Thread by @julie_is_alive

Why I believe in a personal, real God, and why I believe he/she/they love me: too many times in my life, things have worked out for me way better than they should have.

I don't understand why me, when so many suffer, but I sincerely believe I'm #blessed

Today was another crazy thing that just worked out. I'm going through a rough time and through complete irresponsibility and poor planning, I ended up $310 in the hole in my checking account. Last night I drove to work wondering if I would make it there, I was so low on gas.

Last pay period, I had been sick and my kids had been sick and I missed work. My paycheck was going to be unusually small, so I had bills to pay and I didn't know how I was going to pay them. I went to work knowing my paycheck would be direct deposited at midnight and

I would be able to buy gas in the morning. My paycheck never came in last night. This morning I got off work and called the bank. There was a processing error and nobody's direct deposit had gone through. They were working to fix it.

I explained to the lady on the phone that I couldn't get home until the issue was resolved, because, gas. She refunded my account until I was $50 in the black. I could go home.

But even better, now I can afford to pay my bills. Lucky there was a processing error. Lucky the lady was kind.

Stuff like this happens to me all the time (not negative checking balances but amazing "coincidences"). All the time. More than anyone else I know. Ask me for more stories, I've got even better ones.

So, as far as the negative balance goes, I will "go and sin no more".

Every time something like this works out ridiculously well, I am left wondering what I did to deserve this good fortune. I don't have an explanation for this happening so often except for God? I'm #exvangelical but I don't doubt God's existing.

I do, however, believe that the modern church is an abomination. There's no loving God in church. So I #EmptyThePews but I still believe.