there's a path he can escape through in the crowd but it's too dense 'cause there's so many people. (CURSE YOU, NIGHT LIFE IN HONGDAE!)
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'It's ok, Seokjin,' he thinks to himself. 'You're fine, you're fine. You still have point number 3 in the game plan. Just roll with it and make Min Yoongi hate you, okay? Okay.'
He turns around, ready to brandish out insufferable old Kim once again, but he didn't know
'It's ok, Seokjin,' he thinks to himself. 'You're fine, you're fine. You still have point number 3 in the game plan. Just roll with it and make Min Yoongi hate you, okay? Okay.'
He turns around, ready to brandish out insufferable old Kim once again, but he didn't know
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that Yoongi was standing closer than he thought and his heart drops. He's brought back to a couple of weeks ago or what was supposed to have been a couple of weeks ago but now is just a distant memory only he knows about. Yoongi's got the same platinum blonde hair, the same
that Yoongi was standing closer than he thought and his heart drops. He's brought back to a couple of weeks ago or what was supposed to have been a couple of weeks ago but now is just a distant memory only he knows about. Yoongi's got the same platinum blonde hair, the same
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black rim glasses, the same mostly-black getup, and the same lopsided smile. The damn smile that made his heart flutter for the first time all those years ago and fuck it why is his heart beating like it's never been broken by the very same man standing before him now?
black rim glasses, the same mostly-black getup, and the same lopsided smile. The damn smile that made his heart flutter for the first time all those years ago and fuck it why is his heart beating like it's never been broken by the very same man standing before him now?
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He hates Yoongi, has hated him for 32 years and yet--
"Are you okay?" the words leave Yoongi's lips and his eyebrows furrow in concern.
"You can't..."
"I'm sorry?"
"No, you're not."
"Um, what?"
"I don't want to see your face ever again."
"Hyung!" Jimin calls after him.
He hates Yoongi, has hated him for 32 years and yet--
"Are you okay?" the words leave Yoongi's lips and his eyebrows furrow in concern.
"You can't..."
"I'm sorry?"
"No, you're not."
"Um, what?"
"I don't want to see your face ever again."
"Hyung!" Jimin calls after him.
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As Seokjin walks away from the group, he knew he blew it. He couldn't keep his cool around Yoongi. The tears that are forming in his eyes can attest to that. Why does his chest hurt so much? He wants it to stop, he just wants it to stop.
Jimin watches Seokjin's back move
As Seokjin walks away from the group, he knew he blew it. He couldn't keep his cool around Yoongi. The tears that are forming in his eyes can attest to that. Why does his chest hurt so much? He wants it to stop, he just wants it to stop.
Jimin watches Seokjin's back move
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further away from them. He's never seen Seokjin that upset before. Maybe he shouldn't have pushed it.
"I didn't know he was such an ass. I only asked him if he was fine." Yoongi tells him, his eyes also following Seokjin.
Jimin shakes his head. "No. Hyung's never acted like
further away from them. He's never seen Seokjin that upset before. Maybe he shouldn't have pushed it.
"I didn't know he was such an ass. I only asked him if he was fine." Yoongi tells him, his eyes also following Seokjin.
Jimin shakes his head. "No. Hyung's never acted like
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that before. Usually, he's the friendliest person anywhere."
"Really. What does he have against me then? Why'd he tell me he doesn't want to see me?"
"You've never met each other before right?"
"Nope. It's my first time."
Jimin shrugs. "Then I don't have a single clue."
that before. Usually, he's the friendliest person anywhere."
"Really. What does he have against me then? Why'd he tell me he doesn't want to see me?"
"You've never met each other before right?"
"Nope. It's my first time."
Jimin shrugs. "Then I don't have a single clue."
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Seokjin ignores Namjoon's greeting and heads straight to the bathroom. He turns on the shower, doesn't bother taking his clothes off, before stepping under the water and letting his tears flow with it.
"Get a grip, Seokjin. You don't love him. You stopped loving him since
Seokjin ignores Namjoon's greeting and heads straight to the bathroom. He turns on the shower, doesn't bother taking his clothes off, before stepping under the water and letting his tears flow with it.
"Get a grip, Seokjin. You don't love him. You stopped loving him since
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he left you. You don't love him. You don't love him."
But with how every word leaves a bitter taste in his mouth, he knows he's wrong. He does love Yoongi and he's never stopped loving Yoongi. And he hates that fact because he'll always be the fool.
He's always been the fool.
he left you. You don't love him. You don't love him."
But with how every word leaves a bitter taste in his mouth, he knows he's wrong. He does love Yoongi and he's never stopped loving Yoongi. And he hates that fact because he'll always be the fool.
He's always been the fool.
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The first time Yoongi saw Seokjin was over a year and a half ago. He was with his cousin Jungkook who had just moved to Seoul and wanted to sight-see. It was at a park and Jungkook was actually the one who lead him there, fascinated by every single busking performance. But
The first time Yoongi saw Seokjin was over a year and a half ago. He was with his cousin Jungkook who had just moved to Seoul and wanted to sight-see. It was at a park and Jungkook was actually the one who lead him there, fascinated by every single busking performance. But
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this one in particular really caught the kid's eye. It probably helped that the singer was singing one of Jungkook's favorite songs and putting his own twist to it at that. Yoongi just let himself be dragged by the 16-year-old, smiling to himself bec the kid was too adorable
this one in particular really caught the kid's eye. It probably helped that the singer was singing one of Jungkook's favorite songs and putting his own twist to it at that. Yoongi just let himself be dragged by the 16-year-old, smiling to himself bec the kid was too adorable
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okay? He wasn't heartless.
The crowd that had gathered around the singer was huge. There were also a lot of girls with their phones out which meant that whoever this is must either be famous or handsome or both. He and Jungkook end up at the edge of the crowd. Because there
okay? He wasn't heartless.
The crowd that had gathered around the singer was huge. There were also a lot of girls with their phones out which meant that whoever this is must either be famous or handsome or both. He and Jungkook end up at the edge of the crowd. Because there
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was so many people, the only thing Yoongi could see of the singer was the top of his head which was a shade of brown and that's him on his tiptoes. Beside him, Jungkook is hopping up and down to try and catch a glimpse of the singer. The kid was yet to have his growth spurt
was so many people, the only thing Yoongi could see of the singer was the top of his head which was a shade of brown and that's him on his tiptoes. Beside him, Jungkook is hopping up and down to try and catch a glimpse of the singer. The kid was yet to have his growth spurt
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so he's shorter than Yoongi and it's obvious on his face how it's frustrating him. The singer is already at the second chorus and knowing Jungkook, he's going to want to see him before he ends the song. So Yoongi does what every other person will do in this situation: he
so he's shorter than Yoongi and it's obvious on his face how it's frustrating him. The singer is already at the second chorus and knowing Jungkook, he's going to want to see him before he ends the song. So Yoongi does what every other person will do in this situation: he
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grabs Jungkook by the wrist and elbows his way through the crowd, ignoring the dirty looks he gets and the snide remarks.
"Out of the way! Out of the way!"
Yoongi can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and tightens his hold on Jungkook, keeping the kid close. They
grabs Jungkook by the wrist and elbows his way through the crowd, ignoring the dirty looks he gets and the snide remarks.
"Out of the way! Out of the way!"
Yoongi can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and tightens his hold on Jungkook, keeping the kid close. They
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finally break through the crowd just as the singer belts the bridge with such emotion that Yoongi finds himself enchanted, looking at the young man in front of him who might as well have been sculpted by God himself. His breath is taken away and he is just standing there
finally break through the crowd just as the singer belts the bridge with such emotion that Yoongi finds himself enchanted, looking at the young man in front of him who might as well have been sculpted by God himself. His breath is taken away and he is just standing there
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enamored bec how can someone so beautiful share the same plane of existence as him? He doesn't even realize the singer has finished until Jungkook is slapping him on the arm asking if they could approach the guy and ask for a picture with him. Wow, someone's already a fan.
enamored bec how can someone so beautiful share the same plane of existence as him? He doesn't even realize the singer has finished until Jungkook is slapping him on the arm asking if they could approach the guy and ask for a picture with him. Wow, someone's already a fan.
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But Yoongi wouldn't mind getting the chance to talk to the guy, he seems nice enough. Though in this industry, he's aware you can't really trust outward appearances. But he's willing to take the risk; he has a good feeling.
So they walk towards the guy who seems to have
But Yoongi wouldn't mind getting the chance to talk to the guy, he seems nice enough. Though in this industry, he's aware you can't really trust outward appearances. But he's willing to take the risk; he has a good feeling.
So they walk towards the guy who seems to have
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finished his set and is fixing his guitar and equipment with a couple of other guys (his friends maybe) when a number of people in the crowd decide to do the same thing they were doing. A girl bumps into him in her haste to get to the singer and he almost falls if not for
finished his set and is fixing his guitar and equipment with a couple of other guys (his friends maybe) when a number of people in the crowd decide to do the same thing they were doing. A girl bumps into him in her haste to get to the singer and he almost falls if not for
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Jungkook steadying him.
"Hey!" he calls after her though she doesn't really acknowledge him.
"Guess this guy's really popular huh, hyung."
"Guess he is," Yoongi notes, seeing the amount of people around the guy, talking to him and asking for a photo which he seems to shyly
Jungkook steadying him.
"Hey!" he calls after her though she doesn't really acknowledge him.
"Guess this guy's really popular huh, hyung."
"Guess he is," Yoongi notes, seeing the amount of people around the guy, talking to him and asking for a photo which he seems to shyly
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accept. Well, at least he doesn't seem obnoxious. Yoongi turns to the guy's friends and find them unpertrubed by the commotion around their friend. They even seem like they're supportive of it, shooing at the guy to just interact with his fans when he tries to help them fix
accept. Well, at least he doesn't seem obnoxious. Yoongi turns to the guy's friends and find them unpertrubed by the commotion around their friend. They even seem like they're supportive of it, shooing at the guy to just interact with his fans when he tries to help them fix
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the equipment.
Unfortunately for him and Jungkook, though, it's already getting late and the crowd hasn't lessened at all. He looks at his cousin who's eagerly standing on the balls of his feet awaiting his turn. Yoongi doesn't want to be a spoilsport but the kid has a curfew
the equipment.
Unfortunately for him and Jungkook, though, it's already getting late and the crowd hasn't lessened at all. He looks at his cousin who's eagerly standing on the balls of his feet awaiting his turn. Yoongi doesn't want to be a spoilsport but the kid has a curfew
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and it was hard enough as it is to convince his aunt and uncle to let the kid have his fun.
"Gguk-ah."
"Yeah, hyung?"
"It's getting late."
"What? Aww but hyung!"
"Hey, you know what's in store for the both of us if you don't get home in time."
"But--but--"
"Would you rather
and it was hard enough as it is to convince his aunt and uncle to let the kid have his fun.
"Gguk-ah."
"Yeah, hyung?"
"It's getting late."
"What? Aww but hyung!"
"Hey, you know what's in store for the both of us if you don't get home in time."
"But--but--"
"Would you rather
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you never went out again?"
He watches as Jungkook thinks about it in his head before slumping his shoulders.
"Fine," he sighs in defeat. Yoongi ruffles his head to comfort him.
"Hey, we can always look out for him the next time we go out."
"Next time? You mean that, hyung?"
you never went out again?"
He watches as Jungkook thinks about it in his head before slumping his shoulders.
"Fine," he sighs in defeat. Yoongi ruffles his head to comfort him.
"Hey, we can always look out for him the next time we go out."
"Next time? You mean that, hyung?"
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Yoongi laughs at Jungkook's excitement. "Yeah I do. We can even have those lamb skewers you wanted to try."
"(gasp)You're the best, hyung!"
"Alright, alright. Let's just go so we can catch the next ride."
"Got it, chief!"
As Jungkook starts walking away, Yoongi takes one last
Yoongi laughs at Jungkook's excitement. "Yeah I do. We can even have those lamb skewers you wanted to try."
"(gasp)You're the best, hyung!"
"Alright, alright. Let's just go so we can catch the next ride."
"Got it, chief!"
As Jungkook starts walking away, Yoongi takes one last
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look at the singer, wanting to remember his face so he can look him up online later. What he doesn't expect is to catch the singer's eye who smiles at him briefly before turning back to the people in front of him.
Yoongi swears that, at that moment, time just stopped.
look at the singer, wanting to remember his face so he can look him up online later. What he doesn't expect is to catch the singer's eye who smiles at him briefly before turning back to the people in front of him.
Yoongi swears that, at that moment, time just stopped.
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The next day after meeting Yoongi for the first time again, Seokjin stays cooped up in his room. Jimin and Taehyung's left him a combined total of 9 missed calls and 17 unread messages. Namjoon's knocked on his door three times, once yesterday night after he left the shower
The next day after meeting Yoongi for the first time again, Seokjin stays cooped up in his room. Jimin and Taehyung's left him a combined total of 9 missed calls and 17 unread messages. Namjoon's knocked on his door three times, once yesterday night after he left the shower
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asking him what's wrong, one earlier that morning to tell him that he bought breakfast, and lastly just a while ago to tell Seokjin he's leaving for class. The bed covers become his solace as he finally acknowledges what he's been avoiding all these years. He hasn't moved
asking him what's wrong, one earlier that morning to tell him that he bought breakfast, and lastly just a while ago to tell Seokjin he's leaving for class. The bed covers become his solace as he finally acknowledges what he's been avoiding all these years. He hasn't moved
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on. Not even a single ounce of it. Seeing Yoongi again made their very last conversation replay in his head. It was cruel and selfish and unforgivable. But his heart, his stupid, stupid heart wants to reach out for Yoongi and scream out to the rest of the world that he--
on. Not even a single ounce of it. Seeing Yoongi again made their very last conversation replay in his head. It was cruel and selfish and unforgivable. But his heart, his stupid, stupid heart wants to reach out for Yoongi and scream out to the rest of the world that he--
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that he--
Namjoon opens the front door just as Seokjin is putting on his shoes.
"Hyung? Where are you going?"
"Out."
"Out? Out where? It's the middle of the night. Most establishments are already clos--"
"I don't know, Namjoon. Just OUT okay? Get off my back already."
that he--
Namjoon opens the front door just as Seokjin is putting on his shoes.
"Hyung? Where are you going?"
"Out."
"Out? Out where? It's the middle of the night. Most establishments are already clos--"
"I don't know, Namjoon. Just OUT okay? Get off my back already."
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"Hyung--"
The door slams in Namjoon's face before he could get another word out.
Seokjin leaves the apartment with no direction. He just knows that his room is suffocating and he wants out. His feet end up leading him to the park he used to busk at more than a year ago.
"Hyung--"
The door slams in Namjoon's face before he could get another word out.
Seokjin leaves the apartment with no direction. He just knows that his room is suffocating and he wants out. His feet end up leading him to the park he used to busk at more than a year ago.
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It's a lot more quiet now seeing as it's very late at night and there are only a handful of people strolling or jogging or having an existential crisis like he is. He finds a spot on the grass and plants himself there, listening to the cicadas and crickets chirping. He
It's a lot more quiet now seeing as it's very late at night and there are only a handful of people strolling or jogging or having an existential crisis like he is. He finds a spot on the grass and plants himself there, listening to the cicadas and crickets chirping. He
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releases a deep sigh. This whole new chance at life thing feels like utter bullshit. It was supposed to be easy, he thinks it's supposed to be easy, but now it's just getting more and more complicated because he's a complete idiot who can't control his feelings.
releases a deep sigh. This whole new chance at life thing feels like utter bullshit. It was supposed to be easy, he thinks it's supposed to be easy, but now it's just getting more and more complicated because he's a complete idiot who can't control his feelings.
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He hates Min Yoongi, he's supposed to hate Min Yoongi but all he wants to do is keep him close and never let him go. He knows Yoongi will leave, he will leave and break his heart all over again. And yet despite that, he's still willing to take another chance, take another
He hates Min Yoongi, he's supposed to hate Min Yoongi but all he wants to do is keep him close and never let him go. He knows Yoongi will leave, he will leave and break his heart all over again. And yet despite that, he's still willing to take another chance, take another
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chance to get his heart broken.
"AAARGH WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID?!"
"Why are you so loud?"
Seokjin turns to his side and finds none other than Min Yoongi sitting a few feet away from him.
"Hey," the blonde waves at him lazily.
"Are you following me?" Seokjin squints.
"Uh, no?
chance to get his heart broken.
"AAARGH WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID?!"
"Why are you so loud?"
Seokjin turns to his side and finds none other than Min Yoongi sitting a few feet away from him.
"Hey," the blonde waves at him lazily.
"Are you following me?" Seokjin squints.
"Uh, no?
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Full of yourself much? I like this park. It's quiet once it gets late."
"It's the same with all parks."
"Hmm, yeah I guess. But I like this one in particular."
Seokjin knits his eyebrows. That's weird. He never knew Yoongi liked parks, let alone a specific one. He tries to
Full of yourself much? I like this park. It's quiet once it gets late."
"It's the same with all parks."
"Hmm, yeah I guess. But I like this one in particular."
Seokjin knits his eyebrows. That's weird. He never knew Yoongi liked parks, let alone a specific one. He tries to
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rack his brain for any memory where Yoongi might've said something but he's got nothing.
"So," Yoongi starts again. "What are you doing here on this fine summer evening?"
Seokjin rolls his eyes. "Wouldn't you like to know?"
"I'd like to know a couple of things actually but
rack his brain for any memory where Yoongi might've said something but he's got nothing.
"So," Yoongi starts again. "What are you doing here on this fine summer evening?"
Seokjin rolls his eyes. "Wouldn't you like to know?"
"I'd like to know a couple of things actually but
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I'd rather you not walk out on me again."
Seokjin doesn't respond to that. Instead, he starts to stand up.
"Hey! Where are you going?"
"Far away from you."
"But why? I only asked what you were--"
"I know what you said."
"Then why don't you answer it?"
"I don't want to."
"Why
I'd rather you not walk out on me again."
Seokjin doesn't respond to that. Instead, he starts to stand up.
"Hey! Where are you going?"
"Far away from you."
"But why? I only asked what you were--"
"I know what you said."
"Then why don't you answer it?"
"I don't want to."
"Why
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not?"
"Stop following me!" Seokjin snaps at Yoongi, turning around to face him. The blonde stops in his tracks.
"Look, Yoongi, was it? Why do you care so much?"
"You looked sad and I thought you might need someone to talk to, like a friend."
"Well we're not friends, are we?"
not?"
"Stop following me!" Seokjin snaps at Yoongi, turning around to face him. The blonde stops in his tracks.
"Look, Yoongi, was it? Why do you care so much?"
"You looked sad and I thought you might need someone to talk to, like a friend."
"Well we're not friends, are we?"
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"Can't we be? I'm already friends with your brother."
"Don't drag Namjoon into this."
"But what IS this? We barely know each other but you're already pushing me away."
"Maybe I don't want to be associated with you."
"Why? Was it something I said? Was it something I did? Do I
"Can't we be? I'm already friends with your brother."
"Don't drag Namjoon into this."
"But what IS this? We barely know each other but you're already pushing me away."
"Maybe I don't want to be associated with you."
"Why? Was it something I said? Was it something I did? Do I
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smell?"
"Just stop okay? Stop. Just-- leave me alone."
Seokjin starts walking again but he can hear Yoongi behind him. He turns his head towards the sky in annoyance before turning around again and looking at Yoongi. The blonde abruptly stops again in his tracks.
"Why do you
smell?"
"Just stop okay? Stop. Just-- leave me alone."
Seokjin starts walking again but he can hear Yoongi behind him. He turns his head towards the sky in annoyance before turning around again and looking at Yoongi. The blonde abruptly stops again in his tracks.
"Why do you
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want to be friends with me?"
Without missing a beat, Yoongi looks Seokjin dead in the eye and says, "Because I like you."
Seokjin ignores the flips that his tummy is making.
"How could you like me? Like you said we barely even know each other."
Yoongi shrugs, "You seem like
want to be friends with me?"
Without missing a beat, Yoongi looks Seokjin dead in the eye and says, "Because I like you."
Seokjin ignores the flips that his tummy is making.
"How could you like me? Like you said we barely even know each other."
Yoongi shrugs, "You seem like
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a pretty cool guy. Joon talks about you a lot, same with Hobi. You sing really well and nice to pretty much anyone."
Yoongi then rubs at his nape and looks to the side, a mannerism Seokjin knows he does when he's embarrased.
"I also think you're really beautiful."
a pretty cool guy. Joon talks about you a lot, same with Hobi. You sing really well and nice to pretty much anyone."
Yoongi then rubs at his nape and looks to the side, a mannerism Seokjin knows he does when he's embarrased.
"I also think you're really beautiful."
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Seokjin feels his ears go hot. He abruptly turns around and starts walking again.
"Hey! Stop walking away from me!"
"You can't just say things like that!"
"You're the one who asked for it!"
"Well, I didn't know what you were going to say! Who even says things like that? And
Seokjin feels his ears go hot. He abruptly turns around and starts walking again.
"Hey! Stop walking away from me!"
"You can't just say things like that!"
"You're the one who asked for it!"
"Well, I didn't know what you were going to say! Who even says things like that? And
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stop following me!"
"If I do, will you be my friend?"
"Ugh, whatever. Just leave me alone already."
"Cool. I'll get your number from Joon. See you around, /friend/! Don't stay out for too long."
Seokjin continues walking and Yoongi does stop following him.
He makes his way
stop following me!"
"If I do, will you be my friend?"
"Ugh, whatever. Just leave me alone already."
"Cool. I'll get your number from Joon. See you around, /friend/! Don't stay out for too long."
Seokjin continues walking and Yoongi does stop following him.
He makes his way
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back to the apartment, with a slight headache. He never knew Yoongi could be so insistent. Was this the same Yoongi he fell in love with all those years ago? Now that he thought about it, he'd never seen Yoongi this playful (re: annoying) before. He'd always been calm and
back to the apartment, with a slight headache. He never knew Yoongi could be so insistent. Was this the same Yoongi he fell in love with all those years ago? Now that he thought about it, he'd never seen Yoongi this playful (re: annoying) before. He'd always been calm and
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composed to the point of being cold and distant at times. Seokjin's always had a sense of pride that he was the only who broke those walls down with how Yoongi would turn to him for cuddles after a bad day or the rare gummy smile that Yoongi made when he cooked his favorite
composed to the point of being cold and distant at times. Seokjin's always had a sense of pride that he was the only who broke those walls down with how Yoongi would turn to him for cuddles after a bad day or the rare gummy smile that Yoongi made when he cooked his favorite
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meal. But now he thinks that maybe what he'd thought was the bottom was only the tip of the iceberg that is Min Yoongi. Maybe he'd been so caught up in the euphoria of having a seemingly perfect romance that he failed to really know Yoongi. Like the Yoongi awhile ago at the
meal. But now he thinks that maybe what he'd thought was the bottom was only the tip of the iceberg that is Min Yoongi. Maybe he'd been so caught up in the euphoria of having a seemingly perfect romance that he failed to really know Yoongi. Like the Yoongi awhile ago at the
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park. It would explain why Yoongi would leave him at such short notice. Why he never told him about the Hong Kong offer. Why he felt like such a stranger despite the amount of time they spent together. Seokjin rubs at his temples, his headache getting worse with every step.
park. It would explain why Yoongi would leave him at such short notice. Why he never told him about the Hong Kong offer. Why he felt like such a stranger despite the amount of time they spent together. Seokjin rubs at his temples, his headache getting worse with every step.
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He enters the apartment to Namjoon asking him, "Uh, hyung, Yoongi-hyung is asking for your number. Should I gi--"
Seokjin waves his hand in a shooing motion.
"Really? But I thought--"
"Just give him the fucking number, Joon."
And with that Seokjin enters his room, slams the
He enters the apartment to Namjoon asking him, "Uh, hyung, Yoongi-hyung is asking for your number. Should I gi--"
Seokjin waves his hand in a shooing motion.
"Really? But I thought--"
"Just give him the fucking number, Joon."
And with that Seokjin enters his room, slams the
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door close, before dropping onto his bed face first. So much for his "genius" game plan. He grabs a pillow, stuffs his face into it, and screams. As soon as he finishes, his phone signals a message:
"From: 010-XXXX-XXXX
hey friend. its yoongi."
Fuck his life, honestly.
door close, before dropping onto his bed face first. So much for his "genius" game plan. He grabs a pillow, stuffs his face into it, and screams. As soon as he finishes, his phone signals a message:
"From: 010-XXXX-XXXX
hey friend. its yoongi."
Fuck his life, honestly.
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Seokjin doesn't like how Yoongi's just cheekily meandered his way back into his life like a leech sucking the blood out of his elbow. But he only has himself to blame bec HE let it happen. The mundane parts of his days now have splashes of Yoongi in them bec since he
Seokjin doesn't like how Yoongi's just cheekily meandered his way back into his life like a leech sucking the blood out of his elbow. But he only has himself to blame bec HE let it happen. The mundane parts of his days now have splashes of Yoongi in them bec since he
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gave Namjoon the 'ok' of giving Yoongi his number, the younger interpreted it as permission granted to everything that was Yoongi-proofed. And that's also how he learned that his friends have a gc where they talk about him behind his back.
When he leaves his room to go to
gave Namjoon the 'ok' of giving Yoongi his number, the younger interpreted it as permission granted to everything that was Yoongi-proofed. And that's also how he learned that his friends have a gc where they talk about him behind his back.
When he leaves his room to go to
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class, Yoongi's out in his living room hanging out with Namjoon and Hoseok. When he and Jimin go busking on weekends, Yoongi's standing next to Taehyung behind the camera. When he goes to Namjoon's rap show, Yoongi's on the stage or trying to make small talk with him at the
class, Yoongi's out in his living room hanging out with Namjoon and Hoseok. When he and Jimin go busking on weekends, Yoongi's standing next to Taehyung behind the camera. When he goes to Namjoon's rap show, Yoongi's on the stage or trying to make small talk with him at the
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bar. Key word: trying. As much as his life is suddenly filled w Yoongi, Yoongi, Yoongi, he's not about to let him win, win, win.
"Hey, friend-hyung. Leaving for class?"
"Already out the door, Min."
"Anything I can help with?"
"Ask Jimin, Min."
"Why do you call me 'Min'?"
bar. Key word: trying. As much as his life is suddenly filled w Yoongi, Yoongi, Yoongi, he's not about to let him win, win, win.
"Hey, friend-hyung. Leaving for class?"
"Already out the door, Min."
"Anything I can help with?"
"Ask Jimin, Min."
"Why do you call me 'Min'?"
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"Shitgi or Yoonsuck. Take your pick."
Call him immature, call him petty, he doesn't care bec Namjoon already does that 12 years later. He is immovable like a mountain. Unnegotiable like a fixed price. He is transcendent, he is headstrong, until the 3rd week of July happens
"Shitgi or Yoonsuck. Take your pick."
Call him immature, call him petty, he doesn't care bec Namjoon already does that 12 years later. He is immovable like a mountain. Unnegotiable like a fixed price. He is transcendent, he is headstrong, until the 3rd week of July happens
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and it all goes downhill from there.
He is just idly walking on the streets of Seoul, minding his own business, when a wild Yoongi pops out of nowhere nearly making him jump out of his skin.
"What the shit, Min? I could've punched you!"
"Sorry, hyung. But I really need
and it all goes downhill from there.
He is just idly walking on the streets of Seoul, minding his own business, when a wild Yoongi pops out of nowhere nearly making him jump out of his skin.
"What the shit, Min? I could've punched you!"
"Sorry, hyung. But I really need
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your help right now."
"Can't. I'm busy," he says as he starts to walk away but Yoongi stands in front of him, arms stretched at his sides, stopping him.
"Hyung, please. I know you hate my guts, but just this one time can you give me the time of day?"
He looks at his phone.
your help right now."
"Can't. I'm busy," he says as he starts to walk away but Yoongi stands in front of him, arms stretched at his sides, stopping him.
"Hyung, please. I know you hate my guts, but just this one time can you give me the time of day?"
He looks at his phone.
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"11:58 am."
"That's not what I--argh! Why do you make it so hard to deal with you?" Yoongi unlocks his phone and presses on it a few times before he shoves it in Seokjin's face, a photo of what looks like a high schooler laughing displayed on the screen.
"That's my cousin,
"11:58 am."
"That's not what I--argh! Why do you make it so hard to deal with you?" Yoongi unlocks his phone and presses on it a few times before he shoves it in Seokjin's face, a photo of what looks like a high schooler laughing displayed on the screen.
"That's my cousin,
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Jungkook. He's 17 and we were buying lamb skewers when he just disappeared."
"Hold up. Did you just say Jungkook?"
"Um, yeah? What does that--"
"Like 'JK', Jungkook?"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Ugh, what's his last name?"
"Jeon. Wait, you're actually going to
Jungkook. He's 17 and we were buying lamb skewers when he just disappeared."
"Hold up. Did you just say Jungkook?"
"Um, yeah? What does that--"
"Like 'JK', Jungkook?"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Ugh, what's his last name?"
"Jeon. Wait, you're actually going to
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help?"
Seokjin ignores him because what the actual fuck, Jeon Jungkook is his cousin? He never knew about this. He thought Jeon Jungkook was just this random artist Yoongi met and produced for bec he needed a platform to go mainstream. (And maybe he also thought they were
help?"
Seokjin ignores him because what the actual fuck, Jeon Jungkook is his cousin? He never knew about this. He thought Jeon Jungkook was just this random artist Yoongi met and produced for bec he needed a platform to go mainstream. (And maybe he also thought they were
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together bec all evidences pointed to it like going to events together, getting pictured by Dispatch on 'outings', always collabing for songs, and yes, Seokjin knows this bec he secretly used to stalk Yoongi and Jungkook on SNS until Taehyung found out and berated him for
together bec all evidences pointed to it like going to events together, getting pictured by Dispatch on 'outings', always collabing for songs, and yes, Seokjin knows this bec he secretly used to stalk Yoongi and Jungkook on SNS until Taehyung found out and berated him for
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it bec it kept him in a 'cycle' or whatever.) But they're cousins! And it's really bothering him bec HOW did he not know? Why didn't Yoongi tell him?
"You have a cousin?"
"Yes! And he's still currently missing and a minor! Look, I know I'm not your favorite person in the
it bec it kept him in a 'cycle' or whatever.) But they're cousins! And it's really bothering him bec HOW did he not know? Why didn't Yoongi tell him?
"You have a cousin?"
"Yes! And he's still currently missing and a minor! Look, I know I'm not your favorite person in the
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world but I thought you'd at least care enough about the well-being of another person and look past that. Guess I was wrong."
Yoongi turns to leave but Seokjin grabs his wrist to stop him.
"Oh my god, you're so dramatic." He turns Yoongi to face him before crossing his arms.
world but I thought you'd at least care enough about the well-being of another person and look past that. Guess I was wrong."
Yoongi turns to leave but Seokjin grabs his wrist to stop him.
"Oh my god, you're so dramatic." He turns Yoongi to face him before crossing his arms.
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"Start from the beginning."
Yoongi recounts his past 30 mins, telling Seokjin about going out w Jungkook to eat, but as he's done ordering, the kid is nowhere to be found. He looked for him in the restaurant but he wasn't there. He asked the staff, they said he went outside.
"Start from the beginning."
Yoongi recounts his past 30 mins, telling Seokjin about going out w Jungkook to eat, but as he's done ordering, the kid is nowhere to be found. He looked for him in the restaurant but he wasn't there. He asked the staff, they said he went outside.
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He followed the direction they said he went but he doubts he'll be able to see him. He calls the kid, doesn't get an answer. He calls again, he's already blocked. He goes back to the restaurant in hopes that he's just being pranked but Jungkook's still nowhere to be found.
He followed the direction they said he went but he doubts he'll be able to see him. He calls the kid, doesn't get an answer. He calls again, he's already blocked. He goes back to the restaurant in hopes that he's just being pranked but Jungkook's still nowhere to be found.
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"I've just been going around this area until I saw you. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do now. What if he got kidnapped? Shit." Yoongi ends, panic settling into his tone and Seokjin's hands are moving before he can stop them. He cups either side of Yoongi's face
"I've just been going around this area until I saw you. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do now. What if he got kidnapped? Shit." Yoongi ends, panic settling into his tone and Seokjin's hands are moving before he can stop them. He cups either side of Yoongi's face
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and forces the blonde to look at him.
"First of all just breathe okay? Focus on the tip of my nose and breathe deeply."
Yoongi furrows his eyebrows but does as he is told.
"You calm now?"
"A little bit yeah."
"Okay." Seokjin gently lets go of Yoongi's face. "Second, has
and forces the blonde to look at him.
"First of all just breathe okay? Focus on the tip of my nose and breathe deeply."
Yoongi furrows his eyebrows but does as he is told.
"You calm now?"
"A little bit yeah."
"Okay." Seokjin gently lets go of Yoongi's face. "Second, has
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Jungkook done this before?"
"No? Not when he's with me at least."
"Did you plan to go out?"
"I guess? Well, he asked me to take him out today. Said he was stressed bec of school."
"Ah, is he having problems at school like with school work, grades?"
"I don't think so?"
Jungkook done this before?"
"No? Not when he's with me at least."
"Did you plan to go out?"
"I guess? Well, he asked me to take him out today. Said he was stressed bec of school."
"Ah, is he having problems at school like with school work, grades?"
"I don't think so?"
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"I see. Are you two close?"
"Yeah. He's like the brother I never had."
"Hmm. What about his parents?"
"They're a little strict but they mean well and he knows that."
"Well, Min, did you think of the possibility that he doesn't want to be found?"
"What? Are you telling me he
"I see. Are you two close?"
"Yeah. He's like the brother I never had."
"Hmm. What about his parents?"
"They're a little strict but they mean well and he knows that."
"Well, Min, did you think of the possibility that he doesn't want to be found?"
"What? Are you telling me he
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ran away?"
"No. Nothing that drastic or at least I hope not."
"What do you mean?"
"He blocked your number after you called him right? It couldn't be kidnappers or a pickpocket cause most of them just take the sim out. He probably just doesn't want to receive your calls right
ran away?"
"No. Nothing that drastic or at least I hope not."
"What do you mean?"
"He blocked your number after you called him right? It couldn't be kidnappers or a pickpocket cause most of them just take the sim out. He probably just doesn't want to receive your calls right
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now. Personally, I think he used you to get out of the house and, once you weren't looking, went gallavanting to wherever he really wanted to go. You seem like you spoil him so he's not too worried about leaving you cause you'll forgive him eventually. Just pull a couple of
now. Personally, I think he used you to get out of the house and, once you weren't looking, went gallavanting to wherever he really wanted to go. You seem like you spoil him so he's not too worried about leaving you cause you'll forgive him eventually. Just pull a couple of
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puppy dog eyes & you're wrapped around his finger again."
"I'm not even going to comment on that last part."
"You know it's true."
"/Shutup./ But where would he even go?"
"I don't know. Girlfriend, boyfriend, pluralfriends? Drugs, alcohol, sex?"
"OHMYGOD." Yoongi facepalms.
puppy dog eyes & you're wrapped around his finger again."
"I'm not even going to comment on that last part."
"You know it's true."
"/Shutup./ But where would he even go?"
"I don't know. Girlfriend, boyfriend, pluralfriends? Drugs, alcohol, sex?"
"OHMYGOD." Yoongi facepalms.
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"It's more prevalent than you think!"
"No, not that! I know where he went."
Seokjin follows Yoongi to a building where a lot of people, mostly kids around Jungkook's age, are standing in line. He watches Yoongi approach a desk, talk to the staff, and get directed somewhere.
"It's more prevalent than you think!"
"No, not that! I know where he went."
Seokjin follows Yoongi to a building where a lot of people, mostly kids around Jungkook's age, are standing in line. He watches Yoongi approach a desk, talk to the staff, and get directed somewhere.
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He trails behind the blonde, looking around where, when he sees a sign that says 'auditions' just as Yoongi yells, "JEON JUNGKOOK!"
He could only blink as Yoongi pulls the kid out of the line by the ear.
"Ow ow ow hyung, I'm sorry!"
Seokjin covers his smile with his hand.
He trails behind the blonde, looking around where, when he sees a sign that says 'auditions' just as Yoongi yells, "JEON JUNGKOOK!"
He could only blink as Yoongi pulls the kid out of the line by the ear.
"Ow ow ow hyung, I'm sorry!"
Seokjin covers his smile with his hand.
hi! cutting the flow again bec that random 'where' after 'looking around' isn't supposed to be there ok. carry on again.
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"Thanks for helping me out, hyung. I really appreciate it," Yoongi says to Seokjin as they walk out of the building, a sulking Jungkook behind them, his head hung in defeat. Needless to say, the kid ISN'T going to audition today or ever again. Well, at least not until after
"Thanks for helping me out, hyung. I really appreciate it," Yoongi says to Seokjin as they walk out of the building, a sulking Jungkook behind them, his head hung in defeat. Needless to say, the kid ISN'T going to audition today or ever again. Well, at least not until after
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he turns 18 which is only like a little over a month away apparently. Seokjin was right: Yoongi is extra soft for his cousin.
"As much as I like to see you suffering, your cousin's life could have been at stake and I don't want to involve innocent parties in my affairs."
he turns 18 which is only like a little over a month away apparently. Seokjin was right: Yoongi is extra soft for his cousin.
"As much as I like to see you suffering, your cousin's life could have been at stake and I don't want to involve innocent parties in my affairs."
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"Oh. So we're going back to our original dynamic after this?"
"Yep."
"But why?"
"What do you mean 'but why'?"
"You're literally nice to everybody but me. Why do you hate me so much?"
"I just do, Yoongi. Now get it over your head. I don't do heart-to-heart talks."
He doesn't
"Oh. So we're going back to our original dynamic after this?"
"Yep."
"But why?"
"What do you mean 'but why'?"
"You're literally nice to everybody but me. Why do you hate me so much?"
"I just do, Yoongi. Now get it over your head. I don't do heart-to-heart talks."
He doesn't
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notice that Yoongi stopped walking until he turns back.
"What's the hold up, Min?"
"Yoongi."
"Yes, that is your name."
"You called me Yoongi."
"Uh, no I didn't. I called you Min."
"No. You called me by my first name. I have Jungkook as witness."
Jungkook looks between the
notice that Yoongi stopped walking until he turns back.
"What's the hold up, Min?"
"Yoongi."
"Yes, that is your name."
"You called me Yoongi."
"Uh, no I didn't. I called you Min."
"No. You called me by my first name. I have Jungkook as witness."
Jungkook looks between the
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two of them before turning to him and warily nodding his head.
"I did /not/ call you Yoongi."
"Yes, you did."
"No, I didn't!"
"You like me."
"No. I hate you."
"You like me."
"No, I don't!"
"You /like/ me."
"Shut the fuck up Min Yoongi. Say that I like you again one more time
two of them before turning to him and warily nodding his head.
"I did /not/ call you Yoongi."
"Yes, you did."
"No, I didn't!"
"You like me."
"No. I hate you."
"You like me."
"No, I don't!"
"You /like/ me."
"Shut the fuck up Min Yoongi. Say that I like you again one more time
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and I swear to God I'll skin your face and claw your eyes out."
Yoongi and Jungkook stare at him. He stares at them back.
"Okay, you /don't/ like me. But you do hate me a little less."
"I do not."
"Yes, you do."
"I do NOT."
"So we're just going to forget how you calmed me
and I swear to God I'll skin your face and claw your eyes out."
Yoongi and Jungkook stare at him. He stares at them back.
"Okay, you /don't/ like me. But you do hate me a little less."
"I do not."
"Yes, you do."
"I do NOT."
"So we're just going to forget how you calmed me
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down by cupping my face and making me focus on your nose. Most people just stick to the calm down part."
"IT'S WHAT WE ALWAYS USED TO DO!"
"We?"
Oh no. He didn't mean to say that. That was something he and the /other/ Yoongi used to do.
"Um, uh, me and my brothers! I used to
down by cupping my face and making me focus on your nose. Most people just stick to the calm down part."
"IT'S WHAT WE ALWAYS USED TO DO!"
"We?"
Oh no. He didn't mean to say that. That was something he and the /other/ Yoongi used to do.
"Um, uh, me and my brothers! I used to
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calm them down like that when we were younger."
Okay, nice save, Seokjin.
"Oh okay. For a second there, I thought you were talking about us."
Shit.
"How could I? That was the first time I ever did that to anyone in a long time."
"Yeah, well, it felt right to me. Like you
calm them down like that when we were younger."
Okay, nice save, Seokjin.
"Oh okay. For a second there, I thought you were talking about us."
Shit.
"How could I? That was the first time I ever did that to anyone in a long time."
"Yeah, well, it felt right to me. Like you
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were meant to do that."
Seokjin's lost count of the times he's ignored the somersaults in his stomach or the rapid beating of his heart.
"Stop saying things like that! I'm leaving."
"No, wait, hyung! I was thinking about treating you to some lamb skewers for helping me find
were meant to do that."
Seokjin's lost count of the times he's ignored the somersaults in his stomach or the rapid beating of his heart.
"Stop saying things like that! I'm leaving."
"No, wait, hyung! I was thinking about treating you to some lamb skewers for helping me find
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this brat."
"Thanks but no thanks, Min. I've had enough activity for today."
"Next time then?"
"No, you don't have to."
"But I want to. I mean it when I said that I'm grateful. I don't know if I could have gotten anywhere without you. I owe you one."
"Seriously, Min, you
this brat."
"Thanks but no thanks, Min. I've had enough activity for today."
"Next time then?"
"No, you don't have to."
"But I want to. I mean it when I said that I'm grateful. I don't know if I could have gotten anywhere without you. I owe you one."
"Seriously, Min, you
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don't--"
"Just one time. It could be anywhere you want."
(Don't do it, Seokjin, don't do it.)
"Fine. I'm free next week. Text me the details."
(Idiot.)
"Okay. I knew you like me."
Seokjin doesn't respond, walking away instead.
"For what it's worth," Yoongi calls after him.
don't--"
"Just one time. It could be anywhere you want."
(Don't do it, Seokjin, don't do it.)
"Fine. I'm free next week. Text me the details."
(Idiot.)
"Okay. I knew you like me."
Seokjin doesn't respond, walking away instead.
"For what it's worth," Yoongi calls after him.
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"I wasn't looking at your nose. I was looking at your lips."
Seokjin flips him off.
"So," Namjoon raises his eyebrows at him. "Heard you and Yoongi-hyung are going on a date?"
"Wha-? Is that what he's calling it? That little bi--"
"No. Hobi's the one who told me. He, uh,
"I wasn't looking at your nose. I was looking at your lips."
Seokjin flips him off.
"So," Namjoon raises his eyebrows at him. "Heard you and Yoongi-hyung are going on a date?"
"Wha-? Is that what he's calling it? That little bi--"
"No. Hobi's the one who told me. He, uh,
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'ships' you guys."
"Can you tell him to stop that? And it's not a date," Seokjin stuffs his mouth with rice. "I helped him find his cousin and he wants to pay me back."
"Oh. But still, you and Yoongi-hyung, huh?"
Seokjin sighs. "What are you getting at Joonie?"
Namjoon
'ships' you guys."
"Can you tell him to stop that? And it's not a date," Seokjin stuffs his mouth with rice. "I helped him find his cousin and he wants to pay me back."
"Oh. But still, you and Yoongi-hyung, huh?"
Seokjin sighs. "What are you getting at Joonie?"
Namjoon
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scratches his chin. "I dunno. I mean, 2 months ago his name was like poison to you. Now you're helping him find people and going on thank you dates."
"It's not. A date."
"Okay it isn't. But you're still going out together."
"It's only to get him off my back."
A pause.
scratches his chin. "I dunno. I mean, 2 months ago his name was like poison to you. Now you're helping him find people and going on thank you dates."
"It's not. A date."
"Okay it isn't. But you're still going out together."
"It's only to get him off my back."
A pause.
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"He likes you, you know."
"I'm /sure/ he does."
"No, he genuinely likes you. Despite how shitty you've been treating him (I still don't get that, by the way.) he still looks at you like you hung the moon and the stars yourself."
"...why would he do that?"
"I don't know.
"He likes you, you know."
"I'm /sure/ he does."
"No, he genuinely likes you. Despite how shitty you've been treating him (I still don't get that, by the way.) he still looks at you like you hung the moon and the stars yourself."
"...why would he do that?"
"I don't know.
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you're both weird, tbh. Must come with age."
"Yah, I'm only 2 years older than you."
"Yet you act like an old man in his 50s. Don't worry, hyung. I honestly think you & Yoongi-hyung are good for each other. You have my blessing."
"It's not a date & I don't like him!"
"Okay."
you're both weird, tbh. Must come with age."
"Yah, I'm only 2 years older than you."
"Yet you act like an old man in his 50s. Don't worry, hyung. I honestly think you & Yoongi-hyung are good for each other. You have my blessing."
"It's not a date & I don't like him!"
"Okay."
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Yoongi leads Seokjin into a narrow alley in the market flanked on either side by small family-owned restaurants each having their own specialty dish. His mouth practically salivates at the aromas wafting from the half-open doors; sizzling pans and the clanking of utensils
Yoongi leads Seokjin into a narrow alley in the market flanked on either side by small family-owned restaurants each having their own specialty dish. His mouth practically salivates at the aromas wafting from the half-open doors; sizzling pans and the clanking of utensils
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music to his ears. It makes him reminisce about his own resraurant back in the future. He started out exactly just like these stalls and he was able to expand it gradually over the years until he had a space to call his own. His restaurant was by no means grand but it was
music to his ears. It makes him reminisce about his own resraurant back in the future. He started out exactly just like these stalls and he was able to expand it gradually over the years until he had a space to call his own. His restaurant was by no means grand but it was
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his pride and joy, the one thing that made him look forward to each day that comes. He'd like to open it up again in this timeline too.
"Choose your fighter." Yoongi motions to the restaurants.
Seokjin checks each specialty item and decides that he's in the mood for some
his pride and joy, the one thing that made him look forward to each day that comes. He'd like to open it up again in this timeline too.
"Choose your fighter." Yoongi motions to the restaurants.
Seokjin checks each specialty item and decides that he's in the mood for some
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jokbal and kimchi jjigae. They go to a stall a little further down the alleyway. They squeeze themselves past a table of old businessmen and settle in a tiny corner at the back. Yoongi orders for them and then it's the waiting game.
"So. Um." Yoongi clears his throat,
jokbal and kimchi jjigae. They go to a stall a little further down the alleyway. They squeeze themselves past a table of old businessmen and settle in a tiny corner at the back. Yoongi orders for them and then it's the waiting game.
"So. Um." Yoongi clears his throat,
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rubbing at his nape and not meeting Seokjin's eyes. "Thanks for coming?"
"You're paying. I'm just here for the free food."
"Right."
Silence covers the both of them. Yoongi tries again.
"Thanks for helping me find Jungkook."
"You said that so many times already you make me
rubbing at his nape and not meeting Seokjin's eyes. "Thanks for coming?"
"You're paying. I'm just here for the free food."
"Right."
Silence covers the both of them. Yoongi tries again.
"Thanks for helping me find Jungkook."
"You said that so many times already you make me
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want to cut my ears off."
"I--"
"Excuse me, your jokbal is here." The lady sets the dish on the table. "The kimchi jjigae will follow in a few minutes."
"Thank you," Seokjin says to the lady before picking up his chopsticks. "Let's eat then."
He picks up a piece of lettuce,
want to cut my ears off."
"I--"
"Excuse me, your jokbal is here." The lady sets the dish on the table. "The kimchi jjigae will follow in a few minutes."
"Thank you," Seokjin says to the lady before picking up his chopsticks. "Let's eat then."
He picks up a piece of lettuce,
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dips the pork in ssamjang before wrapping it in the lettuce. He also adds a piece of garlic and piece of kimchi before eating the wrap in one bite. He's halfway through making his third wrap when he notices that Yoongi hasn't touched the food at all.
"Yah, why aren't you
dips the pork in ssamjang before wrapping it in the lettuce. He also adds a piece of garlic and piece of kimchi before eating the wrap in one bite. He's halfway through making his third wrap when he notices that Yoongi hasn't touched the food at all.
"Yah, why aren't you
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eating?"
"You eat like a hamster."
"Excuse you!"
"It's cute."
Seokjin feels the tips of his ears redden and he forgets to add meat to his wrap before he devours it. His face contorts into a look of extreme confusion to which Yoongi laughs and it takes the lady coming
eating?"
"You eat like a hamster."
"Excuse you!"
"It's cute."
Seokjin feels the tips of his ears redden and he forgets to add meat to his wrap before he devours it. His face contorts into a look of extreme confusion to which Yoongi laughs and it takes the lady coming
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back with the jjigae to keep him from reaching over the table and smacking the blonde upside the head.
They walk out the restaurant, Seokjin patting his now full belly because of the meal. He turns to Yoongi.
"Thanks."
"What?"
"For the meal. It was good."
"Can you say that
back with the jjigae to keep him from reaching over the table and smacking the blonde upside the head.
They walk out the restaurant, Seokjin patting his now full belly because of the meal. He turns to Yoongi.
"Thanks."
"What?"
"For the meal. It was good."
"Can you say that
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again?"
"It was good."
"No, the very first word."
"In your dreams, Min."
"Eh, was worth a shot."
They leave the alleyway, walking side by side bec the crowd in the market doubled during the time they spent in the restaurant. Their hands brush against each other a few times
again?"
"It was good."
"No, the very first word."
"In your dreams, Min."
"Eh, was worth a shot."
They leave the alleyway, walking side by side bec the crowd in the market doubled during the time they spent in the restaurant. Their hands brush against each other a few times
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and Seokjin resists the urge to grab onto Yoongi's hand and go. His heart flutters but he steels it.
They reach the outside of the market unscathed.
"Thanks for today, hyung," Yoongi tells him. "I had fun."
"Good for you, Min. And--thanks again for the food, I guess."
and Seokjin resists the urge to grab onto Yoongi's hand and go. His heart flutters but he steels it.
They reach the outside of the market unscathed.
"Thanks for today, hyung," Yoongi tells him. "I had fun."
"Good for you, Min. And--thanks again for the food, I guess."
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"You're welcome," Yoongi replies, gummy smile on his face. Seokjin's heart clenches so he turns to go.
"Ah hyung! Wait. I'd like to do this again."
"Hmm?"
"I'd like to hang out with you again. Like hang out hang out. Without it being a returned favor. I really enjoyed
"You're welcome," Yoongi replies, gummy smile on his face. Seokjin's heart clenches so he turns to go.
"Ah hyung! Wait. I'd like to do this again."
"Hmm?"
"I'd like to hang out with you again. Like hang out hang out. Without it being a returned favor. I really enjoyed
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spending time with you and I'd really like to do it again."
Seokjin's glad he's facing away from Yoongi. He doesn't think he could handle seeing him say that.
"No."
"No?"
"No. It's never gonna happen, Yoongi."
"But why?"
"Why? You already know why."
"No I--are you still
spending time with you and I'd really like to do it again."
Seokjin's glad he's facing away from Yoongi. He doesn't think he could handle seeing him say that.
"No."
"No?"
"No. It's never gonna happen, Yoongi."
"But why?"
"Why? You already know why."
"No I--are you still
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saying you hate me?"
"Yes, I hate you so much. Too much."
"That doesn't even make any sense! We just met 2 months ago; you barely even know me. How can you already hate me so much?"
Seokjin starts heading to the direction of the station.
"Don't fucking walk away from me,
saying you hate me?"
"Yes, I hate you so much. Too much."
"That doesn't even make any sense! We just met 2 months ago; you barely even know me. How can you already hate me so much?"
Seokjin starts heading to the direction of the station.
"Don't fucking walk away from me,
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hyung! Stop. Walking. Away!"
Yoongi grabs Seokjin by the shoulders and turns him around to face him. He almost shouts again but stops at once when he sees that Seokjin is crying.
"Hyung?"
Seokjin's knees buckle and Yoongi moves forward to catch him before he falls. Seokjin
hyung! Stop. Walking. Away!"
Yoongi grabs Seokjin by the shoulders and turns him around to face him. He almost shouts again but stops at once when he sees that Seokjin is crying.
"Hyung?"
Seokjin's knees buckle and Yoongi moves forward to catch him before he falls. Seokjin
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grabs at the front of Yoongi's shirt, his tears continuously falling.
"I hate you so much, Yoongi. You don't understand."
"Tell me then. Tell me why you hate me."
"You hurt me, Yoongi. You hurt me so much. I hated you for so long. I hated you. I hate you."
Yoongi still
grabs at the front of Yoongi's shirt, his tears continuously falling.
"I hate you so much, Yoongi. You don't understand."
"Tell me then. Tell me why you hate me."
"You hurt me, Yoongi. You hurt me so much. I hated you for so long. I hated you. I hate you."
Yoongi still
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doesn't know what Seokjin is talking about but the pain in his voice is too raw, too real. Gently, he wraps his arms around Seokjin. He rubs on the older's back as he sobs, breaking Yoongi's heart.
"I won't hurt you. I'll never hurt you," he says, kissing Seokjin's forehead.
doesn't know what Seokjin is talking about but the pain in his voice is too raw, too real. Gently, he wraps his arms around Seokjin. He rubs on the older's back as he sobs, breaking Yoongi's heart.
"I won't hurt you. I'll never hurt you," he says, kissing Seokjin's forehead.
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"I promise you that."
"How is he?" Yoongi asks Namjoon over the phone.
"Still asleep but his fever's gone down."
"That's good."
"Yeah, the doctor says he can be discharged tomorrow cause they saw nothing from the tests. They said it's most probably stress and fatigue."
"Oh
"I promise you that."
"How is he?" Yoongi asks Namjoon over the phone.
"Still asleep but his fever's gone down."
"That's good."
"Yeah, the doctor says he can be discharged tomorrow cause they saw nothing from the tests. They said it's most probably stress and fatigue."
"Oh
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okay. Keep me posted."
"Sure. Yoongi-hyung?"
"Hmm?"
"Thanks for taking care of Jin-hyung. I'm sure he'll appreciate it."
"No worries, Joon. Make sure to rest yourself."
"I will."
Seokjin fainted after crying in Yoongi's arms. He's just glad there were people around to help.
okay. Keep me posted."
"Sure. Yoongi-hyung?"
"Hmm?"
"Thanks for taking care of Jin-hyung. I'm sure he'll appreciate it."
"No worries, Joon. Make sure to rest yourself."
"I will."
Seokjin fainted after crying in Yoongi's arms. He's just glad there were people around to help.
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He doubts he'd have kept a completely calm mind. From the market to the hospital, he doesn't leave Seokjin's side. He paces in the waiting room as they check up on Seokjin. Once he's allowed in the ER, he sits by Seokjin's bed until his brothers arrive. He goes home but not
He doubts he'd have kept a completely calm mind. From the market to the hospital, he doesn't leave Seokjin's side. He paces in the waiting room as they check up on Seokjin. Once he's allowed in the ER, he sits by Seokjin's bed until his brothers arrive. He goes home but not
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without brushing the hair out of Seokjin's face first. He takes in the older's sleeping form, serene and without a care in the world, unlike when he was crying; he looked so devastated and broken. The pain that in Seokjin's voice, Yoongi doesn't think he'll ever forget it.
without brushing the hair out of Seokjin's face first. He takes in the older's sleeping form, serene and without a care in the world, unlike when he was crying; he looked so devastated and broken. The pain that in Seokjin's voice, Yoongi doesn't think he'll ever forget it.
*'pain in Seokjin's voice' not 'pain that in Seokjin's voice' ahskslshsldljk
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He gets a text the next morning.
From: Seokjin-hyung
09:47
thank you for yesterday. im sorry for troubling you.
09:56
and about what i told you. im sorry for that too.
09:57
its not you. not really.
10:23
if ever you're free, can u come over to the apartment? i want
He gets a text the next morning.
From: Seokjin-hyung
09:47
thank you for yesterday. im sorry for troubling you.
09:56
and about what i told you. im sorry for that too.
09:57
its not you. not really.
10:23
if ever you're free, can u come over to the apartment? i want
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to talk to you.
10:24
personally.
To: Seokjin-hyung
10:27
omw
"Hyung, stop pacing," Taehyung scolds him. "You just got out of the hospital. You're gonna tire yourself out."
"I'm fine, Tae. It wasn't serious."
"You fainted & got a fever. That isn't serious," Taehyung
to talk to you.
10:24
personally.
To: Seokjin-hyung
10:27
omw
"Hyung, stop pacing," Taehyung scolds him. "You just got out of the hospital. You're gonna tire yourself out."
"I'm fine, Tae. It wasn't serious."
"You fainted & got a fever. That isn't serious," Taehyung
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deadpans.
"The doctor said it wasn't serious. I just, pushed myself too hard is all."
"Mm-hmm, you were just out chilling w Yoongi-hyung and got stressed to the point of falling unconscious. Sure, hyung."
(Oh, Tae, you have no idea.)
Seokjin does stop pacing though, "Don't
deadpans.
"The doctor said it wasn't serious. I just, pushed myself too hard is all."
"Mm-hmm, you were just out chilling w Yoongi-hyung and got stressed to the point of falling unconscious. Sure, hyung."
(Oh, Tae, you have no idea.)
Seokjin does stop pacing though, "Don't
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you have class?"
"Well, I can't just leave you here alone, can I?"
"Taehyung--"
He gets interrupted by a couple of knocks on the door.
"Huh? Joon-hyung's back?"
"No. I was expecting company," Seokjin replies as he moves to let whoever's outside in. He pulls open the door,
you have class?"
"Well, I can't just leave you here alone, can I?"
"Taehyung--"
He gets interrupted by a couple of knocks on the door.
"Huh? Joon-hyung's back?"
"No. I was expecting company," Seokjin replies as he moves to let whoever's outside in. He pulls open the door,
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revealing Yoongi on the other side.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"Yoongi-hyung! What are you doing here?" Taehyung pipes up from the couch.
"Oh, uh, Seokjin-hyung invited me over."
"Ooh, interesting."
"See, Tae? I'm not alone now so can you go to your class. Please."
"Yeah, yeah. I'm going
revealing Yoongi on the other side.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"Yoongi-hyung! What are you doing here?" Taehyung pipes up from the couch.
"Oh, uh, Seokjin-hyung invited me over."
"Ooh, interesting."
"See, Tae? I'm not alone now so can you go to your class. Please."
"Yeah, yeah. I'm going
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I'm going. Wouldn't want to intrude in your...whatever this is. /The gc's gonna love this!/"
"What was that?"
"Huh? What? I didn't say anything. I'm leaving now. Byiieeee!"
Taehyung slams the door closed and it's just Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, and the awkard silence. Great.
I'm going. Wouldn't want to intrude in your...whatever this is. /The gc's gonna love this!/"
"What was that?"
"Huh? What? I didn't say anything. I'm leaving now. Byiieeee!"
Taehyung slams the door closed and it's just Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, and the awkard silence. Great.
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"Can I get you anything? Juice? Water? Coffee?"
"Nah, I'm good. Thanks though."
More silence.
"So."
"So?"
"I'm glad you're okay, hyung. You, uh, gave me a scare back then," Yoongi laughs uneasily.
Seokjin nods, avoiding Yoongi's eyes. "Yeah, haha, me too. Sorry about that."
"Can I get you anything? Juice? Water? Coffee?"
"Nah, I'm good. Thanks though."
More silence.
"So."
"So?"
"I'm glad you're okay, hyung. You, uh, gave me a scare back then," Yoongi laughs uneasily.
Seokjin nods, avoiding Yoongi's eyes. "Yeah, haha, me too. Sorry about that."
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"Do you often have fainting spells?"
"Not really. It's only my second time. The first was when I found out I--"
Seokjin stops himself from speaking further, prompting Yoongi to raise his eyebrows at him.
"Found out you...?"
"Um. Failed to graduate college. It was a dream. I
"Do you often have fainting spells?"
"Not really. It's only my second time. The first was when I found out I--"
Seokjin stops himself from speaking further, prompting Yoongi to raise his eyebrows at him.
"Found out you...?"
"Um. Failed to graduate college. It was a dream. I
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fainted bec of a dream."
Yoongi looks like he's about to laugh but is keeping a straight face for his sake.
"You're kidding right?"
"Nope. Just ask Joon. I woke up screaming and he thought someone broke in so he came into my room swinging the vacuum around. Then I screamed
fainted bec of a dream."
Yoongi looks like he's about to laugh but is keeping a straight face for his sake.
"You're kidding right?"
"Nope. Just ask Joon. I woke up screaming and he thought someone broke in so he came into my room swinging the vacuum around. Then I screamed
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again and blacked out."
"I'm sorry but that's the funniest thing I've ever heard."
"You should've seen his face. He was like 'WHO DO I HAVE TO MAKE UNCONSCIOUS, HYUNG?'"
"'MAKE UNCONSCIOUS'??? What is he, twelve? Even kindergartners threaten to kill nowadays."
Seokjin finds
again and blacked out."
"I'm sorry but that's the funniest thing I've ever heard."
"You should've seen his face. He was like 'WHO DO I HAVE TO MAKE UNCONSCIOUS, HYUNG?'"
"'MAKE UNCONSCIOUS'??? What is he, twelve? Even kindergartners threaten to kill nowadays."
Seokjin finds
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himself clutching his stomach bec of how hard he's laughing with Yoongi. He's got legitimate tears in his eyes and his sides hurt but, god, he hasn't laughed like this in years. It feels nice, very cathartic.
He and Yoongi eventually settle down before erupting into a fit of
himself clutching his stomach bec of how hard he's laughing with Yoongi. He's got legitimate tears in his eyes and his sides hurt but, god, he hasn't laughed like this in years. It feels nice, very cathartic.
He and Yoongi eventually settle down before erupting into a fit of
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giggles and it starts all over again. Seokjin looks over to Yoongi and watches as his eyes crinkle at the sides and his gummy smile stretches out to a grin. It is the cutest thing and a warm feeling blooms in his chest, coupled with the nerves he's been trying to keep at bay
giggles and it starts all over again. Seokjin looks over to Yoongi and watches as his eyes crinkle at the sides and his gummy smile stretches out to a grin. It is the cutest thing and a warm feeling blooms in his chest, coupled with the nerves he's been trying to keep at bay
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since he sent the text. He's nervous because he doesn't know how Yoongi will react. He's treated him so badly since he met him again and it's just so selfish of him to even ask him this. Not to mention that he'll be throwing his game plan out the window entirely and he
since he sent the text. He's nervous because he doesn't know how Yoongi will react. He's treated him so badly since he met him again and it's just so selfish of him to even ask him this. Not to mention that he'll be throwing his game plan out the window entirely and he
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knows he could just be wasting this new chance he's been given but he's willing to risk it now. He doesn't care anymore that Yoongi will leave on his birthday or that Yoongi is never meant to be his. What he knows is that he wants Yoongi back in his life; whether as a friend
knows he could just be wasting this new chance he's been given but he's willing to risk it now. He doesn't care anymore that Yoongi will leave on his birthday or that Yoongi is never meant to be his. What he knows is that he wants Yoongi back in his life; whether as a friend
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or a boyfriend, it doesn't matter. It hurts him to hurt Yoongi and no matter how much bitterness he let stew in his heart over the years, he just doesn't want to hurt anymore. Not his friends, not his brothers, not himself, nobody. And Yoongi. He loves Yoongi. He doesn't
or a boyfriend, it doesn't matter. It hurts him to hurt Yoongi and no matter how much bitterness he let stew in his heart over the years, he just doesn't want to hurt anymore. Not his friends, not his brothers, not himself, nobody. And Yoongi. He loves Yoongi. He doesn't
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think he'll ever stop loving Yoongi. He misses him. He misses him so much.
"Yoongi, I--I'm sor--"
"Don't apologize."
"What? But you don't even know what I'll say."
"I figured you called me here to say sorry about how you've treated me & it's okay. I've already forgiven you."
think he'll ever stop loving Yoongi. He misses him. He misses him so much.
"Yoongi, I--I'm sor--"
"Don't apologize."
"What? But you don't even know what I'll say."
"I figured you called me here to say sorry about how you've treated me & it's okay. I've already forgiven you."
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"But I told you I hated you."
"You did & you also told me why. I'm not entirely sure how I hurt you 'cause we've literally never met before but I felt it. I felt your pain. So for that, I'm sor--"
"No no don't say sorry to me! It's not your fault. It's not you. Not really.
"But I told you I hated you."
"You did & you also told me why. I'm not entirely sure how I hurt you 'cause we've literally never met before but I felt it. I felt your pain. So for that, I'm sor--"
"No no don't say sorry to me! It's not your fault. It's not you. Not really.
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I directed my anger towards you when you had nothing to do with it. I--I don't know how to explain it without sounding like a lunatic."
"Then don't. I don't need you to explain and you shouldn't feel the need to, if you're not ready. How you felt, even though it didn't make
I directed my anger towards you when you had nothing to do with it. I--I don't know how to explain it without sounding like a lunatic."
"Then don't. I don't need you to explain and you shouldn't feel the need to, if you're not ready. How you felt, even though it didn't make
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sense to me, it made sense to you. If you can't talk about it now, then that's okay. We have all the time in the world."
Yoongi smiles at him with that same lopsided smile like when they first met and he finds it fitting because--
"Yoongi, can we start this all over again?
sense to me, it made sense to you. If you can't talk about it now, then that's okay. We have all the time in the world."
Yoongi smiles at him with that same lopsided smile like when they first met and he finds it fitting because--
"Yoongi, can we start this all over again?
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You and me?"
"Hmm, I don't know." Seokjin's heart drops until he sees Yoongi wink at him.
"I don't even know your name. How can we start again?"
Not hiding his smile, Seokjin puts his hand out.
"Hi, I'm Kim Seokjin."
Yoongi shakes his hand.
"Min Yoongi. Nice to meet you."
You and me?"
"Hmm, I don't know." Seokjin's heart drops until he sees Yoongi wink at him.
"I don't even know your name. How can we start again?"
Not hiding his smile, Seokjin puts his hand out.
"Hi, I'm Kim Seokjin."
Yoongi shakes his hand.
"Min Yoongi. Nice to meet you."
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With the literal changing of the seasons, the next two months pass by in a blur. The weather becomes cooler, school starts again, and Seokjin and his group of friends grow from 5 to 7.
August brought in the introduction of Jungkook to Taehyung, Jimin, Namjoon, and Hoseok.
With the literal changing of the seasons, the next two months pass by in a blur. The weather becomes cooler, school starts again, and Seokjin and his group of friends grow from 5 to 7.
August brought in the introduction of Jungkook to Taehyung, Jimin, Namjoon, and Hoseok.
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Safe to say, their two previous youngest have officially adopted the kid into their 'maknae line' clique, Hoseok has a protege, and Namjoon officially has a fan club and fan club president.
"What about me and Yoongi, Gguk?"
The kid purses his lips and there's a glint in
Safe to say, their two previous youngest have officially adopted the kid into their 'maknae line' clique, Hoseok has a protege, and Namjoon officially has a fan club and fan club president.
"What about me and Yoongi, Gguk?"
The kid purses his lips and there's a glint in
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his eye that Seokjin's identified as the 'bratkugan'.
"You're the grandpas."
"Yah, show some respect to your elders."
"Case in point."
September brought with it celebration as both Jungkook and Namjoon were born during the month. They decided to just have one party for both
his eye that Seokjin's identified as the 'bratkugan'.
"You're the grandpas."
"Yah, show some respect to your elders."
"Case in point."
September brought with it celebration as both Jungkook and Namjoon were born during the month. They decided to just have one party for both
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because they were college students (and one high school student) meaning they were useless and broke. Except for Taehyung. He has a stable part-time job.
They hold the party at a barbecue place and no they did not drink any alcohol bec Jungkook isn't of legal drinking age
because they were college students (and one high school student) meaning they were useless and broke. Except for Taehyung. He has a stable part-time job.
They hold the party at a barbecue place and no they did not drink any alcohol bec Jungkook isn't of legal drinking age
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yet. Snapshots of the party included (1) Yoongi reaching for a piece of meat from the grill as Seokjin, who is the official cook of the night, swats his hand away not noticing Hoseok beside him sneak meat for himself, (2) Namjoon about to cry in anguish as the piece of meat
yet. Snapshots of the party included (1) Yoongi reaching for a piece of meat from the grill as Seokjin, who is the official cook of the night, swats his hand away not noticing Hoseok beside him sneak meat for himself, (2) Namjoon about to cry in anguish as the piece of meat
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he was about to eat slips from his chopsticks due to Taehyung's butt bumping against his shoulder, (3) a meat-eating contest between Jimin and Jungkook with Hoseok and Yoongi cheering them on respectively, and Taehyung as the referee (no one won. they all got flicked on the
he was about to eat slips from his chopsticks due to Taehyung's butt bumping against his shoulder, (3) a meat-eating contest between Jimin and Jungkook with Hoseok and Yoongi cheering them on respectively, and Taehyung as the referee (no one won. they all got flicked on the
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forehead by Seokjin who scolded them about 'limited amounts of meat') and (4) a group selca of them after the damage had been done; it was a little blurry but the wide smiles on their faces were unmistakable.
"Thanks for inviting me, hyungs!" Jungkook says as they get ready
forehead by Seokjin who scolded them about 'limited amounts of meat') and (4) a group selca of them after the damage had been done; it was a little blurry but the wide smiles on their faces were unmistakable.
"Thanks for inviting me, hyungs!" Jungkook says as they get ready
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to part ways.
"Oh, Gguk," Jimin coos, ruffling the kid's hair. "That party was for you too, you know."
"Yeah, it's for both our birthdays not just mine," Namjoon adds, sliding next to the youngest.
"But, but--you didn't have to--"
"Didn't have to?" Hoseok exclaims. "Of
to part ways.
"Oh, Gguk," Jimin coos, ruffling the kid's hair. "That party was for you too, you know."
"Yeah, it's for both our birthdays not just mine," Namjoon adds, sliding next to the youngest.
"But, but--you didn't have to--"
"Didn't have to?" Hoseok exclaims. "Of
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course we had to. It's your birthday!"
"You're part of the fam now, Gguk," Taehyung pats Jungkook's shoulder as he grins. "Always remember that."
Seokjin watches the scene unfold, Yoongi standing next to him.
"Really though, hyung," Yoongi starts. "Thank you all for this.
course we had to. It's your birthday!"
"You're part of the fam now, Gguk," Taehyung pats Jungkook's shoulder as he grins. "Always remember that."
Seokjin watches the scene unfold, Yoongi standing next to him.
"Really though, hyung," Yoongi starts. "Thank you all for this.
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No matter how much of a brat he can be, Gguk is pretty shy and reserved, especially around his peers. His parents are really over protective of him so he doesn't get the chance to go out and just have fun. I'm sure he'll never forget this day."
Seokjin hums in response, his
No matter how much of a brat he can be, Gguk is pretty shy and reserved, especially around his peers. His parents are really over protective of him so he doesn't get the chance to go out and just have fun. I'm sure he'll never forget this day."
Seokjin hums in response, his
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mind wandering to the other timeline where they never met Jungkook. What had the kid done on his birthday? Yoongi never talked about him but they still seemed pretty close if their relationship in and out of work for the years to come was any indication. Regardless, Seokjin
mind wandering to the other timeline where they never met Jungkook. What had the kid done on his birthday? Yoongi never talked about him but they still seemed pretty close if their relationship in and out of work for the years to come was any indication. Regardless, Seokjin
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definitely likes this timeline way better. Sure, he's repeating the past 32 years of his life but it's better now.
"I'm glad."
"Hmm?"
"I said, I'm glad to have met you Yoongi," he adds 'again' in his mind. "You and Jungkook. I like spending time with you."
"I like spending
definitely likes this timeline way better. Sure, he's repeating the past 32 years of his life but it's better now.
"I'm glad."
"Hmm?"
"I said, I'm glad to have met you Yoongi," he adds 'again' in his mind. "You and Jungkook. I like spending time with you."
"I like spending
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time with you too, hyung."
"OHMYGOD JUST GET MARRIED ALREADY."
"Really. In front of the baby."
"I'm not a baby, hyungs!"
Seokjin and Yoongi turn to their friends who are jeering at them. Seokjin only notices then just how close they were standing next to each other and steps
time with you too, hyung."
"OHMYGOD JUST GET MARRIED ALREADY."
"Really. In front of the baby."
"I'm not a baby, hyungs!"
Seokjin and Yoongi turn to their friends who are jeering at them. Seokjin only notices then just how close they were standing next to each other and steps
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away from Yoongi, his ears going red like it almost always does.
"Yah, don't you have something better to do like, I dunno, go home?"
"We live together, hyung."
"Gguk's the only one with the curfew."
"Can we please stop dragging me?"
Seokjin rubs at his temples, muttering
away from Yoongi, his ears going red like it almost always does.
"Yah, don't you have something better to do like, I dunno, go home?"
"We live together, hyung."
"Gguk's the only one with the curfew."
"Can we please stop dragging me?"
Seokjin rubs at his temples, muttering
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under his breath at how annoying his friends are, when he sees Yoongi's face, the faintest crestfallen look going over his features before he schools them into something more 'normal', more Yoongi. Yoongi catches his eye and offers him a small smile before joining the others
under his breath at how annoying his friends are, when he sees Yoongi's face, the faintest crestfallen look going over his features before he schools them into something more 'normal', more Yoongi. Yoongi catches his eye and offers him a small smile before joining the others
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and telling Jungkook he really should take him home now.
Seokjin knows what's going on. He's not denying it, he and Yoongi have gotten a lot closer in a short amount of time and he's seen the looks Yoongi's given him. He's been caught by the others (Jimin & Taehyung mostly)
and telling Jungkook he really should take him home now.
Seokjin knows what's going on. He's not denying it, he and Yoongi have gotten a lot closer in a short amount of time and he's seen the looks Yoongi's given him. He's been caught by the others (Jimin & Taehyung mostly)
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giving Yoongi those same looks when the younger isn't looking. He knows, he knows. But he's afraid.
For all the talk that he gave himself over wanting Yoongi back in his life, now that he does have him, he's afraid of letting go again. He's scared that if he pursues another
giving Yoongi those same looks when the younger isn't looking. He knows, he knows. But he's afraid.
For all the talk that he gave himself over wanting Yoongi back in his life, now that he does have him, he's afraid of letting go again. He's scared that if he pursues another
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relationship, he'll just invite fate to take it all away. He knows Yoongi will leave. Opportunities like that don't come in abundance. And Seokjin knows Yoongi's first love is music. And you don't forget your first love, not even when you have new love. Seokjin knows this.
relationship, he'll just invite fate to take it all away. He knows Yoongi will leave. Opportunities like that don't come in abundance. And Seokjin knows Yoongi's first love is music. And you don't forget your first love, not even when you have new love. Seokjin knows this.
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And yet. And yet.
It is October and the night of Jimin's first performance as the lead in a musical. They were all settled into their seats when they all receive a frantic text from Jimin to meet him backstage. They get there and see Jimin panicking with a couple of the
And yet. And yet.
It is October and the night of Jimin's first performance as the lead in a musical. They were all settled into their seats when they all receive a frantic text from Jimin to meet him backstage. They get there and see Jimin panicking with a couple of the
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other actors and backstage crew.
"What's going on?"
Jimin explains to them that one of their propsmen accidentally spilled coffee on the most important costume of the night and sent it to be cleaned thinking the replacement costume is available to be used but the replacement
other actors and backstage crew.
"What's going on?"
Jimin explains to them that one of their propsmen accidentally spilled coffee on the most important costume of the night and sent it to be cleaned thinking the replacement costume is available to be used but the replacement
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had also been sent to the dry cleaners a couple of days ago and they need someone to get it but the dry cleaners is on the other side of town and it's going to be used by the 2nd act and--
"Jimin, calm down--Jimin, look at me. Look at me," Seokjin places his hands on Jimin's
had also been sent to the dry cleaners a couple of days ago and they need someone to get it but the dry cleaners is on the other side of town and it's going to be used by the 2nd act and--
"Jimin, calm down--Jimin, look at me. Look at me," Seokjin places his hands on Jimin's
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shoulders.
"We're going to get that costume okay? We'll get it here before the 2nd act and with more than enough time to spare. Now, chin up and no more crying! You'll ruin your make-up."
"Okay, hyung, I trust you."
"Alright! Everyone just do your best. We'll be back before
shoulders.
"We're going to get that costume okay? We'll get it here before the 2nd act and with more than enough time to spare. Now, chin up and no more crying! You'll ruin your make-up."
"Okay, hyung, I trust you."
"Alright! Everyone just do your best. We'll be back before
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you know it."
The six of them leave backstage.
"How are we gonna do this, hyung?" Hoseok asks. "Will we take a taxi or the subway or--"
"No, I'LL take a taxi, all of you stay here. Jimin's going to need all the support he can get and seeing you guys in the audience will calm
you know it."
The six of them leave backstage.
"How are we gonna do this, hyung?" Hoseok asks. "Will we take a taxi or the subway or--"
"No, I'LL take a taxi, all of you stay here. Jimin's going to need all the support he can get and seeing you guys in the audience will calm
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him down."
"You can't go alone," Jungkook protests. "What if something happens to you and you don't get here on time?"
"But I can't take you all with me!"
"Then take just one of us," Yoongi says. "Take me. Gguk's right. You can't go alone but we can't all go either."
"Fine,
him down."
"You can't go alone," Jungkook protests. "What if something happens to you and you don't get here on time?"
"But I can't take you all with me!"
"Then take just one of us," Yoongi says. "Take me. Gguk's right. You can't go alone but we can't all go either."
"Fine,
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fine. The rest of you go back to your seats and cheer for Jimin while Yoongi and I get this costume. We'll be back soon enough."
"Fighting, hyung!" Taehyung calls after them as they leave. They run out into the street and flag down the first taxi they see. It takes them to
fine. The rest of you go back to your seats and cheer for Jimin while Yoongi and I get this costume. We'll be back soon enough."
"Fighting, hyung!" Taehyung calls after them as they leave. They run out into the street and flag down the first taxi they see. It takes them to
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the laundry shop just fine. They go inside, ask for the costume, sign a few receipts, and they're back out the door when the sky crackles and a storm pours over the entire city.
"ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?" Seokjin screams to the heavens just as Yoongi succesfully grabs a
the laundry shop just fine. They go inside, ask for the costume, sign a few receipts, and they're back out the door when the sky crackles and a storm pours over the entire city.
"ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?" Seokjin screams to the heavens just as Yoongi succesfully grabs a
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taxi and they rush inside careful to keep the costume out of the rain and not get crumpled at the same time. They tell the driver to drive as fast as he can to the theatre but as soon as they hit the main road--
"FUCKING TRAFFIC!"
It's an endless sea of bumpers and Seokjin
taxi and they rush inside careful to keep the costume out of the rain and not get crumpled at the same time. They tell the driver to drive as fast as he can to the theatre but as soon as they hit the main road--
"FUCKING TRAFFIC!"
It's an endless sea of bumpers and Seokjin
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wants to cry. They're still a ways away from the theatre and the first act is finishing up soon. Seokjin bites back a sob.
"Hyung. Hyung. Jin-hyung!"
"Wha--"
Seokjin feels a pair of hands cup his face and then he's looking into Yoongi's eyes.
"Just focus on me okay, hyung?
wants to cry. They're still a ways away from the theatre and the first act is finishing up soon. Seokjin bites back a sob.
"Hyung. Hyung. Jin-hyung!"
"Wha--"
Seokjin feels a pair of hands cup his face and then he's looking into Yoongi's eyes.
"Just focus on me okay, hyung?
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Just breathe."
Seokjin's eyes wander to Yoongi's lips before closing them and counting from 1-10.
"Feel calmer?"
"Yeah, thanks."
"How much time before the 2nd act starts?"
"15 minutes."
"We can make it," Yoongi says as he hands the driver money.
"Yoongi--WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
Just breathe."
Seokjin's eyes wander to Yoongi's lips before closing them and counting from 1-10.
"Feel calmer?"
"Yeah, thanks."
"How much time before the 2nd act starts?"
"15 minutes."
"We can make it," Yoongi says as he hands the driver money.
"Yoongi--WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
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Yoongi's already halfway out the door, the costume in his hands. "You said 15 minutes. The taxi's never gonna get there in time but if we run, we might just make it."
"But it's pouring like crazy!"
"Do you want to get this to Jimin or not? He's waiting for us, hyung. He
Yoongi's already halfway out the door, the costume in his hands. "You said 15 minutes. The taxi's never gonna get there in time but if we run, we might just make it."
"But it's pouring like crazy!"
"Do you want to get this to Jimin or not? He's waiting for us, hyung. He
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trusts you. And I want you to trust me," Yoongi puts his hand out for Seokjin to take.
Seokjin looks at it once and shouts in his head 'fuck it', taking Yoongi's hand, as they run as fast as they can through the streets of Seoul.
Running under a storm isn't fun, he slips a
trusts you. And I want you to trust me," Yoongi puts his hand out for Seokjin to take.
Seokjin looks at it once and shouts in his head 'fuck it', taking Yoongi's hand, as they run as fast as they can through the streets of Seoul.
Running under a storm isn't fun, he slips a
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a few times but Yoongi's grip on his hand keeps him steady. They traverse through the streets like madmen, screaming at people to move out the way, cradling the costume like a new born baby, when they're suddenly in front of the theatre, one of the actors and Namjoon meeting
a few times but Yoongi's grip on his hand keeps him steady. They traverse through the streets like madmen, screaming at people to move out the way, cradling the costume like a new born baby, when they're suddenly in front of the theatre, one of the actors and Namjoon meeting
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them. They hand the costume over, the actor bows them a thanks, while she rushes back inside with Namjoon to bring the costume to Jimin. Yoongi checks his watch, panting, "Three...minutes...to...spa--"
He doesn't get to finish what he's saying because Seokjin's pressed his
them. They hand the costume over, the actor bows them a thanks, while she rushes back inside with Namjoon to bring the costume to Jimin. Yoongi checks his watch, panting, "Three...minutes...to...spa--"
He doesn't get to finish what he's saying because Seokjin's pressed his
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lips to his, and they're under the rain, and it's cold and it's wet, but Seokjin is warm, warm, warm and kissing him.
Seokjin breaks the kiss, eyes wide with surprise & he stutters, "I-I-I'm sorry--I-I don't know what came over me--"
Yoongi shuts him up by kissing him back.
lips to his, and they're under the rain, and it's cold and it's wet, but Seokjin is warm, warm, warm and kissing him.
Seokjin breaks the kiss, eyes wide with surprise & he stutters, "I-I-I'm sorry--I-I don't know what came over me--"
Yoongi shuts him up by kissing him back.
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Starting a relationship with Yoongi again was like jumping off an airplane, nerve-wracking but exhilarating at the same time. That kiss under the rain was accidental, unplanned, but deep inside him it felt like it was meant to happen, like everything has finally fallen into
Starting a relationship with Yoongi again was like jumping off an airplane, nerve-wracking but exhilarating at the same time. That kiss under the rain was accidental, unplanned, but deep inside him it felt like it was meant to happen, like everything has finally fallen into
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its proper place. But does it mean he's stopped being afraid of what he knows is going to come? No. In fact, he's terrified. But every time he looks into Yoongi's eyes, every time their fingers intertwine, every time the other says their name, he tells himself it's alright.
its proper place. But does it mean he's stopped being afraid of what he knows is going to come? No. In fact, he's terrified. But every time he looks into Yoongi's eyes, every time their fingers intertwine, every time the other says their name, he tells himself it's alright.
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He tells himself he /can/ have this. While he still can, he will.
They take things a little more slowly this time around, waiting for each other after class, walking home together, calling late at night to keep the other sane from upcoming deadlines, mundane stuff really.
He tells himself he /can/ have this. While he still can, he will.
They take things a little more slowly this time around, waiting for each other after class, walking home together, calling late at night to keep the other sane from upcoming deadlines, mundane stuff really.
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They haven't even gone on a proper date yet. The maknae trio gasp like scandalized elderly when he mentions it to them.
"What the actual shit, hyung?"
"Language, Jungkook."
"You're not Yoongi-hyung and it's not like you actually care if I swear or not."
"True. But I'm his
They haven't even gone on a proper date yet. The maknae trio gasp like scandalized elderly when he mentions it to them.
"What the actual shit, hyung?"
"Language, Jungkook."
"You're not Yoongi-hyung and it's not like you actually care if I swear or not."
"True. But I'm his
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boyfriend, so that gives me the right to scold you in his place."
"Just say you like killing my vibe and go."
Jimin brings them back to the topic.
"You've seriously never gone on a date."
"Yeah. I mean, it doesn't really matter. We text and call. We go out practically every
boyfriend, so that gives me the right to scold you in his place."
"Just say you like killing my vibe and go."
Jimin brings them back to the topic.
"You've seriously never gone on a date."
"Yeah. I mean, it doesn't really matter. We text and call. We go out practically every
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weekend for the rap show and for busking. And he walks me home all the time, sometimes he stays over for dinner. We spend almost everyday together."
"It's not the SAME," Taehyung cries exasperatedly. "It's been, what, a month since you guys got together?"
"I guess?" Seokjin
weekend for the rap show and for busking. And he walks me home all the time, sometimes he stays over for dinner. We spend almost everyday together."
"It's not the SAME," Taehyung cries exasperatedly. "It's been, what, a month since you guys got together?"
"I guess?" Seokjin
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recalls the musical to be on October 24 and it's November 22 now, so yeah it's been about a month-ish. He pushes back the haunting reminder that his birthday is also getting closer, only 12 days away.
12 days until Yoongi leaves him. 12 days until he loses him again. But
recalls the musical to be on October 24 and it's November 22 now, so yeah it's been about a month-ish. He pushes back the haunting reminder that his birthday is also getting closer, only 12 days away.
12 days until Yoongi leaves him. 12 days until he loses him again. But
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what he's learned in this second chance is that he doesn't mind Yoongi leaving as much anymore. Sure, it hurts to think about it, and yes he still feels like he got stabbed in the chest but this second chance showed him a Yoongi he never knew. He's still the same Yoongi he
what he's learned in this second chance is that he doesn't mind Yoongi leaving as much anymore. Sure, it hurts to think about it, and yes he still feels like he got stabbed in the chest but this second chance showed him a Yoongi he never knew. He's still the same Yoongi he
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fell in love with, still charming, still stubborn, still rough around the edges, but he is also hardworking, mischievous, and selfless. And maybe he wants what's best for Yoongi now, that is (and his past-future self would turn in his figurative grave if he hears this) he
fell in love with, still charming, still stubborn, still rough around the edges, but he is also hardworking, mischievous, and selfless. And maybe he wants what's best for Yoongi now, that is (and his past-future self would turn in his figurative grave if he hears this) he
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WANTS Yoongi to take the offer. He wants Yoongi to go to Hong Kong and pursue his career. He'll be left alone in Korea but Yoongi will achieve his dreams and that's more than enough for him.
Maybe he is a fool but he isn't foolish. Loving someone isn't foolish. And all he's
WANTS Yoongi to take the offer. He wants Yoongi to go to Hong Kong and pursue his career. He'll be left alone in Korea but Yoongi will achieve his dreams and that's more than enough for him.
Maybe he is a fool but he isn't foolish. Loving someone isn't foolish. And all he's
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ever done is love Yoongi.
"Earth to Seokjinnie-hyung!" Jimin's voice pulls him from his thoughts.
"What?"
"Were you seriously not listening to anything we were saying?"
"Um, no?"
"Ugh, forget it. Your relationship is doomed forever."
"Just because we don't go on dates?"
ever done is love Yoongi.
"Earth to Seokjinnie-hyung!" Jimin's voice pulls him from his thoughts.
"What?"
"Were you seriously not listening to anything we were saying?"
"Um, no?"
"Ugh, forget it. Your relationship is doomed forever."
"Just because we don't go on dates?"
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"EXACTLY because you don't go on dates. Dates are essential in keeping the passion alive! You and Yoongi-hyung are basically grandpas already so passion is like virtually non-existent. Have you guys even thought about fuc--"
"Finish that sentence and I'll tell mom and dad it
"EXACTLY because you don't go on dates. Dates are essential in keeping the passion alive! You and Yoongi-hyung are basically grandpas already so passion is like virtually non-existent. Have you guys even thought about fuc--"
"Finish that sentence and I'll tell mom and dad it
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was you who broke the ceiling fan AND the underfloor heating."
"AWW COME ON, HYUNG, YOU PROMISED."
"I heard from Gguk that you told him, Jimin, and Tae that we never went on a date."
He turns to look up at Yoongi, his head on the younger's lap as they wind down by watching
was you who broke the ceiling fan AND the underfloor heating."
"AWW COME ON, HYUNG, YOU PROMISED."
"I heard from Gguk that you told him, Jimin, and Tae that we never went on a date."
He turns to look up at Yoongi, his head on the younger's lap as they wind down by watching
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a movie. "You too? Are dates THAT big of a deal?"
"Well, no. I personally think it's unnecessary 'cause we just spend more money to spend time with each other, like we don't already hangout all the time."
"Okay. I can feel a but coming."
"/But/ it would be nice to go out
a movie. "You too? Are dates THAT big of a deal?"
"Well, no. I personally think it's unnecessary 'cause we just spend more money to spend time with each other, like we don't already hangout all the time."
"Okay. I can feel a but coming."
"/But/ it would be nice to go out
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with you again. Just spend the entire day with you. I mean, it's our 30th day tomorrow and don't other couples usually celebrate milestones like that or something?"
"Min Yoongi, are you asking me out on a date?"
"Maybe? I dunno. Only if you want to," Yoongi shyly looks away.
with you again. Just spend the entire day with you. I mean, it's our 30th day tomorrow and don't other couples usually celebrate milestones like that or something?"
"Min Yoongi, are you asking me out on a date?"
"Maybe? I dunno. Only if you want to," Yoongi shyly looks away.
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Seokjin reaches for Yoongi's face, making the younger look back at him. "You're too cute sometimes, you know that?"
"Is that a yes or a no?"
"Oh, stop pouting. It's a yes."
"Oh okay. Cool. Nice."
"Now that that's over with, I need my kisses, Yoongichi."
"You're so clingy,"
Seokjin reaches for Yoongi's face, making the younger look back at him. "You're too cute sometimes, you know that?"
"Is that a yes or a no?"
"Oh, stop pouting. It's a yes."
"Oh okay. Cool. Nice."
"Now that that's over with, I need my kisses, Yoongichi."
"You're so clingy,"
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Yoongi rolls his eyes but bends down to peck him on the lips anyway.
Tomorrow comes by quickly & Seokjin goes back to the apartment to take a shower and change into more date-appropriate clothes. He puts extra attention to his hair and even sprays on a different perfume.
Yoongi rolls his eyes but bends down to peck him on the lips anyway.
Tomorrow comes by quickly & Seokjin goes back to the apartment to take a shower and change into more date-appropriate clothes. He puts extra attention to his hair and even sprays on a different perfume.
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He texts Yoongi that he's ready & Yoongi replies w the address of the restaurant he made reservations for.
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hope you like steak
Seokjin gets there before Yoongi & he plays w his phone for a bit when someone stands in front of him. He looks up & sees a bouquet.
He texts Yoongi that he's ready & Yoongi replies w the address of the restaurant he made reservations for.
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hope you like steak
Seokjin gets there before Yoongi & he plays w his phone for a bit when someone stands in front of him. He looks up & sees a bouquet.
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Yoongi peeks out from behind the flowers, "Hey."
"Hey. You got me flowers?"
"Yeah. Roses. Um, here." Yoongi hands the bouquet to him and he takes it, taking a whiff and looking at the blooms.
"You didn't get the red ones?"
"Did you want the red ones?"
"No, these are way
Yoongi peeks out from behind the flowers, "Hey."
"Hey. You got me flowers?"
"Yeah. Roses. Um, here." Yoongi hands the bouquet to him and he takes it, taking a whiff and looking at the blooms.
"You didn't get the red ones?"
"Did you want the red ones?"
"No, these are way
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prettier but just out of curiosity."
"Oh. Well, I WAS gonna get the red ones cause you know, it represents love or whatever. But the florist showed me the pink and white ones, and I guess I liked their meanings more."
They enter the restaurant and get shown to their seats.
prettier but just out of curiosity."
"Oh. Well, I WAS gonna get the red ones cause you know, it represents love or whatever. But the florist showed me the pink and white ones, and I guess I liked their meanings more."
They enter the restaurant and get shown to their seats.
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"What do they mean?"
"Well, pink is love but also gratitude and appreciation. And white is for new beginnings. And I, uh, thought it was fitting. For us." Yoongi looks at him intently and Seokjin can't help the blush creeping onto his face.
"It's cheesy, I know."
"No, it's
"What do they mean?"
"Well, pink is love but also gratitude and appreciation. And white is for new beginnings. And I, uh, thought it was fitting. For us." Yoongi looks at him intently and Seokjin can't help the blush creeping onto his face.
"It's cheesy, I know."
"No, it's
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perfect. I love it." He sniffs the roses again before placing them on the table as the waiter gives them the menu.
The rest of their FIRST date goes as well as every other 'unofficial' date they've gone on. They order their steaks, eat their steaks, talk about things like
perfect. I love it." He sniffs the roses again before placing them on the table as the waiter gives them the menu.
The rest of their FIRST date goes as well as every other 'unofficial' date they've gone on. They order their steaks, eat their steaks, talk about things like
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they always do, joke around, teasing each other bec that's their thing, business as usual. But there's also more handholding and gazing into each other's eyes and random whispers of affection thrown into the conversations and it's sappy and gross but Seokjin won't have it
they always do, joke around, teasing each other bec that's their thing, business as usual. But there's also more handholding and gazing into each other's eyes and random whispers of affection thrown into the conversations and it's sappy and gross but Seokjin won't have it
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any other way.
They end their dinner and stroll around in a nearby park, hands intertwined, and just enjoying each other's presence. They sit at a bench, watching the lake in front of them. Seokjin's got his head on Yoongi's shoulder while Yoongi's got his arm draped over
any other way.
They end their dinner and stroll around in a nearby park, hands intertwined, and just enjoying each other's presence. They sit at a bench, watching the lake in front of them. Seokjin's got his head on Yoongi's shoulder while Yoongi's got his arm draped over
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his shoulders and they're cozy despite the crisp autumn air when he feels something vibrate against his side, specifically coming from Yoongi's coat. He pulls away, eyebrows raised.
"Your coat's vibrating."
Yoongi smiles at him sheepishly. "Yeah, someone's been calling and
his shoulders and they're cozy despite the crisp autumn air when he feels something vibrate against his side, specifically coming from Yoongi's coat. He pulls away, eyebrows raised.
"Your coat's vibrating."
Yoongi smiles at him sheepishly. "Yeah, someone's been calling and
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messaging me, halfway through dinner."
"Eh, why didn't you answer it then?"
"We were on our date! I didn't want to ruin it by answering some random calls."
"Oh, you sap."
Yoongi's coat vibrates again and Seokjin just tells Yoongi to take it.
"Oh, it's Joon? Hey. What's up?"
messaging me, halfway through dinner."
"Eh, why didn't you answer it then?"
"We were on our date! I didn't want to ruin it by answering some random calls."
"Oh, you sap."
Yoongi's coat vibrates again and Seokjin just tells Yoongi to take it.
"Oh, it's Joon? Hey. What's up?"
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Yoongi recoils from his phone as Namjoon's frantic (excited?) shouts resound from the speaker.
"CALM DOWN, JOON-AH. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING."
Seokjin watches as Yoongi's eyes grow the size of the moon as Namjoon relates to him whatever reason he's been calling
Yoongi recoils from his phone as Namjoon's frantic (excited?) shouts resound from the speaker.
"CALM DOWN, JOON-AH. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING."
Seokjin watches as Yoongi's eyes grow the size of the moon as Namjoon relates to him whatever reason he's been calling
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for since a while ago. Yoongi stands up suddenly, startling Seokjin, and something in his heart tells him that the thing he's been avoiding is finally here to take its dues and it's not going to give him any more extensions.
"YOU'RE NOT SHITTING ME, RIGHT?"
Seokjin strains
for since a while ago. Yoongi stands up suddenly, startling Seokjin, and something in his heart tells him that the thing he's been avoiding is finally here to take its dues and it's not going to give him any more extensions.
"YOU'RE NOT SHITTING ME, RIGHT?"
Seokjin strains
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his ears to try and catch what Namjoon is saying. He is able to make out 'he's here' and 'looking for you' and 'offer'.
Offer.
The word echoes in Seokjin's head like the ticking of a clock. He knew it was coming, knows he can't avoid it, and he schools his features into
his ears to try and catch what Namjoon is saying. He is able to make out 'he's here' and 'looking for you' and 'offer'.
Offer.
The word echoes in Seokjin's head like the ticking of a clock. He knew it was coming, knows he can't avoid it, and he schools his features into
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something nonchalant like his heart and entire world isn't on the verge of collapse. Again.
"Really? Okay, okay. We'll get there, we'll get there. Yeah, yeah. We're just a train ride away. We will, we will. Okay, see you! Bye."
Yoongi turns to him, eyes bright as the stars.
something nonchalant like his heart and entire world isn't on the verge of collapse. Again.
"Really? Okay, okay. We'll get there, we'll get there. Yeah, yeah. We're just a train ride away. We will, we will. Okay, see you! Bye."
Yoongi turns to him, eyes bright as the stars.
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"You won't believe this, hyung, but Joon's just said that Choi Yoonsung, a very popular music producer based in Hong Kong, is at the rap show right now and he's looking for me because he wants to offer me a music deal."
"Holy shit, Yoongi, that's amazing!"
"I know! But Joon
"You won't believe this, hyung, but Joon's just said that Choi Yoonsung, a very popular music producer based in Hong Kong, is at the rap show right now and he's looking for me because he wants to offer me a music deal."
"Holy shit, Yoongi, that's amazing!"
"I know! But Joon
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says I need to be at the show right now 'cause they're leaving soon and if I don't show up he might give the offer to one of the other guys instead 'cause he watched the show and really liked some of them."
"Oh no! Well, you better hurry now then. The next train should be
says I need to be at the show right now 'cause they're leaving soon and if I don't show up he might give the offer to one of the other guys instead 'cause he watched the show and really liked some of them."
"Oh no! Well, you better hurry now then. The next train should be
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arriving soon. The closest stop is just over there, I think."
"Wait, you're not coming with me?"
"I'll just slow you down. You need to be there asap."
"But I want you to come with me. I want you to be there. We got in time for Jimin's show. We can do it again!"
"Oh, Yoongi."
arriving soon. The closest stop is just over there, I think."
"Wait, you're not coming with me?"
"I'll just slow you down. You need to be there asap."
"But I want you to come with me. I want you to be there. We got in time for Jimin's show. We can do it again!"
"Oh, Yoongi."
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Seokjin thinks he's an idiot. But all he's done in the past almost 6 months were pretty idiotic things anyway so what does it matter. He lets his heart control his life yet again, standing in front of Yoongi and hugging him as tight as he can.
"Hyung, wha-?"
He blinks away
Seokjin thinks he's an idiot. But all he's done in the past almost 6 months were pretty idiotic things anyway so what does it matter. He lets his heart control his life yet again, standing in front of Yoongi and hugging him as tight as he can.
"Hyung, wha-?"
He blinks away
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the tears about to form in his eyes before pulling away from Yoongi and grabbing his hand.
"Well, what are you waiting for? We have a rap show to go to!"
"Wait, hyung, the flowers!"
"Just leave them! You can buy me new ones to celebrate you getting the offer."
So they run
the tears about to form in his eyes before pulling away from Yoongi and grabbing his hand.
"Well, what are you waiting for? We have a rap show to go to!"
"Wait, hyung, the flowers!"
"Just leave them! You can buy me new ones to celebrate you getting the offer."
So they run
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off into the night, rushing down to the train station and barely missing the next ride. Their hands stay interlocked as they stand next to the doors waiting for the lady on the intercom to announce their destination. Seokjin can sense Yoongi's excitement and nervousness, the
off into the night, rushing down to the train station and barely missing the next ride. Their hands stay interlocked as they stand next to the doors waiting for the lady on the intercom to announce their destination. Seokjin can sense Yoongi's excitement and nervousness, the
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younger practically shaking where he's standing, checking his phone every minute that passes. Seokjin clamps down on the turmoil brewing inside of him cause he knows Yoongi deserves this, he wants Yoongi to have this and he's happy for him but his chest has become so hollow.
younger practically shaking where he's standing, checking his phone every minute that passes. Seokjin clamps down on the turmoil brewing inside of him cause he knows Yoongi deserves this, he wants Yoongi to have this and he's happy for him but his chest has become so hollow.
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He might be holding Yoongi's hands tight now but it feels like he's letting him slip right through his fingers.
They get to the show and its deja vu with Namjoon meeting them out front. But instead of them staying outside, only he stays behind and Yoongi goes on without him.
He might be holding Yoongi's hands tight now but it feels like he's letting him slip right through his fingers.
They get to the show and its deja vu with Namjoon meeting them out front. But instead of them staying outside, only he stays behind and Yoongi goes on without him.
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He follows inside after a while, making his way to the main stage area. He's about to head to the bar when he sees Hoseok waving at him & he decides to join him instead.
"Hyung, you're here! Is Yoongi-hyung--"
"Yeah, Joonie's taken him to see the producer guy."
"Sweet. It's
He follows inside after a while, making his way to the main stage area. He's about to head to the bar when he sees Hoseok waving at him & he decides to join him instead.
"Hyung, you're here! Is Yoongi-hyung--"
"Yeah, Joonie's taken him to see the producer guy."
"Sweet. It's
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so cool that Yoongi-hyung's getting this opportunity though. Choi Yoonsung is like a really renowned producer, especially in the hip-hop scene. And Yoongi-hyung getting specifically scouted by the guy? Kappoosh!" Hoseok makes a motion as if his head is exploding.
"Is that
so cool that Yoongi-hyung's getting this opportunity though. Choi Yoonsung is like a really renowned producer, especially in the hip-hop scene. And Yoongi-hyung getting specifically scouted by the guy? Kappoosh!" Hoseok makes a motion as if his head is exploding.
"Is that
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so? That's good, that's good."
"Are you alright, hyung? You don't sound okay."
"What? No, I'm fine. I'm fine. Just sleepy, I guess. Had a big dinner."
"Ahh. You're sure? When you entered the room, you looked a little sad."
"Did I?"
Hoseok pauses and looks at him closely.
so? That's good, that's good."
"Are you alright, hyung? You don't sound okay."
"What? No, I'm fine. I'm fine. Just sleepy, I guess. Had a big dinner."
"Ahh. You're sure? When you entered the room, you looked a little sad."
"Did I?"
Hoseok pauses and looks at him closely.
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"What is it, Hobi?"
"Is this about Yoongi-hyung getting the offer? Are you not okay with it?"
"What? No no! I'm happy for him. He's always loved music and he's so good at it and he's worked so hard for it. He deserves being noticed by an actual big shot producer. He deserves
"What is it, Hobi?"
"Is this about Yoongi-hyung getting the offer? Are you not okay with it?"
"What? No no! I'm happy for him. He's always loved music and he's so good at it and he's worked so hard for it. He deserves being noticed by an actual big shot producer. He deserves
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this offer."
"You didn't answer the question. Yeah, you're happy for him but are you okay with it?"
"I--"
Truthfully? He isn't. He isn't okay with Yoongi getting this offer because he knows what comes after it. He knows the pain. He's suffered years upon years of it. He
this offer."
"You didn't answer the question. Yeah, you're happy for him but are you okay with it?"
"I--"
Truthfully? He isn't. He isn't okay with Yoongi getting this offer because he knows what comes after it. He knows the pain. He's suffered years upon years of it. He
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knows what it's like to be the other choice, the one that doesn't get picked. He hates it actually, hates what this offer will bring for him. But, it's not about him anymore. This is about Yoongi. He may not be okay with it now but he--
"--will be. I will be okay with it."
knows what it's like to be the other choice, the one that doesn't get picked. He hates it actually, hates what this offer will bring for him. But, it's not about him anymore. This is about Yoongi. He may not be okay with it now but he--
"--will be. I will be okay with it."
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"Hyung--"
"Don't think about it too much okay? This doesn't involve me & however I feel about it doesn't matter. Yoongi deserves this opportunity and I can't be the one to drag him down."
He offers a smile at the younger who looks like he wants to say something more. Seokjin
"Hyung--"
"Don't think about it too much okay? This doesn't involve me & however I feel about it doesn't matter. Yoongi deserves this opportunity and I can't be the one to drag him down."
He offers a smile at the younger who looks like he wants to say something more. Seokjin
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doesn't like seeing Hoseok, who's always all smiles and laughter, frowning like that. He bumps his shoulder against the younger.
"Come on, Hobi. I'm going to the bar. Do you want anything? It's my treat."
"But what about how Yoongi-hyung feels?"
"Hmm?"
"Don't you think he
doesn't like seeing Hoseok, who's always all smiles and laughter, frowning like that. He bumps his shoulder against the younger.
"Come on, Hobi. I'm going to the bar. Do you want anything? It's my treat."
"But what about how Yoongi-hyung feels?"
"Hmm?"
"Don't you think he
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wouldn't be okay with accepting the offer if you weren't okay with it?"
"Yoongi doesn't have to know."
"But you're his boyfriend. He has to know."
Seokjin shakes his head. "I'm /only/ his boyfriend. It's not like I can make his decisions for him."
"But he loves you! You love
wouldn't be okay with accepting the offer if you weren't okay with it?"
"Yoongi doesn't have to know."
"But you're his boyfriend. He has to know."
Seokjin shakes his head. "I'm /only/ his boyfriend. It's not like I can make his decisions for him."
"But he loves you! You love
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him! You love each other!"
"That's why I'm letting him go. I love him so much, Hobi. /Too/ much, it hurts sometimes. When you love someone as much as I've loved him, you want to give them everything even if it means you get left alone so they can spread their wings and fly.
him! You love each other!"
"That's why I'm letting him go. I love him so much, Hobi. /Too/ much, it hurts sometimes. When you love someone as much as I've loved him, you want to give them everything even if it means you get left alone so they can spread their wings and fly.
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It hurts but keeping him all to myself won't do either of us any good. This is an opportunity of a lifetime. He shouldn't waste it on someone like me."
"But hyung, you're worth every single opportunity of a lifetime there is! I know that and I'm sure Yoongi-hyung does too."
It hurts but keeping him all to myself won't do either of us any good. This is an opportunity of a lifetime. He shouldn't waste it on someone like me."
"But hyung, you're worth every single opportunity of a lifetime there is! I know that and I'm sure Yoongi-hyung does too."
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"Thanks for the kind words, Hobi, but what I have to give him is nothing compared to this. I'm just a guy he fell in love with."
"Don't sell yourself short like that."
Seokjin turns around and finds Yoongi & Namjoon standing behind them.
"Yoongi--"
"/Never/ talk lowly about
"Thanks for the kind words, Hobi, but what I have to give him is nothing compared to this. I'm just a guy he fell in love with."
"Don't sell yourself short like that."
Seokjin turns around and finds Yoongi & Namjoon standing behind them.
"Yoongi--"
"/Never/ talk lowly about
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yourself like that," Yoongi continued, walking towards him. Seokjin watches as Yoongi cups his face, pulling him closer & pressing their foreheads together.
"You're not just a guy I fell in love with," Yoongi whispers for only him to hear. "You're the one I chose to love."
yourself like that," Yoongi continued, walking towards him. Seokjin watches as Yoongi cups his face, pulling him closer & pressing their foreheads together.
"You're not just a guy I fell in love with," Yoongi whispers for only him to hear. "You're the one I chose to love."
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Seokjin's breath hitches. He closes his eyes and counts from 1 to 10 in his head. His eyes stay closed as he whispers back to Yoongi, "How long were you standing there?"
"Just in time. Hyung, you know you're not a waste of my time, right?"
"..."
"Hyung."
"It's hard to
Seokjin's breath hitches. He closes his eyes and counts from 1 to 10 in his head. His eyes stay closed as he whispers back to Yoongi, "How long were you standing there?"
"Just in time. Hyung, you know you're not a waste of my time, right?"
"..."
"Hyung."
"It's hard to
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believe, Yoongi. I know it doesn't make sense but--"
"Is that how I hurt you?"
"..."
"Did I make you feel like you weren't worth every single moment of my time?"
"It's not--"
"It's not me, I know. Not really. But it is. It is still me. It's still me who hurt you like that."
believe, Yoongi. I know it doesn't make sense but--"
"Is that how I hurt you?"
"..."
"Did I make you feel like you weren't worth every single moment of my time?"
"It's not--"
"It's not me, I know. Not really. But it is. It is still me. It's still me who hurt you like that."
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"You were the best thing that ever happened to me. You still are, after everything."
"But I didn't deserve that. The past me or whoever that me was, he treated you like shit. But I promised you. I promised you I wouldn't hurt you. Not like that, not like anything."
"I know.
"You were the best thing that ever happened to me. You still are, after everything."
"But I didn't deserve that. The past me or whoever that me was, he treated you like shit. But I promised you. I promised you I wouldn't hurt you. Not like that, not like anything."
"I know.
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I know you did."
"Did he promise that too? Did the other me promise you too?"
"...no."
"Then he's an idiot! He doesn't know what he gave up. You're amazing, hyung. And I know we haven't been together for that long but I already know that I'll love you for the rest of my
I know you did."
"Did he promise that too? Did the other me promise you too?"
"...no."
"Then he's an idiot! He doesn't know what he gave up. You're amazing, hyung. And I know we haven't been together for that long but I already know that I'll love you for the rest of my
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life. I'd probably be called dumb or naive but it's you. It's you."
Seokjin opens his eyes slowly and is greeted by Yoongi's gaze. It's so full of care and affection, Seokjin almost cries again but he doesn't, he doesn't. Instead, he smiles; he smiles because Yoongi loves
life. I'd probably be called dumb or naive but it's you. It's you."
Seokjin opens his eyes slowly and is greeted by Yoongi's gaze. It's so full of care and affection, Seokjin almost cries again but he doesn't, he doesn't. Instead, he smiles; he smiles because Yoongi loves
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him. Yoongi loves him. Yoongi loves him.
He tells himself, it's okay now. Yoongi might be leaving soon but he won't be leaving him. At least, he doesn't think he will. You don't tell someone you love them and then leave them. And Yoongi loves him. Yoongi loves him. Yoongi
him. Yoongi loves him. Yoongi loves him.
He tells himself, it's okay now. Yoongi might be leaving soon but he won't be leaving him. At least, he doesn't think he will. You don't tell someone you love them and then leave them. And Yoongi loves him. Yoongi loves him. Yoongi
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loves him.
He wraps his arms around Yoongi, burying his face in the crook of the younger's neck.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't apologize, hyung. Never apologize for that."
Yoongi hugs him back tightly.
They stay like that for a while before he pulls back and just looks at Yoongi. He
loves him.
He wraps his arms around Yoongi, burying his face in the crook of the younger's neck.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't apologize, hyung. Never apologize for that."
Yoongi hugs him back tightly.
They stay like that for a while before he pulls back and just looks at Yoongi. He
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looks exactly like he used to, speaks exactly like he used to, and makes him feel exactly he used to. But it's different this time because Yoongi is standing in front of him and telling him that it is. Telling him that he can have this. He won't get hurt. Not anymore.
looks exactly like he used to, speaks exactly like he used to, and makes him feel exactly he used to. But it's different this time because Yoongi is standing in front of him and telling him that it is. Telling him that he can have this. He won't get hurt. Not anymore.
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Well, he supposes he can't avoid the elephant in the room any longer.
"So, what happened with the offer?"
Yoongi shrugs his shoulders.
"I didn't take it."
Wait--
"You what?!"
Seokjin and Hoseok look at each other because they just shouted the same words at the same exact
Well, he supposes he can't avoid the elephant in the room any longer.
"So, what happened with the offer?"
Yoongi shrugs his shoulders.
"I didn't take it."
Wait--
"You what?!"
Seokjin and Hoseok look at each other because they just shouted the same words at the same exact
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time. He processes what Yoongi just said, turning to Namjoon who nods in affirmation.
"But it was a chance of a lifetime! You could have been signed to a label! You could have been famous!"
"Fame is nothing if I couldn't have you."
"Huh?"
"The deal had a contract," Namjoon
time. He processes what Yoongi just said, turning to Namjoon who nods in affirmation.
"But it was a chance of a lifetime! You could have been signed to a label! You could have been famous!"
"Fame is nothing if I couldn't have you."
"Huh?"
"The deal had a contract," Namjoon
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explains. "It said that Yoongi-hyung would be considered a trainee under the company first and he'll have to train for an indeterminate amount of time before they can assess if he'll be an artist or a producer. During that time, he only has limited communication with his
explains. "It said that Yoongi-hyung would be considered a trainee under the company first and he'll have to train for an indeterminate amount of time before they can assess if he'll be an artist or a producer. During that time, he only has limited communication with his
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immediate family and can't keep in touch at all with anyone else. He also has to move to Hong Kong. The flight is on December 4."
"My birthday."
"Yep. So basically, it wasn't /that/ worth it and Yoongi-hyung chose us. Or I guess, more accurately, Yoongi-hyung chose you."
immediate family and can't keep in touch at all with anyone else. He also has to move to Hong Kong. The flight is on December 4."
"My birthday."
"Yep. So basically, it wasn't /that/ worth it and Yoongi-hyung chose us. Or I guess, more accurately, Yoongi-hyung chose you."
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Seokjin couldn't believe what he was hearing. It's like he got hit by a tidal wave because there's no way this is real. Yoongi wasn't supposed to choose him. Yoongi was supposed to leave and never look back. The Yoongi back then didn't--
He feels Yoongi's thumb wipe at his
Seokjin couldn't believe what he was hearing. It's like he got hit by a tidal wave because there's no way this is real. Yoongi wasn't supposed to choose him. Yoongi was supposed to leave and never look back. The Yoongi back then didn't--
He feels Yoongi's thumb wipe at his
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eyes and that's when he realizes he's crying again. God, he's so tired of crying. He steps back and rubs at his eyes but he can't seem to stop.
"I-I'm sorry."
"Hey, hey," Yoongi consoles him. "I told you you don't have to apologize."
"But--"
"I chose you, remember? I meant
eyes and that's when he realizes he's crying again. God, he's so tired of crying. He steps back and rubs at his eyes but he can't seem to stop.
"I-I'm sorry."
"Hey, hey," Yoongi consoles him. "I told you you don't have to apologize."
"But--"
"I chose you, remember? I meant
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that. You're more important to me than that offer. You all are & there are other ways I can make it in the industry. I'm Min Yoongi aka Suga aka Agust D. They won't know what hit 'em!"
Seokjin lets out a laugh bec he understands that feeling so well. Yoongi came into his
that. You're more important to me than that offer. You all are & there are other ways I can make it in the industry. I'm Min Yoongi aka Suga aka Agust D. They won't know what hit 'em!"
Seokjin lets out a laugh bec he understands that feeling so well. Yoongi came into his
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life without warning and he never realized loving him would lead him here. His life has been a series of ups and downs since he came along and for the longest time he regretted ever meeting him. But this second chance made him realize he could be happy.
"Yep, they won't."
life without warning and he never realized loving him would lead him here. His life has been a series of ups and downs since he came along and for the longest time he regretted ever meeting him. But this second chance made him realize he could be happy.
"Yep, they won't."
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He could love again and he could heal, even if his heart would break a million more times. Whether it was Yoongi or not, he loved someone and loving someone meant that he can. And maybe he needed to learn that he had to love himself. And be kind to himself. And let himself
He could love again and he could heal, even if his heart would break a million more times. Whether it was Yoongi or not, he loved someone and loving someone meant that he can. And maybe he needed to learn that he had to love himself. And be kind to himself. And let himself
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understand his pain and not just brush it aside and pretend that he's okay. And people leave but that doesn't mean he wasn't good enough. Maybe in that lifetime it wasn't meant to be. And in other ones, maybe they'd get their happy ending. Maybe this is his happy ending.
understand his pain and not just brush it aside and pretend that he's okay. And people leave but that doesn't mean he wasn't good enough. Maybe in that lifetime it wasn't meant to be. And in other ones, maybe they'd get their happy ending. Maybe this is his happy ending.
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His birthday arrives in the blink of an eye and he's blindfolded and being led somewhere by Jungkook and Taehyung.
"Can you at least tell me where I'm gonna have my surprise birthday party?"
"Hyung, you already know it's a surprise. Can you at least LET us surprise you?"
His birthday arrives in the blink of an eye and he's blindfolded and being led somewhere by Jungkook and Taehyung.
"Can you at least tell me where I'm gonna have my surprise birthday party?"
"Hyung, you already know it's a surprise. Can you at least LET us surprise you?"
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"Ugh, fine. But ONLY because this is Jungkook's first time celebrating with us."
"Aww, I didn't know you loved me so much, hyung."
"Don't be a brat about it and MAYBE I'll let you stay until we eat cake."
"I love you too, hyung."
"I shouldn't have let Yoongi ask your
"Ugh, fine. But ONLY because this is Jungkook's first time celebrating with us."
"Aww, I didn't know you loved me so much, hyung."
"Don't be a brat about it and MAYBE I'll let you stay until we eat cake."
"I love you too, hyung."
"I shouldn't have let Yoongi ask your
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parents to let you stay out past your curfew."
"But you did."
"Okay, turn to the right, hyung," Taehyung orders him and he follows.
With his sense of sight out of commission, he relies on his other senses to guess where they could possibly be. He is NOT having a repeat of
parents to let you stay out past your curfew."
"But you did."
"Okay, turn to the right, hyung," Taehyung orders him and he follows.
With his sense of sight out of commission, he relies on his other senses to guess where they could possibly be. He is NOT having a repeat of
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his 20th birthday. Taehyung and Hoseok have since been banned from planning birthday parties together. Their son, Junseo's birthdays were always handled by him, Namjoon, and/or Jimin lest the poor boy get risked being scarred for life accidentally by his parents.
Seokjin
his 20th birthday. Taehyung and Hoseok have since been banned from planning birthday parties together. Their son, Junseo's birthdays were always handled by him, Namjoon, and/or Jimin lest the poor boy get risked being scarred for life accidentally by his parents.
Seokjin
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catches wind of doors opening and music coming from them. Specifically, music coming from a karaoke machine. Just to be sure, he listens more closely & hears a couple of badly sung notes just as a door closes somewhere to his right. They're at a norebang. Okay not too wild.
catches wind of doors opening and music coming from them. Specifically, music coming from a karaoke machine. Just to be sure, he listens more closely & hears a couple of badly sung notes just as a door closes somewhere to his right. They're at a norebang. Okay not too wild.
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Since they have Jungkook with them, there won't be any alcohol involved so he allows himself to relax as Taehyung tells him to, "Turn to your left and we'll be there."
He does as he is told and just walks until Jungkook's hand on his shoulder stops him from walking further.
Since they have Jungkook with them, there won't be any alcohol involved so he allows himself to relax as Taehyung tells him to, "Turn to your left and we'll be there."
He does as he is told and just walks until Jungkook's hand on his shoulder stops him from walking further.
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"Okay, hyung, you'll be passing through a door okay? Be careful of the table directly in front of you! Alright, Kookie, help hyung walk sideways so he can get to the seat. Okay, seat down, hyung. Here, put this on him."
Seokjin feels something placed on his head and a piece
"Okay, hyung, you'll be passing through a door okay? Be careful of the table directly in front of you! Alright, Kookie, help hyung walk sideways so he can get to the seat. Okay, seat down, hyung. Here, put this on him."
Seokjin feels something placed on his head and a piece
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of elastic wrapped around his chin.
"Okaaayy and take off the blindfold, Kookie!"
Seokjin feels the handkerchief wrapped around his eyes loosen and the world is a blur before it clears and all around him he hears,
"Happy Birthday, Jin-hyung!"
In front of him stands everyone,
of elastic wrapped around his chin.
"Okaaayy and take off the blindfold, Kookie!"
Seokjin feels the handkerchief wrapped around his eyes loosen and the world is a blur before it clears and all around him he hears,
"Happy Birthday, Jin-hyung!"
In front of him stands everyone,
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Taehyung, Jungkook (rushing from his side to stand with the others), Hoseok, Jimin, Namjoon (who are standing a little closer to each other than usual, he might have to tease the two of them later), and Yoongi (his Yoongi), with huge smiles on their faces. The booth they
Taehyung, Jungkook (rushing from his side to stand with the others), Hoseok, Jimin, Namjoon (who are standing a little closer to each other than usual, he might have to tease the two of them later), and Yoongi (his Yoongi), with huge smiles on their faces. The booth they
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rented is decorated with Super Mario everything from the balloons to the streamers to the party hats. The party hats were literally Mario's hat! On the table is a wide array of food such as fried chicken, pizza, and fruit sandwiches. In the corner, he spies a cake box and he
rented is decorated with Super Mario everything from the balloons to the streamers to the party hats. The party hats were literally Mario's hat! On the table is a wide array of food such as fried chicken, pizza, and fruit sandwiches. In the corner, he spies a cake box and he
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bets (hopes) it's still Mario-themed.
Seokjin doesn't know why but he feels choked up. He, Namjoon, Taehyung, Jimin, and Hoseok have been doing this since they were high schoolers. Eventually with Naeun, Daeun, and Junseo, they continued to do this. He knows how this goes.
bets (hopes) it's still Mario-themed.
Seokjin doesn't know why but he feels choked up. He, Namjoon, Taehyung, Jimin, and Hoseok have been doing this since they were high schoolers. Eventually with Naeun, Daeun, and Junseo, they continued to do this. He knows how this goes.
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He's more than used to it. Maybe it's because Yoongi & Jungkook are with them now. Maybe it's because he's celebrating his 23rd birthday as opposed to the last time. Maybe, maybe he just feels the love from his brothers, from his friends, from Yoongi. Maybe he's just happy,
He's more than used to it. Maybe it's because Yoongi & Jungkook are with them now. Maybe it's because he's celebrating his 23rd birthday as opposed to the last time. Maybe, maybe he just feels the love from his brothers, from his friends, from Yoongi. Maybe he's just happy,
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genuinely happy.
He rubs at his eyes 'cause seriously why is he being such a crybaby? He looks at his friends and smiles, "Thank you, everyone."
They plow through the food and have an impromptu singing competition. It's Namjoon, Jimin, and Jungkook vs Hoseok and Taehyung vs
genuinely happy.
He rubs at his eyes 'cause seriously why is he being such a crybaby? He looks at his friends and smiles, "Thank you, everyone."
They plow through the food and have an impromptu singing competition. It's Namjoon, Jimin, and Jungkook vs Hoseok and Taehyung vs
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him and Yoongi. He and Yoongi end up winning and are exempted from cleaning duties. Soon it's time to give the gifts. Jimin goes first and gives him a big fluffy sweater. Taehyung is next who gives him a customized winter coat. Hoseok gives him a set of his favorite skincare
him and Yoongi. He and Yoongi end up winning and are exempted from cleaning duties. Soon it's time to give the gifts. Jimin goes first and gives him a big fluffy sweater. Taehyung is next who gives him a customized winter coat. Hoseok gives him a set of his favorite skincare
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products. Jungkook shyly gives him a portrait of him as Mario which the kid drew himself (he receives it with a scream of delight and a hug). Namjoon gives him a giftcard he can use to pay for games (he almost cries). Lastly for Yoongi's turn, the blonde steps away from him.
products. Jungkook shyly gives him a portrait of him as Mario which the kid drew himself (he receives it with a scream of delight and a hug). Namjoon gives him a giftcard he can use to pay for games (he almost cries). Lastly for Yoongi's turn, the blonde steps away from him.
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Yoongi fiddles with the karaoke machine and when he finishes, he's connected the speakers to his phone. He turns back to everyone but looks only at Seokjin.
"So, I uh wrote a song for you. That's it. That's my gift. I actually wrote it a couple of weeks back, a few days
Yoongi fiddles with the karaoke machine and when he finishes, he's connected the speakers to his phone. He turns back to everyone but looks only at Seokjin.
"So, I uh wrote a song for you. That's it. That's my gift. I actually wrote it a couple of weeks back, a few days
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after we--um--after Jimin's show--"
"Stop being so discreet. We all know you kissed under the rain," Taehyung comments, earning him an elbow to both of his sides, courtesy of Jimin and Namjoon.
"Well, yeah--that. It's after we got together, basically. I, uh, don't know what
after we--um--after Jimin's show--"
"Stop being so discreet. We all know you kissed under the rain," Taehyung comments, earning him an elbow to both of his sides, courtesy of Jimin and Namjoon.
"Well, yeah--that. It's after we got together, basically. I, uh, don't know what
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else to say 'cause the song basically does that for me. But I want you to know, hyung, that I love you and I don't think I'll ever stop loving you. Not now. Not ever. Not even for a thousand different lifetimes."
Seokjin clutches at his heart before playfully sending Yoongi
else to say 'cause the song basically does that for me. But I want you to know, hyung, that I love you and I don't think I'll ever stop loving you. Not now. Not ever. Not even for a thousand different lifetimes."
Seokjin clutches at his heart before playfully sending Yoongi
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a handkiss to which the younger catches and keeps in his pocket like it's nothing causing almost half the other people in attendance (Jimin & Hoseok) to coo and the rest to either shudder in disgust or not react at all (re: Namjoon). Yoongi presses the play button and the
a handkiss to which the younger catches and keeps in his pocket like it's nothing causing almost half the other people in attendance (Jimin & Hoseok) to coo and the rest to either shudder in disgust or not react at all (re: Namjoon). Yoongi presses the play button and the
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first note plays. Seokjin's eyes grow wide because it can't possibly be.
'From which stars have we fallen to meet each other here,
Two wayward souls lost in translation,
The farther apart we stay, the closer I want to be,
Being with you is more than enough for me.'
first note plays. Seokjin's eyes grow wide because it can't possibly be.
'From which stars have we fallen to meet each other here,
Two wayward souls lost in translation,
The farther apart we stay, the closer I want to be,
Being with you is more than enough for me.'
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This is their song. There's no mistaking it.
'Hold on to me, I'll keep you safe,
These galaxies are nothing compared to you,
'Cause you're the reason I breathe and wake to every sunsrise,
You're the reason I'm happier now. My one last hope, my paradise.'
Seokjin promised
This is their song. There's no mistaking it.
'Hold on to me, I'll keep you safe,
These galaxies are nothing compared to you,
'Cause you're the reason I breathe and wake to every sunsrise,
You're the reason I'm happier now. My one last hope, my paradise.'
Seokjin promised
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himself he wouldn't cry, not on his birthday he won't. But now that Yoongi's dropped something this big, like seriously what were the odds that he made the same exact song and everything? Is this fate playing with him or is Yoongi really meant to make their song? Does it
himself he wouldn't cry, not on his birthday he won't. But now that Yoongi's dropped something this big, like seriously what were the odds that he made the same exact song and everything? Is this fate playing with him or is Yoongi really meant to make their song? Does it
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mean that he and Yoongi are meant to be together from the very beginning? This song had been the old Yoongi's first 'I love you' and this song was the one that crushed his heart when Yoongi had left. But now, this song is a gift to him by the Yoongi he's with now and though
mean that he and Yoongi are meant to be together from the very beginning? This song had been the old Yoongi's first 'I love you' and this song was the one that crushed his heart when Yoongi had left. But now, this song is a gift to him by the Yoongi he's with now and though
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he knows the lyrics by heart, he listens to them again like he's hearing them for the first time. He understands the words as if it was Yoongi saying them to him in that moment when it's neither night or day. A time between just the two of them. And he cries silently but
he knows the lyrics by heart, he listens to them again like he's hearing them for the first time. He understands the words as if it was Yoongi saying them to him in that moment when it's neither night or day. A time between just the two of them. And he cries silently but
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he smiles his widest through the tears because he loves Yoongi. He loves Yoongi so much. He doesn't think he'll ever stop loving Yoongi because Yoongi makes him happy. Yoongi makes him feel loved. Yoongi chose him to love. And Yoongi loves him back just as much, if not more.
he smiles his widest through the tears because he loves Yoongi. He loves Yoongi so much. He doesn't think he'll ever stop loving Yoongi because Yoongi makes him happy. Yoongi makes him feel loved. Yoongi chose him to love. And Yoongi loves him back just as much, if not more.
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The song ends and Seokjin's rushing around the table to go to Yoongi. He grabs the younger by the front of his shirt and kisses him fully on the lips. He ignores the jeers and teasing of his friends, flipping them off for good measure. He feels Yoongi's arms wrap around his
The song ends and Seokjin's rushing around the table to go to Yoongi. He grabs the younger by the front of his shirt and kisses him fully on the lips. He ignores the jeers and teasing of his friends, flipping them off for good measure. He feels Yoongi's arms wrap around his
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waist as he brings them closer, deepening the kiss. They pull apart to breathe, pressing their foreheads together.
"I'm guessing you liked the song?" Yoongi asks him, beaming.
"I loved it. I love you. Thank you. Thank you so much."
The party continues and they sing more
waist as he brings them closer, deepening the kiss. They pull apart to breathe, pressing their foreheads together.
"I'm guessing you liked the song?" Yoongi asks him, beaming.
"I loved it. I love you. Thank you. Thank you so much."
The party continues and they sing more
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songs badly. Someone orders a couple of (non-alcoholic) drinks and snacks because they officially ran out of food. Seokjin was banging his head to Namjoon and Hoseok's rendition of a rock song when he notices Jimin and Yoongi off to the side, looking around for something.
songs badly. Someone orders a couple of (non-alcoholic) drinks and snacks because they officially ran out of food. Seokjin was banging his head to Namjoon and Hoseok's rendition of a rock song when he notices Jimin and Yoongi off to the side, looking around for something.
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He leaves Namjoon and Hoseok to their devices and approaches Jimin and Yoongi.
"What are we looking for?"
"Candles, hyung," Jimin answers him. "To put on your cake."
"They were literally there a while ago," Yoongi adds, scrunching his eyebrows.
"It's not in the box?" he
He leaves Namjoon and Hoseok to their devices and approaches Jimin and Yoongi.
"What are we looking for?"
"Candles, hyung," Jimin answers him. "To put on your cake."
"They were literally there a while ago," Yoongi adds, scrunching his eyebrows.
"It's not in the box?" he
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asks.
"Nope. We already checked."
Seokjin goes to check anyway (mostly because he wants to see if the cake is still Super Mario-themed) and he sees a cake shaped like a star (fuck yeah) but no sign of any candles.
"I'll just go out and buy new ones." He overhears Yoongi say
asks.
"Nope. We already checked."
Seokjin goes to check anyway (mostly because he wants to see if the cake is still Super Mario-themed) and he sees a cake shaped like a star (fuck yeah) but no sign of any candles.
"I'll just go out and buy new ones." He overhears Yoongi say
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as the younger puts his jacket on. "Wait, what? You don't have to go out. We can just cut the cake without the candles," Seokjin pouts.
"But how will you make your wish?" Yoongi walks towards him and gives him a peck on the corner of his lips. "I'll be back before you know
as the younger puts his jacket on. "Wait, what? You don't have to go out. We can just cut the cake without the candles," Seokjin pouts.
"But how will you make your wish?" Yoongi walks towards him and gives him a peck on the corner of his lips. "I'll be back before you know
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it."
"Okay. Just stay safe."
"I will. Don't miss me too much."
"Don't give me a reason to."
Yoongi waves goodbye before closing the door as he leaves.
"It's like you guys are married already," Jimin tells him.
"Even /you're/ joining the bandwagon?"
"I'm not teasing, hyung.
it."
"Okay. Just stay safe."
"I will. Don't miss me too much."
"Don't give me a reason to."
Yoongi waves goodbye before closing the door as he leaves.
"It's like you guys are married already," Jimin tells him.
"Even /you're/ joining the bandwagon?"
"I'm not teasing, hyung.
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It's a good thing. Feels like true love does exist."
Seokjin could only smile as he feels a blush coming.
As they wait for Yoongi, they eat through their second set of snacks and have another singing competition. But as the hands of the clock keep turning and Yoongi still
It's a good thing. Feels like true love does exist."
Seokjin could only smile as he feels a blush coming.
As they wait for Yoongi, they eat through their second set of snacks and have another singing competition. But as the hands of the clock keep turning and Yoongi still
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hasn't come back, Seokjin starts feeling nervous. He tries calling the younger but he isn't answering his phone.
"What's taking him so long? Isn't the mart just across the street?"
"Yeah. We passed by it on the way here. It's beside the tea place."
Seokjin grabs his coat
hasn't come back, Seokjin starts feeling nervous. He tries calling the younger but he isn't answering his phone.
"What's taking him so long? Isn't the mart just across the street?"
"Yeah. We passed by it on the way here. It's beside the tea place."
Seokjin grabs his coat
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and Taehyung asks him, "What are you doing, hyung?"
"I'm going after him."
"But he could be on his way already."
"Then I'll meet him halfway. Just stay here and have fun. I'll text you when we're coming back."
"Don't leave us to go off somewhere on your own," Taehyung calls
and Taehyung asks him, "What are you doing, hyung?"
"I'm going after him."
"But he could be on his way already."
"Then I'll meet him halfway. Just stay here and have fun. I'll text you when we're coming back."
"Don't leave us to go off somewhere on your own," Taehyung calls
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after him.
He walks as fast as he can out the building, telling himself not to worry too much. The cold air hits his face as soon as he steps outside and he wraps his coat tighter around him. He weaves around the other pedestrians still out at this time of the night and
after him.
He walks as fast as he can out the building, telling himself not to worry too much. The cold air hits his face as soon as he steps outside and he wraps his coat tighter around him. He weaves around the other pedestrians still out at this time of the night and
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walks over to the crosswalk. He waits for the sign to turn green when he hears someone call his name from across the street. He turns and sees Yoongi waving at him with a big smile on his face, a paper bag which he assumes holds the candles under his arm. The worry that
walks over to the crosswalk. He waits for the sign to turn green when he hears someone call his name from across the street. He turns and sees Yoongi waving at him with a big smile on his face, a paper bag which he assumes holds the candles under his arm. The worry that
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lodged itself in his heart dissipates and he waves back, mist forming from the sigh that he releases. The street light turns green and he watches as Yoongi runs ahead of the other pedestrians to reach him.
It happens in a split second, the sound of tires screeching, people
lodged itself in his heart dissipates and he waves back, mist forming from the sigh that he releases. The street light turns green and he watches as Yoongi runs ahead of the other pedestrians to reach him.
It happens in a split second, the sound of tires screeching, people
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standing back as a body drops hard onto the pavement. Seokjin's body turns cold and he's frozen to the spot. His eyes focus on the body on the ground, lifeless and still. People start to crowd and he forces his legs to move. The scream that escapes his lips is raw.
"YOONGI!"
standing back as a body drops hard onto the pavement. Seokjin's body turns cold and he's frozen to the spot. His eyes focus on the body on the ground, lifeless and still. People start to crowd and he forces his legs to move. The scream that escapes his lips is raw.
"YOONGI!"
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Seokjin drops to his knees as he takes in the sight of Yoongi on the ground. The paper bag he was holding lays crumpled beside him, its contents having spilled onto the road. A bright red taints Yoongi's blonde hair, flowing to his cheeks and drenching his jacket collar.
Seokjin drops to his knees as he takes in the sight of Yoongi on the ground. The paper bag he was holding lays crumpled beside him, its contents having spilled onto the road. A bright red taints Yoongi's blonde hair, flowing to his cheeks and drenching his jacket collar.
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Seokjin couldn't keep the sob that erupts from his lips. He grabs Yoongi by the shoulder and gently jostles him.
"Wake up, Yoongi," he whispers. "I'm here. Hyungie's here."
He places his hands on Yoongi's face, ignoring the warm, slippery liquid that coats his fingers.
Seokjin couldn't keep the sob that erupts from his lips. He grabs Yoongi by the shoulder and gently jostles him.
"Wake up, Yoongi," he whispers. "I'm here. Hyungie's here."
He places his hands on Yoongi's face, ignoring the warm, slippery liquid that coats his fingers.
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"Yoongi, wake up. Please? Yoongi. I'm here. Hyung is here. Just open your eyes, Yoongi. Please. I'm begging you. Please!"
His cries turn into wails and his tears turn into waterfalls. He brushes Yoongi's hair out of his eyes and pats his cheek to get him to react.
"Yoongi,
"Yoongi, wake up. Please? Yoongi. I'm here. Hyung is here. Just open your eyes, Yoongi. Please. I'm begging you. Please!"
His cries turn into wails and his tears turn into waterfalls. He brushes Yoongi's hair out of his eyes and pats his cheek to get him to react.
"Yoongi,
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"Yoongi," he tries again. This isn't funny, Yoongi. You promised me! You promised!"
Seokjin barely registers a clamor of footsteps behind him.
"Jin-hyung!"
"Oh my god."
"NOOO, YOONGI-HYUNG!"
"Hoseok, hold Jungkook back. Taehyung call 119."
Seokjin feels a hand on his
"Yoongi," he tries again. This isn't funny, Yoongi. You promised me! You promised!"
Seokjin barely registers a clamor of footsteps behind him.
"Jin-hyung!"
"Oh my god."
"NOOO, YOONGI-HYUNG!"
"Hoseok, hold Jungkook back. Taehyung call 119."
Seokjin feels a hand on his
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shoulder pull him back but he pushes it away, holding onto Yoongi, not willing to let go.
"NO, YOONGI, NO! PLEASE! PLEASE WAKE UP! PLEASE, YOONGI, I BEG YOU. JUST OPEN YOUR EYES!"
But Yoongi doesn't. He stays laying on the ground, eyes closed and his body slowly losing
shoulder pull him back but he pushes it away, holding onto Yoongi, not willing to let go.
"NO, YOONGI, NO! PLEASE! PLEASE WAKE UP! PLEASE, YOONGI, I BEG YOU. JUST OPEN YOUR EYES!"
But Yoongi doesn't. He stays laying on the ground, eyes closed and his body slowly losing
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warmth.
Seokjin doesn't understand. He doesn't understand anything at all. But what he does know is that he can't lose Yoongi. Not again.
"WAKE UP, YOONGI! YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME, NOT AGAIN. NOT LIKE THIS. YOU PROMISED ME,
warmth.
Seokjin doesn't understand. He doesn't understand anything at all. But what he does know is that he can't lose Yoongi. Not again.
"WAKE UP, YOONGI! YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME, NOT AGAIN. NOT LIKE THIS. YOU PROMISED ME,
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YOONGI. YOU PROMISED ME!"
Seokjin feels himself pulled back again but this time it's stronger. He feels his grip on Yoongi loosen so he thrashes about to try & stop whoever it is taking him away from Yoongi.
"NO, LET GET OF ME! YOONGI! NO, GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME! HE NEEDS ME!
YOONGI. YOU PROMISED ME!"
Seokjin feels himself pulled back again but this time it's stronger. He feels his grip on Yoongi loosen so he thrashes about to try & stop whoever it is taking him away from Yoongi.
"NO, LET GET OF ME! YOONGI! NO, GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME! HE NEEDS ME!
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YOONGI! WAKE UP! PLEASE!"
Seokjin hears sirens sounding in the distance as he is being dragged further away from Yoongi.
In a last effort to escape, Seokjin hits his captor and breaks free when their grip loosened. He is able to reach Yoongi's side when he feels a hand grab
YOONGI! WAKE UP! PLEASE!"
Seokjin hears sirens sounding in the distance as he is being dragged further away from Yoongi.
In a last effort to escape, Seokjin hits his captor and breaks free when their grip loosened. He is able to reach Yoongi's side when he feels a hand grab
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him again. He tries to scramble away and stay close to Yoongi when in the corner of his eye, he catches something red and sparkly, stark against the dark asphalt. What? There's literally no way. The hand then wraps itself around Seokjin's waist and starts pulling him away
him again. He tries to scramble away and stay close to Yoongi when in the corner of his eye, he catches something red and sparkly, stark against the dark asphalt. What? There's literally no way. The hand then wraps itself around Seokjin's waist and starts pulling him away
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again. Knowing the hand will not let him get him away anymore, he reaches for the items he saw instead. Clutching his new possession like a lifeline, he could only watch as Yoongi grows farther and farther away from him.
"Now please just stay here. The ambulance is on its
again. Knowing the hand will not let him get him away anymore, he reaches for the items he saw instead. Clutching his new possession like a lifeline, he could only watch as Yoongi grows farther and farther away from him.
"Now please just stay here. The ambulance is on its
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way," someone tells him.
But he ignores them, his eyes never leaving Yoongi.
His heart feels like it got stabbed all over again but this time he doesn't know if he'll recover. It's one thing to lose someone because they walked away from you. It's an entirely different thing
way," someone tells him.
But he ignores them, his eyes never leaving Yoongi.
His heart feels like it got stabbed all over again but this time he doesn't know if he'll recover. It's one thing to lose someone because they walked away from you. It's an entirely different thing
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when you get them back only to lose them again because their time in this world is up. He doesn't want to believe it. After all that's happened in the last 6 months, in the last 32 and a half years, meeting Yoongi all over again, falling in love with Yoongi all over again,
when you get them back only to lose them again because their time in this world is up. He doesn't want to believe it. After all that's happened in the last 6 months, in the last 32 and a half years, meeting Yoongi all over again, falling in love with Yoongi all over again,
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letting himself love Yoongi as he always has, it can't just end with Yoongi dying. He can't just lose this when he's barely even had it.
The ambulance arrives and the onlookers start to scatter. Seokjin stays where he is, unwilling to let Yoongi out of his sight. Paramedics
letting himself love Yoongi as he always has, it can't just end with Yoongi dying. He can't just lose this when he's barely even had it.
The ambulance arrives and the onlookers start to scatter. Seokjin stays where he is, unwilling to let Yoongi out of his sight. Paramedics
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get off the ambulance and start checking on Yoongi. They assess his vital signs and Seokjin watches as their faces gradually turn grim. They start to move quickly and one of the medics dispatch a message using a radio. That's when Seokjin remembers the items he got from
get off the ambulance and start checking on Yoongi. They assess his vital signs and Seokjin watches as their faces gradually turn grim. They start to move quickly and one of the medics dispatch a message using a radio. That's when Seokjin remembers the items he got from
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beside Yoongi, the very things that started it all: the candles. He hurriedly opens their plastic packaging before taking one out and holding it between his fingers. He seriously can't believe his eyes. These were the very same candles that were on his birthday cake, still
beside Yoongi, the very things that started it all: the candles. He hurriedly opens their plastic packaging before taking one out and holding it between his fingers. He seriously can't believe his eyes. These were the very same candles that were on his birthday cake, still
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red and still sparkly. Other than the fact that they were very pretty, they seem just like any other birthday candle. But Seokjin knows they're more than that because he made a wish and he went back in time. He's not sure if the candles themselves actually do grant wishes
red and still sparkly. Other than the fact that they were very pretty, they seem just like any other birthday candle. But Seokjin knows they're more than that because he made a wish and he went back in time. He's not sure if the candles themselves actually do grant wishes
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or not but he's desperate. He is willing to risk anything just to stop what's happening now from happening. He knows it's crazy betting his chances on some birthday candles and wishes but the same exact candles appearing again in his life right now, of all times, it must
or not but he's desperate. He is willing to risk anything just to stop what's happening now from happening. He knows it's crazy betting his chances on some birthday candles and wishes but the same exact candles appearing again in his life right now, of all times, it must
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hold some meaning, right? If he made a wish again, he can use it so he doesn't lose Yoongi, right? He doesn't want to lose Yoongi anymore, not like this, not when he's finally found his happiness, not when he finally understands what it means to be genuinely happy.
Not when
hold some meaning, right? If he made a wish again, he can use it so he doesn't lose Yoongi, right? He doesn't want to lose Yoongi anymore, not like this, not when he's finally found his happiness, not when he finally understands what it means to be genuinely happy.
Not when
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he and Yoongi are finally meant to be.
The medics bring out a stretcher just as Seokjin takes the match that came with the candles. He lights the match just as they put Yoongi on the stretcher and bring him inside the ambulance. He puts the flame on the wick of the candle
he and Yoongi are finally meant to be.
The medics bring out a stretcher just as Seokjin takes the match that came with the candles. He lights the match just as they put Yoongi on the stretcher and bring him inside the ambulance. He puts the flame on the wick of the candle
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just as the medics enter the ambulance and get ready to leave. The last thing Seokjin sees before he closes his eyes is Yoongi just as the ambulance door closes. He takes a deep breath, tears falling from his eyes as he makes his wish: "Please don't take this away from me.
just as the medics enter the ambulance and get ready to leave. The last thing Seokjin sees before he closes his eyes is Yoongi just as the ambulance door closes. He takes a deep breath, tears falling from his eyes as he makes his wish: "Please don't take this away from me.
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Please don't take him away from me."
He blows on the candle and feels the flame die out. The smell of smoke reaches his nose and a hand touches his shoulder lightly.
"Hyung, are you okay?"
Wait, what?
He opens his eyes and sees a cake that says "Happy 55th Birthday!"
Please don't take him away from me."
He blows on the candle and feels the flame die out. The smell of smoke reaches his nose and a hand touches his shoulder lightly.
"Hyung, are you okay?"
Wait, what?
He opens his eyes and sees a cake that says "Happy 55th Birthday!"
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He looks in front of him and sees the familiar faces of Namjoon, Taehyung, and Hoseok but older. He also sees Naeun, Daeun, and Junseo.
"Hyung?"
He turns to the hand and sees Jimin, older too and his eyebrows knit in worry.
"Are you okay?"
That's when he breaks down.
He looks in front of him and sees the familiar faces of Namjoon, Taehyung, and Hoseok but older. He also sees Naeun, Daeun, and Junseo.
"Hyung?"
He turns to the hand and sees Jimin, older too and his eyebrows knit in worry.
"Are you okay?"
That's when he breaks down.
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Multiple questions pop into his head in rapid succession. What is he doing here? Where is Yoongi? Why is everyone old again? Is he old again? Why is he old again? His nephew and nieces are here, did he go back to his original lifetime? If so, then does that mean everything
Multiple questions pop into his head in rapid succession. What is he doing here? Where is Yoongi? Why is everyone old again? Is he old again? Why is he old again? His nephew and nieces are here, did he go back to his original lifetime? If so, then does that mean everything
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that happened /didn't/ happen? But what about his wish? Or is this still the new timeline but he just skipped a whole 32 years? What happened to Yoongi? What about Jungkook? Did Yoongi survive? Is Yoongi okay? Is Yoongi alive?
Namjoon can only watch as his brother falls
that happened /didn't/ happen? But what about his wish? Or is this still the new timeline but he just skipped a whole 32 years? What happened to Yoongi? What about Jungkook? Did Yoongi survive? Is Yoongi okay? Is Yoongi alive?
Namjoon can only watch as his brother falls
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apart in front of them, a little shell-shocked because Seokjin has never allowed himself to show any kind of vulnerability in front of other people, much less cry like he's just lost a piece of himself. It's heartbreaking to look at because Seokjin was just sitting there
apart in front of them, a little shell-shocked because Seokjin has never allowed himself to show any kind of vulnerability in front of other people, much less cry like he's just lost a piece of himself. It's heartbreaking to look at because Seokjin was just sitting there
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having blown on the candles but he didn't open his eyes for a while. They all looked at each other confused as to why Seokjin isn't doing anything.
"Did he fall asleep?" Daeun asked prompting Jimin to approach him and ask him if he's okay. Seokjin's opened his but he looked
having blown on the candles but he didn't open his eyes for a while. They all looked at each other confused as to why Seokjin isn't doing anything.
"Did he fall asleep?" Daeun asked prompting Jimin to approach him and ask him if he's okay. Seokjin's opened his but he looked
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surprised and confused to see all of them. Jimin talked to him again and that's when Namjoon saw it, the look of utter heartache on his brother's face before his eyes turned glossy and the tears fell from his eyes one at a time. Seokjin then crumbles in on himself and sobs.
surprised and confused to see all of them. Jimin talked to him again and that's when Namjoon saw it, the look of utter heartache on his brother's face before his eyes turned glossy and the tears fell from his eyes one at a time. Seokjin then crumbles in on himself and sobs.
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Namjoon doesn't know what to do so he turns towards the others but finds that they're at a loss like he is. He locks eyes with Jimin whose face is tinged with worry for the eldest and he urges him to ask what's wrong.
"Hyung--"
"Is Min Yoongi still Min Yoongi?" Seokjin asks
Namjoon doesn't know what to do so he turns towards the others but finds that they're at a loss like he is. He locks eyes with Jimin whose face is tinged with worry for the eldest and he urges him to ask what's wrong.
"Hyung--"
"Is Min Yoongi still Min Yoongi?" Seokjin asks
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quietly and Namjoon's not sure if he heard that right.
"What did you say, hyung?" he asks.
"Is Min Yoongi still Min Yoongi?" Seokjin repeats with more urgency, looking up at them in desperation, tears spilling from his eyes.
"I-I don't--"
"Is Min Yoongi still the same?"
quietly and Namjoon's not sure if he heard that right.
"What did you say, hyung?" he asks.
"Is Min Yoongi still Min Yoongi?" Seokjin repeats with more urgency, looking up at them in desperation, tears spilling from his eyes.
"I-I don't--"
"Is Min Yoongi still the same?"
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Seokjin pleads, like this question will make or break him. "Did we meet each other at the rap show? Were we together for six months? Did he break up with me to go to Hong Kong on this day 32 years ago? Did all of those things happen? Is Min Yoongi still Min Yoongi?"
"Yes,
Seokjin pleads, like this question will make or break him. "Did we meet each other at the rap show? Were we together for six months? Did he break up with me to go to Hong Kong on this day 32 years ago? Did all of those things happen? Is Min Yoongi still Min Yoongi?"
"Yes,
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hyung," It's Taehyung who answers. "All those things happened and Min Yoongi is still Min Yoongi."
Seokjin's eyes soften and he lets out a defeated breath before smiling sadly to himself, "Oh. I see."
Silence falls over them and all eyes are on Seokjin as he closes his eyes
hyung," It's Taehyung who answers. "All those things happened and Min Yoongi is still Min Yoongi."
Seokjin's eyes soften and he lets out a defeated breath before smiling sadly to himself, "Oh. I see."
Silence falls over them and all eyes are on Seokjin as he closes his eyes
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teetering back and forth before falling forward onto the table.
"HYUNG!" Jimin shouts, reaching for Seokjin who isn't moving.
Namjoon rushes to them and tries to shake Seokjin awake.
"Hyung, wake up!" When Seokjin doesn't come to, he turns to the others. "Someone call 119."
teetering back and forth before falling forward onto the table.
"HYUNG!" Jimin shouts, reaching for Seokjin who isn't moving.
Namjoon rushes to them and tries to shake Seokjin awake.
"Hyung, wake up!" When Seokjin doesn't come to, he turns to the others. "Someone call 119."
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Min Yoongi is not a man without regrets. In fact, throughout his early adult life, it felt like he was just making one poorly made decision after another. Signing to a label without reading the subtext, moving to Hong Kong and not securing his degree, overworking himself &
Min Yoongi is not a man without regrets. In fact, throughout his early adult life, it felt like he was just making one poorly made decision after another. Signing to a label without reading the subtext, moving to Hong Kong and not securing his degree, overworking himself &
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inadvertently pushing people away. But of all the things he's done, what has to be his biggest regret of all is breaking Kim Seokjin's heart.
He knew he didn't have to. Even if the contract stated he shouldn't have any contact with anyone outside his immediate family, he
inadvertently pushing people away. But of all the things he's done, what has to be his biggest regret of all is breaking Kim Seokjin's heart.
He knew he didn't have to. Even if the contract stated he shouldn't have any contact with anyone outside his immediate family, he
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could have just been discreet. He could have just explained to Seokjin his situation and they could have had a long distance relationship. He knew they could have because Seokjin used to look at him like he was made of stars, a constellation in his own right. Seokjin had
could have just been discreet. He could have just explained to Seokjin his situation and they could have had a long distance relationship. He knew they could have because Seokjin used to look at him like he was made of stars, a constellation in his own right. Seokjin had
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loved him very much and had loved him very true. Yoongi understood that and he felt it. But still he threw it all away. He threw it all away because he thought he had to choose: his future or his present, his career or Seokjin.
Seokjin to Yoongi was the sun peeking through
loved him very much and had loved him very true. Yoongi understood that and he felt it. But still he threw it all away. He threw it all away because he thought he had to choose: his future or his present, his career or Seokjin.
Seokjin to Yoongi was the sun peeking through
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the clouds on a rainy day. He was the cup of coffee warming his hands on a cold night. He was an Adenium blooming in the desert and the sea breeze cooling his skin. He was the moon lighting up the entire night sky and the gentle wave lapping against his feet in the sand. He
the clouds on a rainy day. He was the cup of coffee warming his hands on a cold night. He was an Adenium blooming in the desert and the sea breeze cooling his skin. He was the moon lighting up the entire night sky and the gentle wave lapping against his feet in the sand. He
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was the shooting star he made a wish on and the dreams he had on a good night's sleep. He was the best part in a sad song, the part that gives hope, the part that he never gets tired of and repeats over and over again. Seokjin was his happiness, a home he could return to, a
was the shooting star he made a wish on and the dreams he had on a good night's sleep. He was the best part in a sad song, the part that gives hope, the part that he never gets tired of and repeats over and over again. Seokjin was his happiness, a home he could return to, a
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place that would take him in no matter how far he left or how long he was gone. He loves Seokjin. It took him a while to say it but he felt it since he first laid eyes on him.
But it hadn't been enough. Loving Seokjin hadn't been enough for him to stay. His mind convinced
place that would take him in no matter how far he left or how long he was gone. He loves Seokjin. It took him a while to say it but he felt it since he first laid eyes on him.
But it hadn't been enough. Loving Seokjin hadn't been enough for him to stay. His mind convinced
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him that they weren't together long enough. He believed that six months together can't be love. He can't have loved Seokjin in that short amount of time. It wasn't enough. What he felt wasn't enough. So he cut the flower that bloomed between them and Seokjin became the dead
him that they weren't together long enough. He believed that six months together can't be love. He can't have loved Seokjin in that short amount of time. It wasn't enough. What he felt wasn't enough. So he cut the flower that bloomed between them and Seokjin became the dead
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leaves in autumn, falling away as Yoongi left when winter came, bringing with him the end to their story. But he never forgot him. There wasn't a day in the last 32 years that Seokjin ever left his mind. He has never loved someone as much as he loved--still loves Seokjin. He
leaves in autumn, falling away as Yoongi left when winter came, bringing with him the end to their story. But he never forgot him. There wasn't a day in the last 32 years that Seokjin ever left his mind. He has never loved someone as much as he loved--still loves Seokjin. He
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thinks about what could have been if he hadn't ended it. What life he'd have had with Seokjin still in it. Would they have stayed together until now? Would they have moved in together, get married and start a family? Would they continue to feel what they felt in those six
thinks about what could have been if he hadn't ended it. What life he'd have had with Seokjin still in it. Would they have stayed together until now? Would they have moved in together, get married and start a family? Would they continue to feel what they felt in those six
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months?
Yoongi thinks they could. He'd guarantee it because he would try, he would try his hardest to love Seokjin and to make Seokjin feel loved. If he could go back in time and have a do-over, he wouldn't make the same naive mistakes. He'd hold onto Seokjin and never let
months?
Yoongi thinks they could. He'd guarantee it because he would try, he would try his hardest to love Seokjin and to make Seokjin feel loved. If he could go back in time and have a do-over, he wouldn't make the same naive mistakes. He'd hold onto Seokjin and never let
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go, not even if it cost him his life. Unfortunately for him, all of that is just wishful thinking. What's done is done and what's past is past. Though he gained fame and fortune, he lost the one person who made him feel whole. No amount of songs he's written about and for
go, not even if it cost him his life. Unfortunately for him, all of that is just wishful thinking. What's done is done and what's past is past. Though he gained fame and fortune, he lost the one person who made him feel whole. No amount of songs he's written about and for
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Seokjin could act as a proper apology. No amount of awards and trophies could replace the regret and the emptiness that's made a home in his heart. No amount of wishing could make him go back and change what he did. He has nobody else to blame but himself. Only himself.
Seokjin could act as a proper apology. No amount of awards and trophies could replace the regret and the emptiness that's made a home in his heart. No amount of wishing could make him go back and change what he did. He has nobody else to blame but himself. Only himself.
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The elevator doors are about to close when Yoongi hears someone frantically yell for them to be kept open. He holds it until Hoseok safely passes through.
"Oh Yoongi-hyung! Thanks for that," the younger pants, smiling gratefully at him.
"No problem. What's the hurry though?
The elevator doors are about to close when Yoongi hears someone frantically yell for them to be kept open. He holds it until Hoseok safely passes through.
"Oh Yoongi-hyung! Thanks for that," the younger pants, smiling gratefully at him.
"No problem. What's the hurry though?
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Important lunch date?"
"Ah no," Hoseok shakes his head, his tone becoming hesitant. "Just some family matters."
"Oh... Did something happen?"
Hoseok pauses as if mulling something over in his head before turning back to Yoongi.
"Yeah um, Seokjin-hyung collapsed last night."
Important lunch date?"
"Ah no," Hoseok shakes his head, his tone becoming hesitant. "Just some family matters."
"Oh... Did something happen?"
Hoseok pauses as if mulling something over in his head before turning back to Yoongi.
"Yeah um, Seokjin-hyung collapsed last night."
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Yoongi's breath gets stuck in his throat as his brain processes what Hoseok just said.
"Seokjin-hyung...collapsed...?"
Hoseok nods forlornly, running a hand through his hair.
"Yeah but I guess faint is more accurate? Regardless, we all aren't getting any younger anymore so
Yoongi's breath gets stuck in his throat as his brain processes what Hoseok just said.
"Seokjin-hyung...collapsed...?"
Hoseok nods forlornly, running a hand through his hair.
"Yeah but I guess faint is more accurate? Regardless, we all aren't getting any younger anymore so
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it's alarming considering it happened out of nowhere."
Yoongi stares at his reflection on the elevator walls, unsure of what to do cause the thought of Seokjin suddenly fainting, at their age it could mean--
"/Why/--" he steadies his voice. "Why did he faint?"
Hoseok looks
it's alarming considering it happened out of nowhere."
Yoongi stares at his reflection on the elevator walls, unsure of what to do cause the thought of Seokjin suddenly fainting, at their age it could mean--
"/Why/--" he steadies his voice. "Why did he faint?"
Hoseok looks
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at him, probably noticing how his stature became rigid but makes no move to point it out.
"We don't know yet. Hyung's quite healthy and he's never fainted before. The doctor ran a few tests on him and we're just waiting for the results."
"I see. How is he doing now?"
"He
at him, probably noticing how his stature became rigid but makes no move to point it out.
"We don't know yet. Hyung's quite healthy and he's never fainted before. The doctor ran a few tests on him and we're just waiting for the results."
"I see. How is he doing now?"
"He
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woke up this morning, according to my niece, thankfully. But he still looked a little pale so he's going to stay in the hospital for the time being. That's where I'm going right now."
"Ah." Yoongi nods absentmindedly, worry continuing to envelop his heart.
The elevator comes
woke up this morning, according to my niece, thankfully. But he still looked a little pale so he's going to stay in the hospital for the time being. That's where I'm going right now."
"Ah." Yoongi nods absentmindedly, worry continuing to envelop his heart.
The elevator comes
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to a stop and opens with a ding. Hoseok starts to leave when he notices Yoongi standing still.
"You're not getting off, hyung?"
"What? Oh--um yeah. I forgot something in the studio."
"Oh okay. I'll go ahead then."
"Yeah. See you."
Hoseok walks away without looking back. The
to a stop and opens with a ding. Hoseok starts to leave when he notices Yoongi standing still.
"You're not getting off, hyung?"
"What? Oh--um yeah. I forgot something in the studio."
"Oh okay. I'll go ahead then."
"Yeah. See you."
Hoseok walks away without looking back. The
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elevator doors close behind him and it's just Yoongi by himself again.
He presses the button to his studio's floor without thinking about it, the only thing on his mind is Seokjin and how he could have--no. Don't think like that, Yoongi. Hoseok said he's fine so he's fine.
elevator doors close behind him and it's just Yoongi by himself again.
He presses the button to his studio's floor without thinking about it, the only thing on his mind is Seokjin and how he could have--no. Don't think like that, Yoongi. Hoseok said he's fine so he's fine.
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He woke up this morning, albeit still a little pale, but he woke up & that's what matters.
Why is he even getting worked up about this? It's not like he has any right to care anymore. He threw it all away remember? He's not a part of Seokjin's life. He hasn't been a part of
He woke up this morning, albeit still a little pale, but he woke up & that's what matters.
Why is he even getting worked up about this? It's not like he has any right to care anymore. He threw it all away remember? He's not a part of Seokjin's life. He hasn't been a part of
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Seokjin's life for the past 32 years. Why does he care so much? Why is he so scared of losing him now when he /chose/ to let him go all those years ago in the first place?
He gets off the elevator in a daze, his feet taking him to his destination. He inputs his password
Seokjin's life for the past 32 years. Why does he care so much? Why is he so scared of losing him now when he /chose/ to let him go all those years ago in the first place?
He gets off the elevator in a daze, his feet taking him to his destination. He inputs his password
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like clockwork and lets himself into the studio. Jungkook, who was hunched over something on the table, looks up at him confused.
"You're back already, hyung? Where's the food?"
Yoongi heaves a disappointed sigh, rubbing a hand over his face.
"I'm such an idiot, Gguk."
like clockwork and lets himself into the studio. Jungkook, who was hunched over something on the table, looks up at him confused.
"You're back already, hyung? Where's the food?"
Yoongi heaves a disappointed sigh, rubbing a hand over his face.
"I'm such an idiot, Gguk."
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Jungkook blinks at him. "Well, we already know /that/ but care to expound?"
Yoongi wants to glare at his cousin for the jab but it's not like Jungkook knows what happened. He walks over and slumps on the couch, closing his eyes.
"Kim Seokjin is in the hospital right now
Jungkook blinks at him. "Well, we already know /that/ but care to expound?"
Yoongi wants to glare at his cousin for the jab but it's not like Jungkook knows what happened. He walks over and slumps on the couch, closing his eyes.
"Kim Seokjin is in the hospital right now
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because he collapsed last night."
Jungkook's eyes widen in surprise, a tinge of guilt crossing his features.
"Oh shit. I'm sorry, hyung. But wait, how do you know this?"
"Hoseok told me in the elevator awhile ago." Yoongi puts his head in his hands. "I don't know what to do,
because he collapsed last night."
Jungkook's eyes widen in surprise, a tinge of guilt crossing his features.
"Oh shit. I'm sorry, hyung. But wait, how do you know this?"
"Hoseok told me in the elevator awhile ago." Yoongi puts his head in his hands. "I don't know what to do,
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Gguk. I know I fucked up big time but I can't stop caring about him. When Hoseok was about to leave, I wanted to go too. I wanted to see him. I wanted to see for myself that he's actually alright. After 32 years, it had to take a life and death situation for me to get the
Gguk. I know I fucked up big time but I can't stop caring about him. When Hoseok was about to leave, I wanted to go too. I wanted to see him. I wanted to see for myself that he's actually alright. After 32 years, it had to take a life and death situation for me to get the
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courage to want to see him again. It's pathetic."
Jungkook doesn't say anything for a while and it's not like Yoongi is expecting him to. The younger's been his sounding board since forever and all Yoongi needs really is for someone to listen.
"Hyung. I know you think you
courage to want to see him again. It's pathetic."
Jungkook doesn't say anything for a while and it's not like Yoongi is expecting him to. The younger's been his sounding board since forever and all Yoongi needs really is for someone to listen.
"Hyung. I know you think you
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don't deserve to feel what you still feel for Kim Seokjin-ssi but know that it's not beyond you to want to care about him, to want to see him."
He sighs. "You know, Hoseok's a really good friend and he tells me all about his family and Seokjin-hyung when he doesn't have to.
don't deserve to feel what you still feel for Kim Seokjin-ssi but know that it's not beyond you to want to care about him, to want to see him."
He sighs. "You know, Hoseok's a really good friend and he tells me all about his family and Seokjin-hyung when he doesn't have to.
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I honestly don't know why he even agreed to work here in the first place when it almost drove his relationship with his brother-in-law apart. Seokjin-hyung hates me. He hates me so much because I was more than a jerk. I was selfish and only thought about myself. Did you know
I honestly don't know why he even agreed to work here in the first place when it almost drove his relationship with his brother-in-law apart. Seokjin-hyung hates me. He hates me so much because I was more than a jerk. I was selfish and only thought about myself. Did you know
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I left on his birthday? It completely slipped my mind because I was too caught up in my own delusions and I thought it would've been easier if I left him on the day I left Korea. I didn't want to have to face him because if I did, I knew I'd cave. He meant so much to me and
I left on his birthday? It completely slipped my mind because I was too caught up in my own delusions and I thought it would've been easier if I left him on the day I left Korea. I didn't want to have to face him because if I did, I knew I'd cave. He meant so much to me and
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I meant even more to him but what did I do? I broke it all to pieces. I broke his trust. I broke his love. I broke him. If I had been in his place, I'd despise the hell out of me too."
"But you still love him, don't you?"
"..."
"Regardless of your mistakes, hyung, you still
I meant even more to him but what did I do? I broke it all to pieces. I broke his trust. I broke his love. I broke him. If I had been in his place, I'd despise the hell out of me too."
"But you still love him, don't you?"
"..."
"Regardless of your mistakes, hyung, you still
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think about him. You still care about him. You still love him, don't you?"
Yoongi takes his hands away from his face and just stares at them. A memory filters through his eyes of an early morning in between the sheets.
His hands were intertwined with another's as he sang a
think about him. You still care about him. You still love him, don't you?"
Yoongi takes his hands away from his face and just stares at them. A memory filters through his eyes of an early morning in between the sheets.
His hands were intertwined with another's as he sang a
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song softly like a lullaby. He was never particularly the best at singing but this time he wanted to because he had something he needed to get off his chest, something important he wanted to say. After the song, he pressed kisses onto the person's neck before hooking his
song softly like a lullaby. He was never particularly the best at singing but this time he wanted to because he had something he needed to get off his chest, something important he wanted to say. After the song, he pressed kisses onto the person's neck before hooking his
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chin on their shoulder.
"What do you think, hyung?" he asked, butterflies squirming in his tummy.
"Hmm." The person pursed their lips. "Your singing could use a bit of work."
"Hey! I took it seriously this time." He pouted. "And you said you wouldn't comment on that."
"Did
chin on their shoulder.
"What do you think, hyung?" he asked, butterflies squirming in his tummy.
"Hmm." The person pursed their lips. "Your singing could use a bit of work."
"Hey! I took it seriously this time." He pouted. "And you said you wouldn't comment on that."
"Did
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I?" the person asked, feigning innocence.
"Hyuuung," he whined.
"Oh, Yoongi. You know I'm just teasing." The person turned around to face him before pressing a kiss to his forehead then to his nose then to his lips. The person then smiled at him in a way that made his heart
I?" the person asked, feigning innocence.
"Hyuuung," he whined.
"Oh, Yoongi. You know I'm just teasing." The person turned around to face him before pressing a kiss to his forehead then to his nose then to his lips. The person then smiled at him in a way that made his heart
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skip a beat. "I love it, by the way, if you didn't already know."
The words escape Yoongi's lips naturally: "I love you too, hyung, if you didn't already know."
Back in the present, he takes his eyes off his hands.
"Yes," he tells Jungkook. "I still do. I still love him."
skip a beat. "I love it, by the way, if you didn't already know."
The words escape Yoongi's lips naturally: "I love you too, hyung, if you didn't already know."
Back in the present, he takes his eyes off his hands.
"Yes," he tells Jungkook. "I still do. I still love him."
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"Then that should be enough. You regret what you did. You've been regretting it since you ended that phone call. You made a very stupid decision but you learned from it. You shouldn't stop yourself from loving him when you clearly still do. It's not wrong, hyung. Loving him
"Then that should be enough. You regret what you did. You've been regretting it since you ended that phone call. You made a very stupid decision but you learned from it. You shouldn't stop yourself from loving him when you clearly still do. It's not wrong, hyung. Loving him
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isn't wrong."
Yoongi shakes his head. "But I hurt him. I loved him all the same back then but I still ran away."
Jungkook releases a sigh of exasperation. "Then don't run away now! You keep thinking that you can't be worthy of loving him but you're only pushing him further
isn't wrong."
Yoongi shakes his head. "But I hurt him. I loved him all the same back then but I still ran away."
Jungkook releases a sigh of exasperation. "Then don't run away now! You keep thinking that you can't be worthy of loving him but you're only pushing him further
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away when all you've ever needed to do was keep him close." Jungkook crosses his arms before giving him a pointed look. "Look, hyung. You already lost him once. What will you do if you lose him forever? You've had 32 /years/ to ask for a second chance--and I'm not saying you
away when all you've ever needed to do was keep him close." Jungkook crosses his arms before giving him a pointed look. "Look, hyung. You already lost him once. What will you do if you lose him forever? You've had 32 /years/ to ask for a second chance--and I'm not saying you
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ask to get back with him but you owe it to him to let him know that it was never his fault. That you regret what you did. That you're sorry. You still love him & you never stopped loving him even after all this time. He needs to know how you feel, hyung. You need to let him
ask to get back with him but you owe it to him to let him know that it was never his fault. That you regret what you did. That you're sorry. You still love him & you never stopped loving him even after all this time. He needs to know how you feel, hyung. You need to let him
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know and you need to let yourself feel. Both of you will never get closure if you don't tie your loose strings."
Yoongi knows Jungkook has a point. But Jungkook doesn't know the guilt of hurting someone else. Yoongi knew what he was getting into. He knew the consequences.
know and you need to let yourself feel. Both of you will never get closure if you don't tie your loose strings."
Yoongi knows Jungkook has a point. But Jungkook doesn't know the guilt of hurting someone else. Yoongi knew what he was getting into. He knew the consequences.
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What he didn't realize at the time was how much it would impact Seokjin. He had received messages of confusion, of questions he knows the answer to but is too ashamed to say, messages of betrayal, of words that stab like arrows and his heart their sole target, messages of
What he didn't realize at the time was how much it would impact Seokjin. He had received messages of confusion, of questions he knows the answer to but is too ashamed to say, messages of betrayal, of words that stab like arrows and his heart their sole target, messages of
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anger, of hatred that boiled over so much it burned him. Then it simmered down gradually into nothing and he was all alone in radio silence. He didn't like receiving those messages because it showed to him just how much he tore Seokjin apart. How much pain he brought to
anger, of hatred that boiled over so much it burned him. Then it simmered down gradually into nothing and he was all alone in radio silence. He didn't like receiving those messages because it showed to him just how much he tore Seokjin apart. How much pain he brought to
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someone who showered him with only love and affection. It was crippling. He was so ungrateful and so selfish. And then his heart is pushing him to continue to love? He doesn't think he should be allowed to love him again, not after that. He doesn't deserve to love him. He'll
someone who showered him with only love and affection. It was crippling. He was so ungrateful and so selfish. And then his heart is pushing him to continue to love? He doesn't think he should be allowed to love him again, not after that. He doesn't deserve to love him. He'll
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never deserve to love him.
But the heart remains stubborn and it tells him to care, to /want/ to care, to fix his mistakes no matter how much pain he caused. And it tells him to continue loving Seokjin because loving someone doesn't mean they have to love you back. It's
never deserve to love him.
But the heart remains stubborn and it tells him to care, to /want/ to care, to fix his mistakes no matter how much pain he caused. And it tells him to continue loving Seokjin because loving someone doesn't mean they have to love you back. It's
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difficult wanting to love someone who won't love you back, someone who has every right to not love you back, someone who used to love you. Maybe he's afraid. It's stupid and selfish again but he doesn't want to be rejected by Seokjin, if he ever does go and see him again.
difficult wanting to love someone who won't love you back, someone who has every right to not love you back, someone who used to love you. Maybe he's afraid. It's stupid and selfish again but he doesn't want to be rejected by Seokjin, if he ever does go and see him again.
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But Jungkook's right and that he owes Seokjin an apology, an explanation, a goodbye, a REAL goodbye face to face. Because he loves Seokjin and he doesn't want him to hurt anymore. He knows that the chances of him becoming a part of Seokjin's life again is zero to none. He's
But Jungkook's right and that he owes Seokjin an apology, an explanation, a goodbye, a REAL goodbye face to face. Because he loves Seokjin and he doesn't want him to hurt anymore. He knows that the chances of him becoming a part of Seokjin's life again is zero to none. He's
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not hoping for that. He's not even hoping for forgiveness but if he could just tell Seokjin that he's sorry, and that he misses him, and that he wishes he has his best life, then maybe loving him, if only on his own, wouldn't be so bad.
Asking Hoseok which hospital Seokjin
not hoping for that. He's not even hoping for forgiveness but if he could just tell Seokjin that he's sorry, and that he misses him, and that he wishes he has his best life, then maybe loving him, if only on his own, wouldn't be so bad.
Asking Hoseok which hospital Seokjin
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is confined in is already awkward enough but it has to be through the phone so he doesn't know how Hoseok is reacting.
"Yeah, he was awake. Still a little weak but he looks a lot better."
Yoongi nods, forgetting that the younger can't see him.
"Do you--do you think it's okay
is confined in is already awkward enough but it has to be through the phone so he doesn't know how Hoseok is reacting.
"Yeah, he was awake. Still a little weak but he looks a lot better."
Yoongi nods, forgetting that the younger can't see him.
"Do you--do you think it's okay
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for me to go there? I don't want to aggravate his state any further and I know how much he hates my guts."
Hoseok hums through the speaker. "No, I think you're good. Hyung is...not as averse to your existence as he usually is."
"Really? Why?"
"That I don't know. But he was
for me to go there? I don't want to aggravate his state any further and I know how much he hates my guts."
Hoseok hums through the speaker. "No, I think you're good. Hyung is...not as averse to your existence as he usually is."
"Really? Why?"
"That I don't know. But he was
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asking about you before he fainted."
Yoongi could only blink at that. "He was?"
"Yeah. I don't know if it was just me though but there was a sad kind of fondness around his eyes when he mentioned your name, like longing."
The smallest piece of hope blooms in Yoongi's chest
asking about you before he fainted."
Yoongi could only blink at that. "He was?"
"Yeah. I don't know if it was just me though but there was a sad kind of fondness around his eyes when he mentioned your name, like longing."
The smallest piece of hope blooms in Yoongi's chest
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but he is quick to push it down because that's not what he's going there for.
"If you're sure. I really don't want to cause trouble. I just want to wish him well."
"Don't worry, hyung. It's fine."
"Okay. I trust you."
The younger hums in response again before continuing, "I
but he is quick to push it down because that's not what he's going there for.
"If you're sure. I really don't want to cause trouble. I just want to wish him well."
"Don't worry, hyung. It's fine."
"Okay. I trust you."
The younger hums in response again before continuing, "I
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can't accompany you though. I'm already on my way back to the company."
"Oh." Okay, maybe Yoongi is biting off more than he could chew.
He hoped for Hoseok to be there so he could have some form of support/buffer in case Seokjin doesn't take to him well. But that just flew
can't accompany you though. I'm already on my way back to the company."
"Oh." Okay, maybe Yoongi is biting off more than he could chew.
He hoped for Hoseok to be there so he could have some form of support/buffer in case Seokjin doesn't take to him well. But that just flew
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out the window and maybe he's panicking a little bit. He almost misses when Hoseok talks again.
"It's my son's turn to watch over right now. I'll just let him know you're visiting."
"Okay. Thank you, Hoseok."
"No need to thank me, hyung." A pause. "You know, I'm glad you're
out the window and maybe he's panicking a little bit. He almost misses when Hoseok talks again.
"It's my son's turn to watch over right now. I'll just let him know you're visiting."
"Okay. Thank you, Hoseok."
"No need to thank me, hyung." A pause. "You know, I'm glad you're
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doing this. It's been a long time coming but you and Seokjin-hyung--you both need this."
"I--I'm sorry for what I did."
"Bah! Don't apologize to me! Seokjin-hyung's the one who should hear those words."
"R-right."
"You can do this, hyung! Fighting!"
The call ends with a
doing this. It's been a long time coming but you and Seokjin-hyung--you both need this."
"I--I'm sorry for what I did."
"Bah! Don't apologize to me! Seokjin-hyung's the one who should hear those words."
"R-right."
"You can do this, hyung! Fighting!"
The call ends with a
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click.
The door to Seokjin's hospital room is intimidating. Yoongi can't help but feel nervous to the point of being clammy but Jungkook rubs at his shoulders and tells him he can do this. He hovers his hand over the door--god, he's actually doing this--before knocking.
click.
The door to Seokjin's hospital room is intimidating. Yoongi can't help but feel nervous to the point of being clammy but Jungkook rubs at his shoulders and tells him he can do this. He hovers his hand over the door--god, he's actually doing this--before knocking.
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He waits. And waits. And waits.
He turns to Jungkook with a confused expression, the younger shrugging in reply. He knocks again but the door remains closed.
"We /are/ at the right room, right?"
He squints at the name of the patient on the door and it says 'Kim Seokjin" but
He waits. And waits. And waits.
He turns to Jungkook with a confused expression, the younger shrugging in reply. He knocks again but the door remains closed.
"We /are/ at the right room, right?"
He squints at the name of the patient on the door and it says 'Kim Seokjin" but
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why isn't anyone answering?
"Didn't you say Hoseok-hyungim's son is supposed to be here?"
"Yeah. Maybe I should call him?"
He knocks on the door one more time while dialing Hoseok's number. He tries to listen for any movement coming from the inside the room but it's like
why isn't anyone answering?
"Didn't you say Hoseok-hyungim's son is supposed to be here?"
"Yeah. Maybe I should call him?"
He knocks on the door one more time while dialing Hoseok's number. He tries to listen for any movement coming from the inside the room but it's like
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it's completely deserted.
"Hello! This is Jung Hoseok of Genius Entertainment. You are receiving this message because I am unable to answ--"
"Hoseok's not picking up. Must be in a meeting."
"What do you want to do now, then?"
Yoongi looks at the door and throws all forms of
it's completely deserted.
"Hello! This is Jung Hoseok of Genius Entertainment. You are receiving this message because I am unable to answ--"
"Hoseok's not picking up. Must be in a meeting."
"What do you want to do now, then?"
Yoongi looks at the door and throws all forms of
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hesitation and reason away. He reaches for the doorknob and twists it, finding it unlocked. He turns back to Jungkook who looks just as bemused as he is. The younger urges him to go on and his heart starts beating faster. He's never been more nervous than he is now and he
hesitation and reason away. He reaches for the doorknob and twists it, finding it unlocked. He turns back to Jungkook who looks just as bemused as he is. The younger urges him to go on and his heart starts beating faster. He's never been more nervous than he is now and he
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tries to calm himself down because his age doesn't really warrant this much emotional activity. Taking one last deep breath, he opens the door wider, peeking into the room.
"Hello?" What was Hoseok's son's name again? Jinyoung? Junyoung? Jinseo? "Kim Junseo-ssi?"
No one
tries to calm himself down because his age doesn't really warrant this much emotional activity. Taking one last deep breath, he opens the door wider, peeking into the room.
"Hello?" What was Hoseok's son's name again? Jinyoung? Junyoung? Jinseo? "Kim Junseo-ssi?"
No one
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answers. Is the kid not here? But what about--
"Hyung," Jungkook calls him with a loud whisper. He looks back and the younger is handing him--oh right, the bouquet. He takes it from Jungkook who offers him an encouraging smile and two thumbs up. He tries to smile in return
answers. Is the kid not here? But what about--
"Hyung," Jungkook calls him with a loud whisper. He looks back and the younger is handing him--oh right, the bouquet. He takes it from Jungkook who offers him an encouraging smile and two thumbs up. He tries to smile in return
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but it probably looks like a grimace. Still he presses on. He walks further into the room, the door closing behind him. He stands on what looks like a short hallway with doors on both sides, probably the closet and the bathroom. The hallways opens up into the rest of the
but it probably looks like a grimace. Still he presses on. He walks further into the room, the door closing behind him. He stands on what looks like a short hallway with doors on both sides, probably the closet and the bathroom. The hallways opens up into the rest of the
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room. He sees the edge of a bed and his heart only picks up the pace. He starts walking, a million thoughts passing through his head like how will Seokjin react and what he is going to say and--shit, he doesn't even know what Seokjin looks like after all these years. That
room. He sees the edge of a bed and his heart only picks up the pace. He starts walking, a million thoughts passing through his head like how will Seokjin react and what he is going to say and--shit, he doesn't even know what Seokjin looks like after all these years. That
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thought makes him stop in his tracks just before crosses the end of the hallway and he has to take another deep breath. He probably spends half a minute collecting himself before he feels ready and that's when he notices how awfully quiet the room actually is. He furrows his
thought makes him stop in his tracks just before crosses the end of the hallway and he has to take another deep breath. He probably spends half a minute collecting himself before he feels ready and that's when he notices how awfully quiet the room actually is. He furrows his
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eyebrows in confusion because Hoseok had said that Seokjin was already awake. Shouldn't he have heard him enter the room by now? Why isn't he saying anything? Yoongi walks a few more steps, the bed becoming more visible with each one until he's fully out of the hallway and
eyebrows in confusion because Hoseok had said that Seokjin was already awake. Shouldn't he have heard him enter the room by now? Why isn't he saying anything? Yoongi walks a few more steps, the bed becoming more visible with each one until he's fully out of the hallway and
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standing in the room. He takes a sharp intake of breath as soon as he lays his eyes on the person lying on the bed asleep.
His lips start to tremble and he has to cover his mouth with his hand to keep himself from making noise because right in front of him is Kim Seokjin.
standing in the room. He takes a sharp intake of breath as soon as he lays his eyes on the person lying on the bed asleep.
His lips start to tremble and he has to cover his mouth with his hand to keep himself from making noise because right in front of him is Kim Seokjin.
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He takes in Seokjin's sleeping form, the older lying on his back on the partly inclined bed, his chest rising up and down in a slow but steady motion. Yoongi's eyes get drawn to Seokjin's face, calm and without worries. Before he can stop them, his feet take a few steps
He takes in Seokjin's sleeping form, the older lying on his back on the partly inclined bed, his chest rising up and down in a slow but steady motion. Yoongi's eyes get drawn to Seokjin's face, calm and without worries. Before he can stop them, his feet take a few steps
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forward. Closer to the bed now, Yoongi sees the wrinkles around Seokjin's eyes and forehead. A couple of age spots are also scattered on his cheeks. His hair isn't completely black anymore, graying in some areas, and shorter than how he kept it back when they were younger.
forward. Closer to the bed now, Yoongi sees the wrinkles around Seokjin's eyes and forehead. A couple of age spots are also scattered on his cheeks. His hair isn't completely black anymore, graying in some areas, and shorter than how he kept it back when they were younger.
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It's obvious just how much time has passed and it's a little shocking to Yoongi because in his mind he'd always imagined Seokjin like how he last saw him, young and so, so beautiful. He's definitely not as young-looking now (likewise with Yoongi) but even if time took away
It's obvious just how much time has passed and it's a little shocking to Yoongi because in his mind he'd always imagined Seokjin like how he last saw him, young and so, so beautiful. He's definitely not as young-looking now (likewise with Yoongi) but even if time took away
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their youth, it could never take away Seokjin's beauty. He's still as breathtaking as ever, his eyelashes softly gracing his cheeks and his lips poised to a full pout. Yoongi has to still his heart because seeing Seokjin after all this time makes his heart beat like it's
their youth, it could never take away Seokjin's beauty. He's still as breathtaking as ever, his eyelashes softly gracing his cheeks and his lips poised to a full pout. Yoongi has to still his heart because seeing Seokjin after all this time makes his heart beat like it's
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falling in love all over again. And he knows that is exactly what's happening. The sky outside is a deep orange because of the setting sun, making Seokjin and the entire room glow gold. It feels like he's stuck in time in a precious moment and Seokjin's just sleeping but
falling in love all over again. And he knows that is exactly what's happening. The sky outside is a deep orange because of the setting sun, making Seokjin and the entire room glow gold. It feels like he's stuck in time in a precious moment and Seokjin's just sleeping but
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he's so ethereal and pure and that's how Yoongi knows he loves him too much.
He moves closer as if in a trance and starts to reach out a hand when Seokjin moves in his sleep, crinkling his eyebrows.
"Yoo...ngi..." he whimpers and Yoongi has to take a step back. Is Seokjin
he's so ethereal and pure and that's how Yoongi knows he loves him too much.
He moves closer as if in a trance and starts to reach out a hand when Seokjin moves in his sleep, crinkling his eyebrows.
"Yoo...ngi..." he whimpers and Yoongi has to take a step back. Is Seokjin
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awake?
"Don't...don't leave me, please..." Seokjin continues and Yoongi drops the flowers. "You can't...do this..."
Jungkook was just minding his own business, waiting for Yoongi in front of Kim Seokjin's hospital door, when someone approaches him, "Excuse me? Can I help
awake?
"Don't...don't leave me, please..." Seokjin continues and Yoongi drops the flowers. "You can't...do this..."
Jungkook was just minding his own business, waiting for Yoongi in front of Kim Seokjin's hospital door, when someone approaches him, "Excuse me? Can I help
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you?"
He turns to the voice and sees a young man holding a carton of food, looking at him inquisitively.
"Oh? Are you Hoseok-hyungnim's son?"
"Ah, yes, sir! You're here to visit Uncle?"
As Jungkook is about to answer, the door to Seokjin's room opens suddenly & Yoongi rushes
you?"
He turns to the voice and sees a young man holding a carton of food, looking at him inquisitively.
"Oh? Are you Hoseok-hyungnim's son?"
"Ah, yes, sir! You're here to visit Uncle?"
As Jungkook is about to answer, the door to Seokjin's room opens suddenly & Yoongi rushes
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out of it, pale like he's just seen a ghost.
"Hyung!" Jungkook exclaims. "How'd it go?"
Yoongi pauses for a bit as if distracted, unease clear on his features, before shaking his head.
"He's asleep."
"Aahh," Jungkook nods in understanding. "Hoseok-hyungnim's son is here."
out of it, pale like he's just seen a ghost.
"Hyung!" Jungkook exclaims. "How'd it go?"
Yoongi pauses for a bit as if distracted, unease clear on his features, before shaking his head.
"He's asleep."
"Aahh," Jungkook nods in understanding. "Hoseok-hyungnim's son is here."
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Yoongi turns to the young man beside him, staring at him before half-bowing. "Please tell your father I said thank you."
The kid scrambles to bow back. "Oh! Um, yes, sir."
Yoongi then starts walking away quickly and Jungkook is a bit perplexed at that.
"Hyung, wait!"
He nods
Yoongi turns to the young man beside him, staring at him before half-bowing. "Please tell your father I said thank you."
The kid scrambles to bow back. "Oh! Um, yes, sir."
Yoongi then starts walking away quickly and Jungkook is a bit perplexed at that.
"Hyung, wait!"
He nods
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at Hoseok's son, saying his own thanks and an apology for Yoongi's behavior before jogging off after his cousin. Yoongi is already entering the elevator and Jungkook rushes to catch him before the doors close.
He's a little out of breath when he reaches the elevator.
"What
at Hoseok's son, saying his own thanks and an apology for Yoongi's behavior before jogging off after his cousin. Yoongi is already entering the elevator and Jungkook rushes to catch him before the doors close.
He's a little out of breath when he reaches the elevator.
"What
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the hell was--"
Jungkook stops mid-scold when he sees Yoongi hunched over himself, hand over his eyes, and tears falling down his cheeks.
"What happened, hyung?" he asks gently.
"Coming here was a mistake. I can't barge into his life again. I shouldn't. He deserves better."
the hell was--"
Jungkook stops mid-scold when he sees Yoongi hunched over himself, hand over his eyes, and tears falling down his cheeks.
"What happened, hyung?" he asks gently.
"Coming here was a mistake. I can't barge into his life again. I shouldn't. He deserves better."
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