I don't know what to call those upswings. They aren't mania or hypomania - I asked my psychologist at the time. They're kind of sort of mania? Since I did get some semblance of sleep in that mode.

The crash was never worth it. Mania lures you in. It's very seductive. You have all of this energy, don't need sleep, can focus on everything and nothing at the same time.

You'll feel a joy so high and bright that it's as if you're the sun. Have laughing fits for literally *no* reason.

Able bodied people like to think that accessibility means special privileges that they are sadly missing out on.

Like service dogs. Why is that? Is it dangerous for you to traverse the outside world without a service dog? Do you have tens of thousands of dollars? Service dog training is very expensive. They undergo very specific training for their owner.

The dog has a job to do in public, not happy fun times with its owner. They don't bark excessively in public, or don't bark at all.

Somehow this cat annoying me for food has reminded me of when I first dealt with ableism. That ableism was a part of why I tried to work from home. I was told that I was lazy. That I wasn't contributing to the world (aka capitalism), and how that made me a terrible person. The person who said this, I think they have the same opinion.